TTC whilst breastfeeding support thread - join me to share your ups and downs!

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Hi!
A little about me - I'm pushing 34, have a 10 month old DD that I'm still breastfeeding and really want to conceive no.2 asap!
I am on my second cycle since AF returned and am temp / CM / CP charting using fertility friend and have OPKs!
I ovulated on day 29 of my last cycle, and am on day 21 at the moment.
Have been having fun and games with very fertile signs over the past week, so lots of BD, but no ovulation, poor DH is full of a cold and not feeling very energetic but I keep insisting that he perform until my temps go up

So anyway - hoping that there are others out there in a similar boat who can help to keep me sane and hopefully share some good news in the coming months.

I'm waiting a little as well, LadyG. In some ways I feel completely calm, far more than I did with DD, but I know that's partly because I don't really believe that it's real anyway if that makes any sense. There's a place up here that used to do free reassurance scans so I'm going to get in touch and see if they can scan me in a couple of weeks when I'll be 7 weeks. 5 weeks today I think. No real symptoms here either - bit of constipation , occasional nausea, nipples are a bit tender but nothing major (and I was hoping my boobs were going to grow and refill my now saggy nursing bras, but nothing yet!). Did feel a bit sick today and felt very pleased about it! Oh and I was ridiculously over-emotional at the weekend and kept bursting into tears for no reason at all. Plus headaches. Sounds quite good when I write them all down, but they're super mild really. Trying not to worry as I think symptoms aren't going to start properly until 6 weeks or so anyway.

Mamafoof I'm so sorry, I keep remembering when I'm away from the internet that I never answered your question Still feeding quite a lot. First feed is usually the longest, which can be any time after 6 am until I pry her off to go and have a bath at 7.30, depending on when she wakes up (though was 7.10 today, result!). Then we sometimes have one after breakfast, sometimes one post-nap but can generally fob her off all afternoon (though yesterday had at least two feeds in the pm). Then one before bed, which was really short and she kept getting distracted by books etc so I managed to drop it twice and was delighted, but now she specifically asks for it, plus it's got much longer! That'll teach me to try to force the issue Tbh I'm happy to carry on as long as she wants (unless it gets very painful) - I already tandem feed her and Rabbit (soft toy, not actual animal) from time to time I thought I was desperate to wean but I'm loving how relaxed I am now (apart from the twinges of fear) so clearly I was actually just desperate to get pg again.

On which note, my SIL had a baby girl yesterday

New symptoms. Head all over the place today :

Went to the printer and completely forgot my printer pin number which I use every day! Had to ask IT for it

Forgot the name of the girl who sits next to me. Had to call her "thingy" - not to her face thank god

Went downstairs to get some stuff laminated and was completely captivated by the "beautiful amber eyes" of the guy who was doing it for me. Came back upstairs and went on about it for ages.

This is not typical behaviour for me.

Also was a hrorrible shouty Mummy at DS this morning who was being difficult to be fair but I hate it when I do that.

Dita have lasted, ooh one day and put name down on list just to mark my place.

at marking your place. I will prob be on tomorrow night when we get internet back at home.

Forgot that I have completely forgotten which side of the car my petrol tank is on. I have to keep reparking. I have been driving it for a year and not got it wrong once. Maybe I have more symptoms than I thought!

Hi Dita - no worries at all and thanks for the response! That's great that you are totally relaxed about it all so far - will need to take a leaf out of your book! (What a wierd expression.....that is right, isn't it?

LadyGoneGaga - lol! Sounds like a normal day at work for me!

Still very cautious on this end. No real symptoms other than fatigue and hunger - but not exactly unlike me!

LadyGG I knew it!!!

I have nothing left to cross (am not yet saggy enough to cross my nipples ), but wish everyone good luck and hope you all have sticky beans this time.

Ladies - i'm sorry to post here but really need some advice from friendly faces as I'm beside myself at the mo.

Here goes: I first poas at 13 dpo on first response and got a faint positive (as in fainter than control but definitely a line). Then I did another and the line was slightly darker. On the weekend I did a CB digi and got 2-3 preg. Yesterday (19 dpo) i decided to do another (stupidly) and have got a line but it looks fainter. Got so worked up but thought i would do another this morning using fmu but still faint (and think it's slightly fainter than last night?) The wierd thing is i still feel pg (twinges down there and not quite nauseous feeling but sicky - just like my first pg) but am so scared in case something is going wrong.

Should I test again? My doctor doesn't do blood tests - just relies on our hpt!

Your thoughts would be gratefull received - thanks so much xxx

Hey Mama, hope you're okay. I did exactly the same thing last time round - POAS a few weeks on expecting to see a nice dark line but it seemed as light if not lighter than before. As I understand it, how dark the line is depends entirely on how concentrated the hcg in your pee is, so if you've been drinking more or going to the loo more often or whatever then it will be more diluted if that makes sense. Also I think there can be variations between pregancy test sensitivities even if they are the same brand. Hopefully it will all be okay - I know for sure that it can be, as DD is proof of that.

Are you temping? Or is there anywhere you can go for an early scan? Whereabouts are you?

Hi Dita. I feel like crying. Just did a CB digi and it said preg but am now 1-2 weeks again which seems like hcg are getting lower?

can i just ask anywhere for an early scan? i thought you had to have a history of mcs or something else to get one.

i have been using just FR and CBU so can't blame it on different tests and have tested both using fmu and evening u.

Oh I am so sorry you are having such a horrible traumatic time :(

Early scans seem to vary by area I think. If you are anywhere near SW London then St George's in Tooting do early scans every morning (or they certainly used to) - you just turn up and wait and they accept "maternal anxiety" as a reason. I am in the NW now and there's a company here called Innervision which again used to do free reassurance scans and I've just emailed them to see if they still do them; I think they have a branch in Birmingham as well. If none of those are any good then it might be worth starting a thread in the pg forum with your area in the title asking for suggestions.

I imagine all the CB digis do is measure the amount of hcg in your urine and then compare it to the average levels for different stages of pregnancy, so it could still be due to your pee being more dilute, particularly if you're drinking a lot so you can test again.

Keeping everything crossed for you x

I've got everything crossed for you as well Mamafoof, and also agree with Dita about the diluting of the hormone in your wee. The tests which say how many weeks don't actually know how many weeks pregnant you are, they just go with the level of the hormone found and how many weeks they have decided people 'normally' are with those particular levels, so can definitely be influenced by the diluting thing too.

Hope you're ok xx

mamafoof i replied on the other thread but I googled EPUs and you can go for an early scan. It's in theirFAQs. Why dont you call your local one?

Hopefully you will be reassured by more POAS or Ditas story but if you need to, call.

p.s. Dita will you let me know what the scan company say?

Will do, though I have a vague memory that last time they didn't reply and had to call them. Thanks for the EPU info, that's fab. Warrington still closest for me so might call them if Innervision comes to naught, though also found an old thread saying St Mary's in Manchester don't need a GP referral so could go there.

I should get a GP - haven't bothered since we moved

I went to St Mary's when I was pg with DD. I fell over at Leeds station and was so mortified that no one helped, I just on the train crying all the way to Picadilly. I called my MW who told me to go to local EPU. I can't remember how I found St Mary's but I had to get DH to drive over and take me because I was in such a state.

They were very nice, I just walked in and they put me on a monitor. I think I was about 15-20 weeks but I had nothing to suggest there was something wrong. They were very sympathetic.

Thanks Hulla, Dita and LifeofKate - you ladies are truly ace.

I have found out there is a walk-in EPU v near me. Unfortunately I have a dreadful meeting I have to attend this afternoon (yeah, like I am in any state to make any sense) and then have to pick up my gorgeous DD (she says getting v emotional) so will go to epu tomorrow am instead.

Thanks so much for your kind wishes. Hopefully all will be ok in the end xx

Goodness Mamafoof, sorry you have to go to a meeting this afternoon, but hope all goes well tomorrow. I'm away now until Sunday night, but will be thinking of you and all the best xx

Thanks Ladies. Got a scan and although the lining was thick, they couldn't see anything. So they took my bloods and hormones were v low and low progestorone too which meant I won't have a viable pregnancy and it's all over. I am devastated. Kinda had a feeling as was so surprised we fell pg so soon (didn't even have a proper af since my dd was born a year ago) and was wondering if everything was going to be in working order.

am now worried there is something wrong with me. why weren't my hormones and prog high enough? do you think it's because I didn't have a proper af? or breastfeeding? (only down to one feed a day now).

sorry for the poor grammar/sp etc. going to hug my dh and dd now.

thanks again xx

Mamafoof so sorry you're having a terrible time . I hope you manage to get a scan tomorrow and that it's good news.

I was going to post my own tale of woe, but it doesn't seem appropriate right now. (Was only stupid obsessing and google-baiting anyway.)

x post, so sorry Mamafoof

I'm sure there's nothing chronically wrong with you. It takes time for the hormone levels to get back to normal and as you say it was your first cycle since your dd's birth. Take it easy for the next few days, it's absolutely okay to feel sad about this.

Am thinking of you. xx

Thank you silkenladder. I'm sorry you're feeling down. Please do post here about it - I'd hate to think you couldn't vent because of me. This is a post for all of us to vent whatever affects us. Ok, am sounding like a complete negatron so gonna leave now and sending you all mega happy and good vibes!! Xx

Thank you silkenladder. I'm sorry you're feeling down. Please do post here about it - I'd hate to think you couldn't vent because of me. This is a post for all of us to vent whatever affects us. Ok, am sounding like a complete negatron so gonna leave now and sending you all mega happy and good vibes!! Xx

I'm really sad for you, Mama. Are you absolutely sure of your dates? Any chance it could be earlier than you thought?

Thinking of you xxx

Oh Mama I'm so so sorry :(

mama I am so, so sorry

I was going to ask the same question as LadyGG.

I hope you're being kind to yourself and your dh is looking after you. Thinking of you and sending you lots of these ((((()))))

No def not a chance unfortunately. And the hormones and progestorone were v low. The tests make sense as the lines and indicator were getting lighter and reducing so knew deep down something was up. It's for the best I guess but still hurts and my dh is v upset as well.

Hulla - sorry, I'm relatively new to this post but I think something similar happened to you? How long did it take for you to try again? hope ou don't mind me asking and so sorry if you do. It's just that I do want to start soon but am petrified of this happening again.

take care ladies xx