I know IABU but I am totally fed up of lockdown

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So. I know I have an awful lot to be thankful for. My family are all in good health, we have no change in our income (yet), my husband is able to work from home, we have a big garden and had plenty of nice weather to enjoy it. There's just us two and our toddler in our house. We're a lot more fortunate than many.

But... I quite honestly don't know how much longer I can stand it. I'm grieving our old life, missing my parents so much, and finding it SO HARD to keep my toddler occupied at home.

I just want to go back to normal 😭 and it doesn't look like there will be a "normal" for a while. It's all just so uncertain and indefinite. It feels like there is nothing to look forward to any more and every day is a chore.

Anyone want to offer some solidarity?

Same - starting to get me down. My parents are driving me mad (from afar) as they can't see us. We have had cancelled holiday, I'm
On furlough but others doing my job so having to still give daily advice and help! Would just like to get back to something normal! Hubby is shielding - we havnt been our for 7 weeks now!

History I can’t wait to go to kenwood and the National Gallery.

I'm at that level too. Grateful for our health and that we both have our jobs (at the moment), but do have a 4yr old at home, whilat working from home myself, in a flat with no garden. I miss the routine of going to work in an office.

We have had a holiday cancelled already and have a UK based one on the calendar for end of summer that we booked ages ago. We are not well off but managing and can usually afford a couple of short UK based hols a year and really look forward to these. I don't want to get my hopes up for summer though.
Also, my partner got a new job this year which finally freed up her weekends and I was really looking forward to spontaneous weekends away for the first time in 6 years! That's all out the window.

Glad to hear that wretched phrase “new normal” being debunked. Thank you @GoldenOmber. In fact, fuck all the wretched catchphrases like “stay home”, “social distancing”, “essential travel only”, and indeed that loathsome 8-letter word beginning with L. When it’s over, and we’re all nursing our financial wounds, I never want to hear any of them again.

I actually think it's the throwing around of the 'new normal' phrase that has increased everyone's unease over the last few days

I do feel like a lot of government messaging at the moment is taking the wrong tone. It's as if they think the whole public imagines life will be totally back to normal next week so they need to keep reminding us that the virus will be around for a while. When in fact most people already know this, and now people are getting increasingly stressed and worried that the current situation will drag on and on and on forever.

I just don't like the weird drip feeding of doom. The 'new normal' and 'disruptive social distancing for some time' messages without any real plan is very intimidating, somehow.

@IvinghoeBeacon you would be surprised at how many people don't know that restrictions will be lifted gradually!

Believe me I have come across alot of them on social media who still think they are going to go on their holidays this year.

Seriously they o don't get that social distancing and airports dont go together yada yada.

Keffie - posts like this are part of the bloody problem! Because unless one of us actually said we thought we'd be going on holiday, or unless you are actually a government adviser, you don't know any more than any of the rest of us!!

Anxious it’s designed to be intimidating

The thing I never want to hear again is “self shielding”. I actually know someone doing this. She won’t go in her garden when the neighbours are in theirs. She nearly got me to do her a mega favour. She doesn’t have a shielding letter. That’s one friendship over.

33 days of C19 for me and I would love to be well. It is working its way through our household. I think you should be thankful you and yours are well.

wtf Lilac? Does she think she accidentally got missed off the list, or what?

33 days of C19 for me and I would love to be well. It is working its way through our household. I think you should be thankful you and yours are well.

I hope that you feel better soon, but CV-19 is not the only concern in the world right now. It isn't the only illness or condition either and just because people don't have Covid-19 it doesn't automatically mean that they are well physically or mentally. People are allowed to complain when they're struggling, even if they don't have additional issues.

Yes totally feel the same - you are not alone! I feel much worse this week. It feels like just treading water with no end in sight. I'm normally pretty resilient and calm but this is really starting to mess with my head.

Oh hell yes! I miss my grown up kids. I miss my mum. I miss my grandchildren (21 months and 12 weeks, and I usually spend 2 or 3 days a week with them ) so much I could chew my own arm off. DH not furloughed although many of his colleagues have been, but there is to be “an address” tomorrow and we think
there will be an announcement that they will be making mass redundancies.....should be going on holiday at the end of May and we’d made such lovely plans......and it looks like a major surgery that I’ve already had twice has failed again and will need doing again. I’m disabled and don’t drive, so literally have my 4 walls and the garden, and now it’s piddling down with rain ☹️

Golden yes, she tried to get on it. Given the hysteria, I’m imagining a lot of people will.

Perky - are you finding it’s like pneumonia? Thing is, I wouldn’t want everyone in lockdown to stop me getting that, or any disease, again. I was actually pondering my hospitalisations and thinking, is this worse?. I think it is, because at least when I was ill, I knew the rest of the world was just free to be and hadn’t their basic rights shat on - though admittedly it’s not a possibility I thought much about at the time!

But, I was ill, I would live or die, that was it. There wasn’t a “looking down the lens of fewer rights and a massive economic depression”.

We are very lucky to be in the situation we are. No illness (so far), no money worries, no worries about employment, own house with a big garden, etc.

But fuck me I am so, so bored now. It’s starting to send me a bit bonkers. I don’t know how much longer I can tolerate being stuck in this Groundhog Day before I go round the bend.

And I really want to see my family. I miss them so much and FaceTime/WhatsApp just doesn’t cut the mustard any more.

Cried most of the last 24 hours and I’m one of the very lucky ones in this situation.

Actually I think we are all ‘grieving’ normal life and going through the five stages of grief. Denial (many of us didn’t believe this would greatly impact normal life) Anger (we all felt anger confusion and frustration at the serious turn of events) Bargaining (The ‘if only’ stage, trying to make sense of it all- if only lockdown happened sooner, if only we had more PPE etc) and I for one feel like I’m in the Depression stage I feel completely overwhelmed and helpless today.
On the positive side I guess the other end of this is Acceptance..

I am sick of all this.

Am sick of the mass hysteria

Am sick of the papers and the news

I no longer belief the gvt have any kind of long term plan

Am also sick of my poor grammar and spelling

I'm sick of it too. Really fed up and had enough now. Prone to outbursts of temper and tears and just completely done.

Me too, and since a fall and serious leg injury 7 months ago, needing a operation bad enough then all my hydrotherapy etc has stopped, can't hardly walk, like everyone else here life has become non existent, ..
so fed up, and I think it's going to be years and before we get back where we were if ever, .. seems life has changed forever and it's not nice .. sorry wish I could say something to cheer us all up, but I like many so fed up

stay safe x

It's like groundhog day. So so fed up. Lost my brother to cancer 2 mths ago can't see friends or family when we need them most. Kids are or happy, hate homeschooling, we trying to wfh. And if u complain you told 'least you still alive & working' I know am v v lucky but am allowed to be sad & pissed off. I feel governments just telling people 'stay home' is an easy way out & their tone right now is well 'you have not done as your told so we have to extend it'. Get proper procedures & testing & safety gear in place so we can start living again, we will not 'stay home' indefinitely. Its a rotten disease but it's not the only thing making people ill right now.

LilacTree1
I first 2 weeks my lungs very badly affected, shortness of breath and near constant air hunger, hallucinations, delirium, rigors, severe chest and abdominal pain, fatigue, uncoordinated, I could go on. Milder now with air hunger, pain, occasional rigors, feel out of it. Can’t shake it off. Said goodbye to my partner twice. It’s vile.

It’s the boredom and sameness that is really getting to me. Also the never being alone - My DH is working 6 days a week, and one DD is at school still (complex SEN & attends a special school), however my other DD is home and she is getting more frustrated & angry every day at not being able to see her friends and live her life and is mostly taking that out on me.

I keep hearing from friends about how they are happy to be decorating or sorting their cupboards out etc.. but we don’t have any of that to do! I always have my house really clean/tidy/organised, we got the whole house decorated in February and work we had arranged to be done in our garden is on hold because the company can’t get the supplies.

I wish I could get motivated to learn something or start a new hobby but I just can’t seem to make a start.