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[VJay]

Ok, here we are, a new thread to see us into the next decade, and to celebrate more BFP's, growing bumps and new arrivals, and to enjoys those already here

wow monkey congratulations, although of course i realise you have other important things to focus on too, like the other girls have already said, just take it one step at a time and we are here whenever you need us.

mls im so sad to hear about your sister, it makes you realise that everyone always has other horrible stuff going on in rl as well as what we have all been through. i have had my fair share of crap over the last few yrs, but it can be hard to know what other people are going through too. i love my sister to bits and i couldnt imagine having to live my life without her, you are so brave mls.

i cried last night for the first time in over a month, today is exactly a yr from when i started bleeding with my 1st lost lo. i cant really put into words what i feel, dont even know what im trying to say, just typing it all out. i think i feel even more sad because ive been so happy since dp asked me to marry him, and i feel like ive neglected my 2 lost los for a while, even though i think about them probably every minute of every day. wish it didnt hurt so much. after my 2nd mc, it felt like my heart was broken and needed putting back together like a jigsaw. now its like ive managed to botch most of it together even if the pieces dont quite fit, but i still have a massive gaping hole in the middle

moon im sorry about you enduring a bad anniversary date but please please be easy on yourself, the fact that you have been so happy with dp is all part of the healing process and its normal not to think of the lost lo so often, even though this feels bad to us, like some how we are forgetting or moving on without them. This is perfectly normal, i remember the day i woke up and didnt think about my lost lo until i got home from work, i was horrified at myself for forgetting so easierly...its natural and im sure that massive hole you feel you have in your heart is just waiting to be filled with the love for a new lo, and im positive it will happen soon. Dont fight your body, it is healing and mending itself, go with the flow and see what happens.

Hope this some how makes sense??

Thanks mls for wise words, i am crapping myself about scan on tues since scare last sat tho & have overwhelming panic theyll find something wrong with baby or that my cervix is open & im leaking fluid.. I like what u said to monkey too, i feel an affinity with u losing ur sis as iv lost my bro & its the hardest thing losing a sibling, tho i was also in tears reading monkeys post & constantly sad i never got to make my dad a grandad.. Life can be just crap .....Moon also feelin ur pain, my 3rd lost baby should of been one on friday & next sat its a year since the 4th & last mc too.. Feels very surreal & am scared im due some bad luck again Sorry for melancholy post, did explain last night why iv been so low & stayed away, dont wanna bring things down, auntys funeral on weds prob accelarated it all (did go to wake, v sad) but as i said at beg of month i hate jan for many reasons...

Evening lovelies. Just want to give you all chocolate and hug you, makes me so sad to think of what some of you are going through/have been through. MLS such wise wors about your pregnancy bringing joy after such a hard time, really hope that will be true for monkey too. And as Moon says I cannot for the life of me imagine losing either of my sisters, you're so brave.
Thanks so much for heat patch tip too,will try those if my other remedies don't work soon! Got the dream genii (massive bargain which dh and I still grinning about...£20 and it had the special cherry cover ) much better night's sleep last night, and got my gym ball today so have been knitting my blanket while bouncing away on it- lovely!

4ever glad you've surfaced for a moment.. big hand holds and hairtrokes for Tues and I'm sure all will be just fine.

LBM I'm gonna get on the case thinking of J names for you...I love names As an aside- EVERYONE seems to be using Grace as a middle name right now, we know at least 6 in the last few months weird how trends happen!

evening all - cupcake yay to a better nights sleep and bargain pillow!

4ever - I know you are really down but your nightmare month is nearly over.. Just another week and by next January you'll have your little one to make it all better. Scan will be fine - you are due good not more bad luck. And I've been wobbling all week as LO was a bit quiet but better today - we all have our moments!

MLS Sorry, I forgot you yesterday! Hope you are well under the wise words you are dishing out. Is it going to be a long 2ww this month?

Got to go - unfortunatly, my curtain making isn't as fast as barbies and so, I still need to finish them!!

Yay to bouncing balls , I loved mine

Hi lovely ladies.

1st of all a for Monkey. I know that this is very hard and confusing for you now but the lo will help you so much in the forthcoming months and has someone extra special looking after him/her too. Take care and know we're here for you.

LBM DON'T READ THIS! Blue glad you're all caught up. Thought it was a great start to the series but that a certain person might have fought more. By the time this series ends I'll be a mum of two - eek! I'll just have to text you in future to discuss plot lines.

LBM sorry! Hope you get the DVDs soon. I'm feeling the need to try the west wing now as I've never seen it and can hear Blue and Cupcake's gasps of from here.

Cupcake Glad to hear you're sorted and getting some relief. Can we have a pic of theblanket when it's finished. I plan to start knitting when I stop work and marking.

MLS Loving the wise words. Totally not ignoring your emails. It's been a very busy week but I'll reply tomorrow. I'll text you straight after the scan and you could maybe post for me?

4ever squeezing your hand tight lovely and praying all will be fine for us both. Tiny steps and deep breaths.

Barbie gold star on being Mrs Organised. As for your other claims, I give you 6 weeks and you'll be wanting to talk baby poo too. I thought it would NEVER happen to me. Just wait and see

VJay Have you opened a book yet?

Scamper Glad you found us again and very glad your not who MLS thought. While I hope to meet up with all these lovely ladies one day, I'd hate to have RL foisted upon me on here. Plus MLS can really make us laugh wwith her RL scenarios at times and I'd hate that to stop.

Jools Yay for ovulation and the 2ww. Have everything crossed that this is your month and you'll soon be keeping Monkey and a few others company on the medium pants bench.

Moon Huge hug from me too. What you're describing sounds perfectly normal. You're starting to heal so you forget or feel the pain less for a while, then you rememeber, feel guilty and want to tear your own arm off to beat yourself with. You're doing fine and will move on. I promise.

Hi Iggy Hope you're coping ok.

Mermaid You've been very quiet. Are you ok?

I've had a very busy weekend but have scored another few things off my list. I ordered a new buggy yesterday and bought new curtains (very slovenly compared to Barbie and LBM() for our bedroom so the ones we had can go into baby's room.
We took DD to see Toy Story 2 in 3D today. it was her 1st time at the cinema and she loved it.
I have my scan to check the baby's kidney at 10.30 tomorrow. Feeling a bit wobbly about it all so positive thoughts please.
I went to church this morning for the 1st time in ages. After I got over the relief that the roof didn't fall on me I said a little prayer for you all. One of the hyms talked about God looking after unborn children and I took that as a sign for us all.

Hi to everyone else that I missed. Hope you're safe and happy.

hi neeko good luck for your scan tomorrow, please let us know how you get on as soon as you can . I have done some study, in fact Ive done the 1st 2 weeks worth already, it's really interesting and I've sped through the first bit, just hope I can keep it up. Not done any tonight, decided to spend an evening with dh , we are trying to find a Christening outfit for Ajay.

Hi Vjay and thanks. I'll text a few people after the scan and hopefully one of them will post.
When are you getting Ajay christened? Ilove a christening. There's a great shop nera me for outfits but about a 6 hour drive for you.

I've just noticed the Burns emoticons and my favourite [bbiscuit]

Boo! My favourite didn't work!

We are having him Christened on Valentines Day

Oh nice. Can't wait for those pics.

I cant sleep again, head racing... Thanks for understanding Lbm u lovely lady... X x ....U too Neeko, and just want u to know im holding ur hand with crossed fingers this morning as promised... X x x x x

neeko all the best for your scan today...will you get the result straight away? Im sure all will be rosy..and then you can get back to hanging the new curtains with peace of mind! I have one more pair to alter and then im done....which means all i have to do it sit pool side for the next few weeks.

4ever lovely lady...only a few days left of jan and then another month to tick off....im rooting for your scan on tues, again all will be fine with lo. What time is your appt? i have to go to hospital at 2.30 but should be back to read the good news....

vjayiswonderwomen i salute you, you fab lady! Well done on getting back into the study, i was thinking if studying something, maybe an english course so if we do stay living abroad i can at least teach or something
Post us a link when you find the christening outfit of choice...

lbm im sure the curtains are finished to quiet as high standard as yours...i plan to get my mum to make a few major minor adjustments when she comes over...How many weeks are you now?

Hello to everyone else, im just back from the doctors but wanted to post before neeko went to the doctors....

My new midwife was fab, listened the heart beat which was spot on target, measured my bump for the first time in all 36 weeks and told me its measuring 35cm she said to expect a small baby about 6-7lb and that i have very good skin as i have no stretch marks so she has high hopes that my perinuim will stretch nicely i could of kissed her.....you watch, ill have a 9lber, 3 degree tear and enough stretch marks to make a map out off!
The head is engaged and we are ready to go....Oh and my due date is now the 18th, we changed after she read my history and lack of af before.

Back soon x

curtains arent finished to quite a high standard...whoops

Just had a message from Neeko that the baby's kidney is just the same & they will monitor it after the birth. It is in the right position & is approx 5lb!

Loving the burns smilies. Quite appropriate as dh made haggis, neeps & tatties last night. Sorry to all the lovely ladies from Scotland but honestly it was like a bushtucker trial! I promised him I'd try the haggis, it took me ages to psych myself up, I put a tiny morsel in my mouth & left the rest - all I can say is boak! I had the last laugh though as he spent half an hour on the toilet this morning & came out looking rather green, well that's what you get for eating innards!

Thanls for the update MLs what is with the kidneys did i miss something?

boak at the haggis, never have tried is....especially as i always believed it was an uneven legged animal!

Barbie it is very interesting what you said about not having stretch marks being linked to not tearing - I've never heard of that before. I didn't get a single stretch mark with dd & also didn't tear with the birth. Yes, I suppose it makes sense that if you have stretchy skin on your tummy, it will be stretchy else where too!

Neeko Come back quickly & tell us all about the scan. I think you should add a bump pic to your profile, what about the pic you texted me last week?

Vjay you certainly sound like superwoman to me!

LBM I actually only have a few more days left of the 2ww!

Moon my heart aches for you. You and I both know what will mend that gaping hole in your heart & I'm sure this will be your year.

4ever you are not due bad luck. With all the shit you have been through in the last couple of years you are due good luck for a very long time.

Cupcake how is your back today?

Thanks for all of your lovely words about my sister. It is actually three years tomorrow since she died.

Barbie when I was little my Dad told me a haggis was a creature that had skinny legs & ran across the heather covered moors with a tartan hat on & I believed him!

Neeko's baby was showing to have a small problem with it's kidneys at her last scan but they weren't particularly worried about it as apparently it's a problem that usually sorts itself out.

mls thats what i was told too i think i believe it apart from the hat thing until last year

Sorry to hear yet another sad anniversary for you tomorrow, are you doing anything special?

Come on neeko bump pic.....

Hi all. A bit disappointed at the fact that baby's kidney hasn't changed, especially as the sonographer was the mum of one of the boys I teach - that should at least give her healing powers! [hwink] The baby has a mild case of renal pelvic dilation which may sort itself out or may result in an op after the baby is born. It's more common in boys than girls (which fits in with our hunch that we're having a boy) and there's nothing we can do but wait and see.
Glad baby is facing the right way though as I was convinced it was transverse and have a real phobia about a c-section after being in the OR for the ERPC last year. As for the weight - all I can say is [bbiscuit]

don't know where the h came from in my and you'll just have to imagine a hat on my !

Dear mnhq, please could we have some hats for our biscuits?

Thank you

Neeko I'm sure nothing anyone can say will make you not worry about the pelvic dilation but thank goodness there are no major problems. At least he(!) is formed correctly & everything internally is in the right place. What makes you think you are having a boy?