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Come on over, its cosy now mermaid has bought the throws and insulated the greenhouse

Heading out but will try and lurk on phone

annie your photos are beautiful

another big YAY for 4ever, things are looking good for you

hope all is well for iggy

hi curly its nice to have you back again

nothing to say from my side really, feeling a bit empty after the weekend, not sure if thats good or bad and have completely lost all faith in dp for the time being for not understanding what a crap time i am going through, i only want a hug and some reassurance now and again is that too much to ask? seems appropriate here!

Hi everyone

Just back from a fab weekend in Berlin We were 3.5 hours late back, thanks to Sleazyjet. I did try to post from the airport and offer 4Ever and Iggy more hands to hold but my phone wouldn't let me

Absolutely shattered and have got to repack to head off to Gloucester tomorrow for work, so just a quick hello. There are some pics of the weekend on facebook I think - not sure I am tagged in them yet, but probably will be, so you can take a peek

I was thinking of Moon at the weekend and keeping fingers tightly crossed that all was still well with Mermaid. Lovely to see Annie and Buddha back with us

Hopefully I will have internet access in my hotel and can catch up properly with everyone .... x x x

iggy saw the heartbeat & is a relieved & happy bunny, as i also am after another succesful & happy scan today! So far so good for scan day monday! mermaid next! ..... Only intended to lurk as shattered, but see concerns for ig so had to post to let ya kno... Whilst here once again i extend my most heartfelt thanks to u wonderful ladies for ur support, i love u dearly x x x x x ....... Also must offer a big & much needed hug to u moon x x Ill be back tomorrow x x

Just a quickie but fabulous news 4ever and Iggy* - just wonderful - as you say a "good scan day Monday"

Moon - big hug.

Annie - I've already cooed over your photos on FB. Your DS1 and 2 are absolutely gorgeous and you looked so so happy in your hospital goonie . So a VBAC wasn't meant to be but look at the end result a bonnie bouncing boy and happy, delirious Mum - what more can you ask for?

Love to all, I'm knackered and off to bed x

Hi all, so glad 4ever posted cos I has to battle with the Xmas shoppers to get home and post!

Anyway, it was good news, measuring right for my dates and saw strong heartbeat. So pleased! Obviously still a long way to go, but is already further than last time.

Thanks to all of you lovely girls for thinking of me, it means so much xxx

Hi all.

Have texted you already but so pleased for 4ever and iggy! Fab news. mermaid's turn for good news next.

Annie Welcome back! Lovely pics of you and your gorgeous sons. Congratulations! I know you'll have come to terms with your c-section by now. Doesn't matter how they come out as long as all is well.

Jools Welcome back too. So pleased to hear you had a good time. Really hope you had some Gluhwein at a Christmas market.

MLS Hope you're feeling better and the hands are beginning to heal. Hope your DD has coped ok with it all too.

Moon another big hug from me.

Blue any twinges yet? I'm getting quite excited for you.

I had planned to post to everyone tonight but I slipped on the 3rd stair when climbing the stairs earlier and landed back on top of the stairgate. I've had movement since so baby appears to be ok but feel all sore, twisted and as if I've been run over. Also feel quite stupid and clumsy I'll post more tomorow when in less pain.

iggy so pleased and relieved all rolled into one for you.

neeko think we had better rewrap you up in cotton wool. Slap some arnica on and please be careful. I suppose your weight balance is altering. You need barbies little old lady to carry you up the stairs.
So relieved you are ok though take it easy.

moon It is hard when you feel that gulf between your dh when all it feels like it would take is a big hug to make you feel better.

Blokes are blokes and they deal with things in such different ways and on a different level to us completely, no matter how 21C they are and even though they know how to cook courgettes, they are still neolithic with emotion.
We are all here for that exact reason of supporting each other lovely moon so hold on and we will get you through this.
After 4 mc I can see a very clear pattern for me and hope this helps you a little. It really does take me a full year to get myself back together and be able to touch babies feet( I just love babies feet) and be the normal person I was before a mc. You have done so blinking well, we have to sweep this year out of the way and start a nice new fresh one.x

well the lovely chemist got me masses of cyclogest and so we are keeping fingers crossed. dh is scared to ever touch me again and has started viewing me as some kind of scientific experiment Interesting to read they prescribe it for PND.

opps time to get ds up.
4ever is having a babyall so exciting. well done again ig mls hope dd is ok and you are tooxxx

annie hugest biggest congratulations he is delicious and you all look so very happy

jools glad you had an ace time, 'see' you later.x

just had a look at annie's pic - he is v. cute!

neeko so glad you ok - hope you in less pain now?

mermaid does this mean it makes you extra happy?!

Hi all.
My bumps and bruises are very sore today and still feeling stupid.

Mermaid glad you've got the meds sorted. make sure DH wraps you in cotton wool.

Iggy are you still smiling? How far along are you?

Hope everyone else is well.

I am smiling - but also feeling terrible and like I might fall asleep on the keyboard...

I am 8 weeks today - measurements were exactly right for 7 + 6 yesterday.

my friend from work just text me to say she has given birth 3 weeks early to her new baby dd2 and sent me the most beautiful photo. i did tell her it was ok to do it, but omg i feel so gut wrenchingly sad when i should be happy for her...

moon far better to admit it than let it eat you up and fester, well done. She knows your pain I am sure and she is not hiding from you and that is what true friends do. So bitter sweet honey. Thinking of youxxxxxx

and so with the topsy turvyness of our thread, the complete circle of life the universe and all that leads me on to iggy picturing you with painted toes and a cheshire cat grin

moon just after my edd I went to visit two friends who had just had their babies and I cried all the way home. It all seems so horribly unfair as it should be you holding the baby in your arms Try and get through this month and as mermaid says, we need to sweep this year out of the way for you. Just hang in there honey. We will help you get through this. We need a plan to get you back to the moon that was, and a plan for TTC, and maybe this time next month we will be getting good news from you. I know it feels lonely right now but you are not on your own. big hugs missus xxx

mermaid bless you for being so lovely as always. Monday will be a massive day on this thread. How are you feeling? Any more symptoms?

cupcake sorry to hear you are feeling down. For what it's worth I think you should let your dh know how you are feeling. You will be a great mum and anxiety is normal. Maybe all of us london ladies should meet up in RL at some stage. We've got sabs to tell us how to do this mummy thing

Sorry for not catching up with everyone personally. Did 12 hour day today and am feeling v pukey so I'm off to my bed

Still smiling for 4ever and iggy btw

Morning-quick post from me.

Moon Just remember what you are feeling is completely natural and no one is expecting you to feel otherwise. My best friend and I were due on the same day and it took an awful lot of effort on both our parts to keep the friendship strong after I lost my LO. I've now decided that her DS will always help me to visualise my angel and know what he would have been doing at each stage and that strangely gives me comfort as do cuddles from him. Not suggesting that it's a magic answer, but it has helped me. Please talk to your DP - he might not understand, but he never will - being a man - unless you explain it to him.

Mermaid You're sounding chirpy. Hoping the meds are making you feel more in control. Has DH tried to put you in an exhibition case yet?

Heard from MLS last night. Her DD is really unwell with a temp of 39.3 which can be scary stuff. She asked me to say she's thinking of you all and will hopefully be back soon.

I'm off on a skive trip to uni today with my senior class. Might try and fit in some extra Christmas shopping...

Have a good day all.x

morning girls
curly a 12 hour day geez that's looong. I feel utterly pathetic, yesterday I seemed to do nothing constructive at all and suddenly had to collapse for half an hour at 4 completely dead to the world. Guess that's a good sign, no sickness, just dont want to eat anything sweet just loads of hommus. You just reminded me that I have a scan, thats another thing I can't remember anything.
dh is beginning to get over the shock and has noticed dent on car luckily no decernable dent on his bloody bike!

4ever how are you this morning? Please remind us what appointment is lurking next. Have a nice cosy day.

blue you are quiet.... is something happening? Please report in

mls poor dd, I so hope she begins to bounce back. At least she will be better before Christmas. Hope you are ok too lovely.x

moon hope you are feeling a little bit better todayxx.

Good morning from dingy old Gloucester

Moon - still thinking of you - you will get through this patch. I think both of us are just looking forward to the end of this year.

Mermaid - glad to hear you are feeling shattered

Neeko - how are the bruises ??

Poor MLS and her DD Hope today is better

Well, AF arrived one day late and horrendously heavy I actually flooded yesterday - have not done that in years. In the front of a classroom, teaching a roomfull of men and it went though a lined winter skirt and stained that and the chair - eek. I casually grabbed my jumper and hoped nobody noticed - then got a lift to the hotel and noticed a slight stain on the guy's seat Makes me wonder what is going on, but am hoping it is just the tablets changing my mood / hormone levels etc.

Still feeling loads better :0

Right, I'm teaching in ten minutes and I need coffee ! Back later I hope - no internet access in this hotel though

Hi guys!

Still here just had a busy day with DS yesterday (well busy morning, we curled up on the couch in the afternoon and watched Kung Foo Panda ).

Mermaid - the truth will always out!! I scraped DH's brand new V70 Volvo alloys one week in and just told him noncholontly (sp?!)he just shrugged and said, well these things happen (whilst probably cursing me under his breath ha ha!) Hope you are taking it easy madam!

4ever - missing your posts! What are you up to this week?

Neeko - how are your bruises? That sounded v. sore . We actually just took down the stair ate after the decorator was here. I think I've got more risk falling down the stairs than Ds these days . Hope you manage to sneak in some shoppng today . Send our love to MLS and her poorly DD, wee lamb.

Iggy - still delighted for you .

Curly - 12-hour shift . What do you do again?

Jools - sorry to hear AF was so heavy. I used to flood through at school and it was mortifying. Lovely to hear you're still feeling miles better!

and finally Moon - EDDs that coincide with babies being born are just so so and full of what might have beens. I agree that you should try and talk to your DP about how you are feeling. Have you thought any more of speaking to a councellor? I know you say you are too much of a control freak but I think its us control freak types that benefit the most from speaking to someone and not trying to muddle on on our own.

Well I've just got up as DS stayed at Grannies last night . Off to meet friend's for lunch then have 39-week midwife appointment this afternoon.

Later ladies xx

can i please borrow some stablizers??? This is one woobling weeble today....

Firstly though moon talk to dh, even if he still doesnt understand the truth will be out there and if he has at least one brain cell it might just sink in, failing that you might just feel better for talking about it...oh and by the way when my friend announced her pregnancy i threw a few plates and ended up sobbing on my mum for a few hours....even when she gave birth i was a bit cos she had no problems, sailed through birth and get pregnant on the first attempt, these feelings are 100% normal.

jools i hope you are resting up, i thought i read you had on a white skirt so was on your behalf! Like you said its probably just the tablets settling in and hopefully kick starting your body back to happiness

curly how the heck are you doing such long hours? im just about done in working 10-4pm, i leave on the 22nd and it really cant come soon enough, even clients are saying how tired i look....so i must like like crap!!!

mermaid ha ha at being caught damaging dh car, such a barbie thing to do! Least dh has a company car so the damaged caused by the tree that sprung up in my way didnt bother dh at all, in fact he loves telling the story Take it easy, the tiredness is a good sign.....

blue woke up thinking about you, havent seen you in a long time ad thought maybe something was happening....come on baby blue!

neeko I fell into the salad cabinate at the supermarket yesterday was leaning up against the glass balancing on the basket, basket slipped and i ended up flattened against the glass....i blame the weight gain, my poor legs are just so tired carrying the extra stone and a half hope you feel better soon, oh and pass on my love to mls

Hello to everyone else, im shattered and have had a v emotional day

This morning dh left at 6am and when i woke up realised he had also taken my house/ car keys...for some reason this seemed the worst thing to happen in the entire world and i went to pieces Two tearful calls to dh later he finally managed to calm me down and let me know where spare car keys were kept only for him to start blasting his horn and screaming before the line went dead.... i was walking the dog at the time and thought i was going to collapse, my over active imagination thought he was dead...i was crying and screaming trying to call him back.

Thankfully he was fine and just cut me off to concentrate on not being in a car crash but god did i panick!

And then earlier i think i saw a trace of blood on the tissue when i went to the wash room, not much but enough for me to notice...i have to keep an eye on it and keep an eye out for baby movements, any changes i have to go to the hospital. It seems ok now, no blood and plenty of movements so fingers crossed.

So im done it, both emotionally and physcially today, dh isnt home until late so i plan a nice bath and early night...

Speak soon love b xxx

Hello ladies! Time for a list update methinks!!!

Commando/small pants
MLS
hoping
jools
bakingqueen
Bluemoon
gingermumi

Medium pants
Mermaid BFP 1st Dec
iggypiggy BFP 12th Nov
littlebellsmum BFP 11th Oct
4ever BFP 22nd Sept
cupcake BFP 11th Sept

Big pants
Bluesatinsash due 18/12/09
mm1509 due 05/01/10
GracieGirl due 06/02/10
Curly due 07/02/10
BarbieBigPants due 20/02/10
Neeko due 23/03/10
MrsKate due 05/04/2010

Saggy Pants
VJay 01/09/2009 BOY! ALEXANDER JAMES 8lb 6oz
Lionstar 27/09/2009 BOY! ARLO BRYN 9lb 5oz
Sabs 30/09/09 GIRL! SAARA 9lb
Buddhabelly 25/11/09 BOY! EWAN
Annie 25/11/09 BOY! ELLIS CHARLES 8lb 11oz

Oh Barbie those horrormones are at it again arent they?!? So pleased your mat leave starts soon hon! Enjoy that bath & much needed early night!

Moon wanted to offer a big squeezy hug to you . My remaining bf was also due at same time as my last edd & I practically ignored her through the preg & broke my heart when she had her dd in aug, like Neeko said it took lots of chats & softly softly approaches to maintain the freindship, it was hard, & as Neeko also said I will always now look at her new DD & think what might have been, but in a wierdly comforting way too. Strangely another friend had a dd at same time as my 1st loss & she will be 2 in april & both called their dd's the same name, Ill be seeing them both together next week & it will be wierd.. Its so very natural too feel like that & sharing how you feel is definatley healthy. I also agree with the others, talk to your DH & explain that you will always remember your edd, not just to be maudlin, but cos there will always be reminders that put it in your face, like your friends birth has.. xx

Curly I was also very at the idea of you doing 12hr days! DH has been doing some lately & the idea of being preg doing it horrorfies me!!! No wonder you feel pukey & knackered alot of the time, whens that mat leave start?! I spoke to my work yest & well pleased that I have 5days hol to take over to Jan to add to my 28 quota for the year, Im officially back at work on the 11th Jan but have agreed first 2 wks I will do half days & 4 day weeks after that

Jools another non stop grafter! Poor you & super heavy AF, mine were a bit like that this past year, its horrible.. BTW sounds like a great time away in Germany at christmas markets with the girls, just the tonic to get in the festive spirit, great to hear you sounding so upbeat still as well! x

Blue wierd Barbie woke up thinking of you cos so did I!!! I was asleep & got a tx through about 8am & was gonna ignore it, but thought 'what if Blues gone into labour*?!' Hmm maybe its a sign!!! Make sure you let us know wont you!!!!

Still beaming for Iggy btw hope you feel reassured a bit now! Are you going back for another before your 12wk?

Mermaid you next hon! weeble away when you need too, you're doing really well, we're all here holding your hand! How you finding the cyclogest, bit yukky aint they? Sex not really an option anyway cos so gunky!! Glad to hear you're feeling sick Heard from your golfer wonderful consultant yet? xx

Neeko hope you are feeling less bruised & crappy today? Whens DH start doing normal hours again? Really pleased schools soon out for you & you can get some quality 'you' time back.. Big hug xxx

Cupcake my lovely, hope you are also feeling less down about things, those blummin horrormones damn them! As I said, I think you'll be the most fabulous mum cos you're such a kind thoughtful sweetie, remember that! Wanna hear all about your midwife apt tomorrow!!! xx

MLS so worrying about your poor DD, sending a spoon ful of sugar to help her medicine go down & all things sweet & lovely for a speedy recovery, hope you're haging in there... xx

Baking how you doing? Not been about for a while?

Big wave to Monkey too!

Hair smells & tummy rubs to our lovely cyber niece & nephews! Coffee, foot rubs & 40 winks to our yummy mummy saggy pants Buddha, Annie, Vjay, Sabs and Lion!

All ok with me apart from very achey ribs & tummy like stretching & contorting pains, then I worry Im overstretching myself as I ache, then worrying if all my aches are in fact normal or not? Hey ho, still embracing the fab scan on monday, grown so much & little arms & legs & hands just so big now! Next scan on mon as per usual, consultant on thurs, then a fetal meds super thorough scan on tues 22nd & another dvd hopefully all being well til then! Right off to bath, gonna wrap some more pressies tonight & do last last last bits of xmas shopping tomorrow!!! xxx

Hello all!

Has been quite quiet on here recently...

moon I was up to such a high newborn count for my friends in October I was v. sad about it, especially so close to my EDD, I think it was 10 newborns in 6 weeks or something.... Anyway, can totally understand the terrible sadness of seeing pics like that. I also think curly's idea for a plan is a really good one - I remember curly saying that to me and a plan did seem to help me feel like I was actually doing something. but obviously we all different, so I hope you feeling a bit better today x

barbie sounds like v. stressful day - especially seeing the blood. I hope you are feeling a bit better now and can relax tonight. x

blue am getting v. excited about our next cyber nephew/neice arriving

mermaid hope you enjoying the sand and the drugs.

cupcake I hoep you feeling a bit more cheery?

curly surely you deserve to stop feeling sick soon?

jools poor you with the flooding - but sounds like probably no-one noticed. I hope it is just everything getting back in sync and getting used to the new drugs. Also v. glad you feeling better.

big waves to everyone else and to all of our cyber nephews and neice!

I am feeling ok today - which is good cos yesterday was pretty bad (am not complaining tho!) - but i think it all relates to tiredness as much as anything, so am thinking that going to be at 9.30pm yesterday helped!

xxx

Hi all.

Jools The bleeding must have been pretty but glad you handled it so well. Hope it's a sign of your body having a massive clearout before a sparkly new BFP.

Iggy Early nights definitely help so indulge yourself. I started to feel better at about 14 weeks so it wont be long.

Barbie Falling into the salad counter made me laugh! Keep an eye on that bleeding and put your feet up while you can.

Blue I thought you might have been away as well (No pressure from us!) Hope midwife apt went ok. Don't suppose she gave you a wee rumble?

4ever stretching pain all good. If you think you're stretching too much now just wait til 30 odd weeks! Take it easy. Glad to hear work is being so understanding.

Mermaid sorry you were rumbled about the car but please do use the pregnancy as an excuse!

Curly hope you're managing to get enough rest. You can't have many weeks left til mat leave surely.

Heard from MLS this morning and her DD's temp was down, so that's a relief. There's nothing more worrying than a sick child.

Uni visit went well though their wee white scared faces suggested they've a bit of growing up to do between now and September.

My bruises are healing but I'm really struggling with everything just now. DH was promoted in June and is on 6 month's trial. Things are really hectic with his work and he has been working 6 days a week, up to 15 hours a day (2-3 times a week) for a while now. I'm very grateful that he has a job right now but the strain of it all is getting a bit much. He's very stressed and even when at home is mentally at work, DD misses her Daddy and plays up a lot for him when's he's home and I'm just struggling trying to juggle a very demanding full time job, a ever-increasing bump, a demanding and emotional 3 year old, Christmas, housework and everything else. I feel constantly ready to cry and don't know how much longer I can keep it all going. Sorry for the me post but really felt it was time to write it all down. I feel like I'm doing everything and yet doing nothing right

4ever I x-posted with you! Am not sure - I have been offered the option of a reassurance scan in 2 weeks time, that I can book at short notice. If I can cope with waiting my next scan would be 4th Jan - which should be 11 + 6. I might go for that reassurance one tho!

Stretching pains sound ok to me As is so good you getting such good care and monitoring through this pregnancy - you so deserve it.

neeko sorry you feeling down - I pretty sure Christmas on top of everything else is a massive extra pressure - do you finish work soon for the xmas break? Am hoping you do... I think it sounds like you need a break.. xx