Playing the waiting game!!

[shelly24]

Hi everybody,
I just wanted to chat to anybody who has recently ovulated and is now having to wait to find out if they are expecting or not.
This is my first month ttc since i lost my first son who was stillborn in may.
I am desperate to be pregnant again,not to replace my little boy,but to be back on that path i was following,and nearly at the end of
I was fertile between last wednesday and sunday just gone,my poor dh has been on demand for nearly two weeks!(bless him!)
We're so ready to do this again,i just hope it doesn't take too long(fingers crossed!)

Yeah i read about your testing earlier!...bet that was nerve racking huh!!?
Sounds good though!It may be good news for you!!!.x.x.x

We will see. Are yo around tomoz just incase? Im off to bed as exhausted.

Ofcourse hun.x
Sleep tight,spk to you tomorrow.x

((((((((((shelly24)))))))))))

Just checked the other threads and read your story.I am glad you have hooked up with Maddyd and the others.They are so supportive.

I lost my second child Philippa in April.I have a daughter Lucy aged 20ths.I was 25 weeks pg and she stopped moving.The rest I am sure you can imagine.

I so feel for you.I have said that without Lucy I would not have got through this.I cannot therefore begin to imagine your grief (sad]

I lost my mum too some years ago and its at these times you need them.
(i will not use abbrv in case you dont know)

My cyle is the same as yours (and maddyd and strike1 i think) my period is due on 31st.

Both my daughters were concived on two seperate nights of unprotected sex so i thought i was quite fertile.We got the all clear in May and i thought right have sex on day 13(always have had 28 day cyle.Did that 1st month and period (AF) arrived day 31.I was gutted to say the least.So this month did ov tests and ov'd onday 17 and bd (sex)days 14,16 and 18.

My next door neighbour gave birth within days of me loosing philippa.its v v hard.I too find myself staring at newborns and heavily pg mums.My due date has just passed and i am hoping that i am entering a more positive chapter.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

p.s. sorry for essay

And im glad Chocolatepeanut has found Shelly. Youve been through so much both of you and will understand and sympathise with each other alot better than i can as you lost your babies so late. I lost mine at 12 weeks and was horrible but i cant imagine how it was for you two. Your strength as ive said before is an inseration. Take care you two.

P.s i have a pink smudge where the line should be this morning so still dont know. Think ill wait now to day of af and do a digi one as more accurate than the cheapy e bay ones

Inseperation im useless lately at typing

oh mad sounds promising for u, would tha put u in march?

Munz DO NOT GET ME EXCITED PLEASE!!!! It would be April

doh! well april's a great month as well. good luck! fingers x'ed for u - I love ppl testing cos I can't test any more!

My ultra early preg tests STILL have not arrived and I have complained again.

I have weed'd in pot and am off to buy one.Its still only cd27 so prob too early but am now completely obsessed

Was up in the night checking symptoms on here as feel v bloated and strange.DH not talking to me.I am so miserable.

Dreaming all night about AF arriving and being in tears.

I know i should wait till sun but i am so desperate and i know getting another BFN today will make me worse.Catch 22

Morning mad's...looking good hunnylookin good!Yep,you'd have an april baby if its a BFP!! I'm hoping for an april bubby too,as my oldest niece's birthday is then aswell(would be SOOO good!).
If you can hold out till AF date then do!we're all here to support you,whatever the result!!.x.x
Chocolatepeanut;Hello hun...i remember talking with you on the beareavement pages...how are you?Hope little lucy's ok and keeping you busy!,it was so lovely to hear from you.x
Made a big step huh?going from the breavement pages to the conception ones...feels weird in a way....not a day goes by when i don't think of my little Rhys(as with you and little Philippa.x),but i'm ready now to give him a little brother or sister,and not only that but i want to bring some happiness and hope to my life again!
Yep your on the same cycle as me!! Dreaded AF is due on the 31st and i'm a 28day cycle!
As you've probably read i gave up with the ov testing abit too early!(so just keeping my fingers crossed for this month!)So is this your 2nd month of ttc?
To be honest i try not to think about it too much during the day...i read about so many women on these sites who are really badly obsessed!and i can well imagine that it gets you like that,but i really don't want to get that bad!(just yet!)I love chatting to maddyd,and the other girls..they've been really supportive
Its really great to hear from you choc,keep chatting with us yeah,we can all get through the oncoming months together.x.x

Yes of course we have spoken before Shelly24.I have just looked up old threads

Mind gone you see its this ttc lark

Gets you that way huh!?
I'm trying to tell myself that i don't need to test unless my AF doesn't arrive(bold i know!),thats what my DH has said aswell,but its all very well for him to say that!Hes sooo laid back!!(bless him.x)
I don't usually get many symtoms before AF arrives...i need choc,but thats nothing new!I want that most of the time,thats my prob!!
So only time will tell i guess!

Am off now to do some tidying up!!
we're in the middle of decorating at the mo,so its abit of a tip!will come bk abit later.x

Ahh Bless i just went all tingly reading you two chatting. God i really am an emotional wreck.

Just did a Digi test cos im just too impatient and obviuosly was a big fat Not Pregnant. It says on the box dont use till af due and im only 10dpo but i still had to dot it. Somebody shoot me please or at least knock me out for a week till af comes

maddyd - right no more digital tests till saturday OK?? we'll help u hold out till then. there's prob just no enough hormones in ur body right now, at the earliest tomorrow but wait as long as u can babe.

Simplyfertility.com are resending pg tests as ordered last week.

But as i had saved am wee went to boots and bought first response which is supposed to be ok 4 days before af which i am.

bfn as i thought.v v annoyed with self.remembered that used test day af due before and got pale line only at that stage and not a dark one till af 5 days late

however got two tests and just GOT to save it for sun

need willpower FAST!!!!

Ok girls am back and have just laughed out loud cos we're all doing exactly the same!!!!.....
was tidying up and then thought 'sod it!..i'm gonna do a test!'...WAS....a BFN!!!!
AAAAARRGH!we really need to get a grip till the weekend,oh choc,like you i only got a decent line last time way after when my AF was due!So no wonder its not showing up at mo!..itsa way too early girls!!!
I really just wanted to know what my body was up to though!Its so annoying isn't it!
Brought OK magazine aswell today and its got jordan,peter andre and their new baby in it(hes gorgeous)but it turns me cos that should be you and me choc!!Whys the world so cruel huh!!?!

Im not actually due till the 2nd so the earliest i should test really is the 30th.And its what the 27th today. yes a bit early i thni but i get too impatient. xxxx

Sheely and CP and munz (who i notice is following and geeing everyone on who is ttcing, bless you) were are you from?

Thats only natural though hun,don't wori about it!
I REALLY don't think this month is my month to be honest..you know when you know,and you get that sort of gut feeling?
Its four days before for me now and the test was a strong negative,absolutly nothing in the test square!.
I've still got alittle hope and am now just gonna wait for my AF to arrive,and take it from there...as you said it IS my first month ttc,i can't expect too much of myself i guess,can i?!
How long you been ttc mads?(have i asked that b4!?)...am going mad!.x

I live just round the corner from Heathrow airport...how about you mads?

Since the mc in April, but it took a long time for me to get pg with that one.

Im from Wokingham which is near Reading. Junc 10 M4

Yeah,i know it,not that far away hey!?
Time seems to have really slowed down these days,and i've never experienced that before...its really weird not being at work(really can't face that at the mo),rushing around and trying to fit everything into one day!Nowadays i wake up,everyones at work(my dad lives with us...we're really close,and wanted him with us after mum died),i have some brekkie,and most of the time wonder what i can do with my day!(sad isn't it!)
Its especially weird i think when you get preg and plan so much for that baby for the future,and when thats taken away,your literally lost...i know i am right now,especially as`it was my first,it makes me panic sometimes because i wonder if i'll ever be able to be preg again!I really need to step back somtimes and think'hang on!this only happened just over 2 months ago...',but you really do forget sometimes!...

Shelly you cant expect to have rational thoughts after what you have been through. I just think its so unfair, why should you have to go through it all again. Why should any of us. You will get pg again, might not be this month. My goal is to be pg before christmas.