Probably should be in AIBU

[florencerusty]

because I think I am, and ungrateful and unrealistic .....

I want a baby, another baby. I have 3 dd's (24,21 and 20 months) and a DS with the angels who would have been 3.

I am knocking on rather and its optimistic to say the least, though not impossible.

I'd just like 1 more baby, but we have agreed not to 'try', if it happens then great but no counting, temping, charting blah blah blah

arghhhh thats it really

Why is that unreasonable, ungrateful or unrealistic? If anything it sounds to me a very sensible attitude. You want more children, so you are giving yourself the opportunity to cnceive again. Not putting youselves unde pressure.

I also think you have an excellent attitude towards wanting to extend your family...you are oviously dedicated and feel you need/want to do this...
I wish you lots of luck X