I live alone, and I have found lockdown tough. I am aware that I live in a rural community, and have a garden and so am more fortunate than many.
From the start of this I was prepared for a marathon, not a sprint, so even in the early days I was not adhering totally to the rules.
In the last six weeks, I haven’t been more that a mile from home. I haven’t needed to. I have really reduced my shopping. I go to the same Lidl and time my visits for when it is quiet. I am also supporting the local butcher and baker.
Each evening I have continued to walk round the park with my dog, with the same person I have walked round with for years. I designated them an honorary family member, and so have not bothered with social distancing in that isolated case. The walk takes about 15 minutes, and so my personal risk assessment has been that that’s okay.
In the morning if i see other dog walkers I know we chat from the 2 metre plus distance.
I have visited a friend a couple of times over the six weeks. We have sat outside in the garden maintaining the 2 metre plus distance.
I am still stroking other dogs I know, and I have refused to wash groceries or leave post to disinfect. My reasoning for this is we all do have to catch it at some point in some form, and the viral load on these items must be minimal. However I don’t think it’s a bad thing to expose my immune system to a small amount of the virus.
The negatives are the effect on my joints, of not being able to do my usual swimming and Pilates. I am on a waiting list for a knee replacement. The knock on effects of the operation delays caused by this virus are going to be really difficult for me. Basically I need to have both knees replaced, my left hip needs redoing for the 3rd time, and my right hip for the first. I am riddled with Osteo arthritis. I am struggling to walk on some days.
I also suffer from health anxiety and being alone so much is not good for me.
I am not expecting a return to complete normality for months if not years, but the impact of lockdown v the effects of the virus have to be judged.
If lockdown becomes permanent then I am not sure that’s an existence I want. I think I would rather take my chance with the virus.