cantcope just sending you lots of love, I have anxiety/OCD/autism and have struggled a lot last few days .
Try and rationalise things as much as you can; I was told to take my thoughts to ‘court’ in my mind and ask the jury to decide if they’re likely to be accurate . I know how silly that sounds but it helps a little bit . So you say for example, ‘that tiny bit of bleach, is it likely to seriously harm us , what’s the evidence’ and the jury will almost certainly say no, it’s false ... write it down if you have to - thought, reliable evidence for and against, and then verdict - and then move on.
I know that if you can’t try to rationalise this, you’ll be onto something else within the hour , and we can’t live like that at all, it isn’t healthy or fair for anyone - least of all yourself .
So stop thinking about bleach, stop posting on here just now, don’t watch the news - do something else entirely if you can .
For future reference don’t call 111 just now - I know , goes against my old habits too but hey, it’s a good habit to break - the samaritans are still open if you need a chat with someone but there’s also lots of other helplines ... I’m Scottish so if you’re in England whatever helplines I suggest probably don’t operate in the same way with you - I think you probably have more! - but try google if you can . Sensibly - search mental health helplines .
Just sending you lots of love - you aren’t stupid, but you do need to try and keep control of your behaviour as much as you possibly can just now .