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Here's to another happy thread!

The fun, the laughter and the tears will get us through, and help the weeble stay forever upright

Helllooooooooo

Trying to stay chilled and not drop in here too often

So, just wafting by in a post holiday tranquil haze to bestow zen like happy, sticky vibes (and a couple of eviction notices )

CD11 here (I know, I know - I can't help it

Off into battle proper this weekend

Just arranged first scan for 12th Oct & apt with RMC clinic on the 1st!

Work a changing at a rapid pace - manager is no more from today so may well get myself signed off if its not working out for me as intend to be stess free as poss!

Good luck with the battleplan Jools

Im off for afternoon now, treatment all ok for mon & will have painful swollen arm & may not post again til tues, so dont worry peeps - love y'all from the weeble xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hope you ok 4everweeble make sure you look after yourself.

Waves to you all.

Feel utterly miserable again... was doing so well... sigh...

so will leave you all in peace for a bit. Much love to all xxxx

Hello I have just popped anpther piccy of Alex onto my profile, it is his 3 week pose

sabs and lion waiting vey impatiently here, as I'm sure you both are too

4ever hope you are taking good care of yourself, and not letting work stress you out, it ain't worth it.

HI ladies
Neeko Hope Sunday goes in a blur of jelly, ice cream and those fab little cakes you make!
igy sorry to hear you are sad again - come back soon and take care
4ever plans sound great. Roll on Oct 12th
Cupcake I agree with the others - it;s just LO nesting
BabyLion and babysabs get down here soon - it's sunny and warm and we all want to meet you!
Had a lovely day shopping with my mum - don't think I've dont that for about 15 years!
And I'm feeling mega smug as I bought the DC's their new christmas Pj's to be delivered by the reindeers on Christmas eve!

sorry, Vjay thanks for putting the other picture up! Pleased he's a good boy and letting you update us regularly!

Whilst on holiday I saw some flying chinese lanterns and thought of 4ever (I hope it was you that was telling about them, but preg-nasia does funny things to my brain) and I was telling DH all about you and your journey so far, and how you were such a brave and strong person. Spookily this was on Tuesday and I come home to find out you had the most amazing news the same day I just can't believe it I got signed off from week 6.5 to week 11 as my MS was so bad and I think being so anxious was making it worse, it did me the world of good, so I say go for it and get booked in with GP! Good luck for Monday, everything is crossed x
Barbie Fully understand not wanting to open the stuff until after the scan, I still worry now, don't think it will ever go away but eventually you get a little braver and a little more adventurous. Also worrying about DH being away/baby etc it is all natural, so don't be so hard on yourself x
Hoping How are you coping, have you considered some counselling?
Mermaid Gutted af got you
MLS I really hope things brighten up a little for you, enough to get you back on our thread at least
Blue I'm glad I'm not the only superstitious one
MM Glad you had a good appointment, sounds like you have a very lively one there
Blue Don't be away too long
Jools Glad you had a lovely break
Iggy Don't feel you can't talk to us though will you? Hope your lifts soon, but appreciate how god damn awful it is, hugs x

Apologies if I've missed anyone but got back off hols today, what with SPD and a water infection I'm not feeling too hot to trot so having an early one

Big waves to Neeko MrsKate Gracie Sabs VJay MM annie Lion Cupcake lbm

Hi all. Need to vent a little so sorry if I bore anyone.
Really thought I was ok about this weekend. Obviously I was sad but thought I could handle it. My former bf came round on Thursday evening with a present for DD. I say former because she has more or less ignored me since the MC. She proceeded to tell me two horror stories about friends of hers who have lost their babies further on than I am now and how they haven't recovered from it. I tried to just go down the "that's awful" route and change the subject. After she left I couldn't get it out of my mind and didn't sleep well.
Think it really unsettled me on what was already going to be a difficult time. I ended up sobbing at work twice yesterday and have been in tears several times since. I just feel so sad that I should have been due to give birth this weekend and that I'll never get to tell my LO how much I loved and wanted him or her.
I know I'm in an enviable position by being pg again, but I'm aware that there are no guarantees and I have such a long way to go. I just hope I have the strength to make DD's birthday special tomorrow and deal with a house full of people without breaking down. All I really want to do is go to bed and hide.
Anyway I know you guys all have problems of your own despite understanding mine. I'm sorry for being so woe is me, but feel a bit better for venting.
Don't know what I'd do without this thread... Love to you all.

neeko you wont bore anyone....im with you 100% i have heard two stories from so called friends about mc happening at 19 weeks and 24 weeks....both put the fear of god into me...im 19 weeks now and have started knicker checking again (even more than i have been doing) im also shitting myself very worried about scan next thurday

One day at a time darling....you will get through tomorrow because you are a strong person. Wake early, come on here, (ill be here if you want) have a cry....then wash your face, put on your best smile and make dd birthday something to remember, look at her and think to yourself you did it once so you can do it again, hugs xxx

Will post again later dh trying to call!

Thanks Barbie i really needed to hear from someone who understands I will probably not get on until tomorrow night, but you'll alll be in my thoughts. Sometimes it's so hard taking things minute by minute.

Welcome back Buddha - hope you are feeling less tired today and the SPD calms down now you are home.

Lovely pic Vjay - seeing our first graduate grow up really makes me smile

Neeko - it is the nature of people to try and top your story with another they have heard - I have lost count of the number of times people have told me about second trimester mc's - my stock response now is that I can't imagine how awful that must have been, but it doesn't take any pain or loss away from what happened to me - that is the bit nobody else understands but you guys I'm sure your day will be beautiful - what better way to mark such a sad anniversary than with happiness and laughter (Ok, OK, I know I'm getting a bit deep here !)

Well, no BD action for me last night or this morning, so the pressure is on - need to seduce DP today and tomorrow to be in with a chance. Still pretty zen like about it all though. Some strange thoughts creeping in - I dreamt that the reason I'm not PG is because deep-down I don't really want it and somebody up there is making sure I only get what I really want

Am focussing on weight loss quite obsessively now - I made a promise to myself 3 years ago that I would be a healthy weight (on the BMI scale) by the time I was 40. Here I am, 3 failed pregnancies and a dodgy back later plus numerous two week waits where I'm scared to diet too much and I'm still a stone from that goal with only 6 weeks left I know I won't be able to achieve that goal, but am going to make a supreme effort to at least do that promise to myself justice ... Have started with nearly 3 hours at the gym this morning - 2 classes, upper body weights plus lots of stretching.

Busy afternoon ahead, so will drop in later. Those wearing fairly new pairs of medium pants - you are in my thoughts x x

Wow Jools watch the gym doesn't tire you out too much Thanks for the support.

neeko oh lovely lady What a hard place for you to be. Celebrating a birth whilst mourning your lo and the joy and worry of creating a new one. No wonder you have cried and feel so wrung out.

I think we need to round up all former bf and send them off to.... hmmm sure someone can think of something fitting.
Really she should be shouted at, the cardinal sin is to tell any pregnant woman a horror story. You just don't do it

Arranging kids parties are a stress in themselves, so delegate as much as you can and take a bit of time out with dh to remember.
I don't know what I believe, even more so as I see people around me going through awful things but I am quiet sure that our angels knew how much they were loved and wanted.

barbie wow you are 19 weeks I am so proud of you and you need a big gold glittery star for bravery and heroic knicker checkering. Have a nice weekend with your mum and I hope that you got to speak to dh.

jools The 6 week countdown The big 40 is the new 30 so you are going to strut your sassy stuff all over the sw
I am going to keep everything crossed that you have a succesful black basque weekend.

budha lovely story with the lanterns. sorry to hear about the spd and water works. It looks like its feet up with litres of cranberry juice for you over the weekend.

Knock knock! Can I come in??? Just spent about 2 hours reading a whole months posts.

Firstly Cupcake and 4ever! Wow! fantastic news!!

MLS my thoughts are with you, I'm so sorry its happened to you again. huge hugs xx

I'm really sorry I disapeared for so long, real life has been so hectic I've barely had a minute for weeks. I'm now 21 weeks and everything seems fine, I had a scan on tuesday but didn't want to find out the sex. In any case baby had legs firmly crossed and was hiding its bits and pieces from view so its obviously meant to be a surprise!

I've mostly been busy with my best friend and his pregnant ex girlfriend, as strange as that might sound! Since his Mum died he's had a massive change in personality and has dumped his girlfriend of 4 years who is now 28 weeks pregnant. She's staying with her mum in a tiny flat thats not big enough for her never mind a baby too, she doesn't drive so has had to leave her job as she can't get there from her Mums. Its so not like my best friend to do this and at some point he'll calm down and be horrified at his behaviour. There's just no talking to him at the minute so the best thing I can do is make sure his baby is looked after. She's had a nightmare pregnancy and the baby isn't growing properly, they plan to induce her at 32 weeks as she doesn't have enough amniotic fluid to protect the baby. She also had a stillborn at 34 weeks a few years ago . Knowing my friend that is why he's hiding, he's just lost his Mum and can't cope with the idea of losing his son too. That doesn't help his girlfriend much though does it! Its just a big mess!

Evening ladies! Dropping in for a surprise weekend visit! I lurked via pho & had to post to our lovely Neeko - at so called bf, its sad so many of us have drifted from friends since mc cos they just dont get it. I too have had horror stories, its almost like people are trying to say 'what you've been through is bad, but i know a worse story' which is in no means reassuring or helpful & in fact just bloody cruel & mean. Thank god we have each other thats all i can say! I hope tomorrow is not too harsh, your baby knows how loved he or she is & having a quiet moment with dh before the party, letting off that balloon will be a special moment for you & baby angel.. xxxxxx Big hug xxx

Today would be our 2nd LLO first birthday, am lighting our special angels candle with DH in a bit but have spent most of today feet up in garden reading mags & chilling. It is wierd knowing I have another tiny being inside.. I have a belly stud that I feel represents the babies, one big stone with 3 dangly stones, 1 of the dangly stones has been hiding in my belly button all day, I feel thats no2 on its birthday with its new little bro or sis.. Made me feel quite calm about things.. Can only say that to DH and you cos I know it sounds quite mad!

Buddha bless you for that lovely update, it was me talking about the lanterns, how very wierd & touching that all happened the day we shared our news! Im still trying to believe it too! Hope the back & water probs resolve themselves soon honey xx

Jools hope the basque is on & the adrenylins pumping you gym bunny! I agree 40 is the new 30 so embrace it! I got excited about entering a new decade & new beginings when I turned 30 & got with DH 2 months later so you never know sweetie!

Barbie poor worried honey about your scan, only 5 sleeps til thurs & glad you have mum around.. xx

Mermaid always in my thoughts, always comforting others & sharing wise words, hope you are having a lovely weekend xxx

Right, havent had a bath yet, DH is cooking, plan on doing nothing at all til mon when poor brave DH is gonna tube in to hosp on his own to give his pint of blood to save me doing rush hour at 9am, then FIL will drive us both back at 1pm once DH pint has been seperated into white cells ready to be injected 5 times into my arm [scared face]. Im all worried about DH doing it on his own & will send him off with food supplies & want regular call updates to check he is ok! He is a donor so used to doing it twice a year anyway but not in middle of town, anyway sure he'll be fine, more worried about that than me at the mo!

Lots of love to you all, sorry not mentioned you all but will be off all week so will catch up properly then xxxxxxxxxx

Hello just a quick post been tied up with work and stuff

Neeko- feel so bad for you that your bf is so uncaring especially as this weekend must be so hard for you am thinking of you

4ever- congratulations so pleased for you bith xxx

Gracie- so pleased to see your back 21 weeks how time flies

Had injection to stimulate ov this morning so bd action for me for the next few days. Maybe its a good omen for today but one of my friends had a baby boy today hpoing some of that baby dust drops on me this month and all of my fellow small panters xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Bakinqquuen thanks for congrats & good luck with BD - babydust babydust babydust - heaps of it for you & all small panters! xx

Gracie welcome back & thanks for congrats too, had to come back on & post cos spent my whole bath freaking about your friends gf having stillborn at 34 wks.. How very awful for her now my heart is racing with fear about it! will we never be able to enjoy pg? know i wont feel ok til babe is in arms, but hoped by 16 to 20 wk + that maybe a little less paniced but that story confims that this is a long road... Please no more horror stories!!! Hope no-one else is getting too freaked out... There is a reason I avoid MN at weekends, must try & restore some of the calm I had started to feel after a whole day of switching off & chilling out..

4ever stillborns are so very very rare these days, I think my friend was just very unlucky. She's getting weekly scans from 30 weeks to help stop it happening again. Please don't panic, I wouldn't have mentioned about her if I thought it would worry anyone. She was the first person to phone me after my miscarriage in February who wasn't embarrassed to talk about my miscarriage and didn't ever avoid the subject. She's never belittled my 10 week miscarriage as less important than her baby.

Neeko darling, what a shitty couple of days after the visit from your friend . Why do these people feel they need to 'trump' our heartache which not only brings back the pain but in a way belittles it too .

Your DD will have a lovely party (top hat cakes a go-go) tomorrow and you and your DH can have your thoughtful time at some point to let your balloon go and reflect on your angel. He/she knew they were loved, don't you ever doubt that. Finally pat your tummy and give your new lo a wee hug x

4ever - back to relaxing and chilling for you! Please don't worry about scare stories, easier said than done I know (I spent all day paranoid as hadn't felt lo kick, he/she has made up for it this evening ). Will be thinking about you on Monday and hope it all goes well and you and your DH's arms are too sore. Its all worth it .

Barbie I was exactly the same before my 20-week scan - even delayed my summer hols by a week and both mc happpened at the sart of two week hols and couldn't face more bad news that way. You WILL be looking at the baby clothes with your Mum come Thurs night...

Hi Buddhathirdtrimester - hope you had a lovely break but sorry to hear your SPD is still there, are you seeing the Oesteo this week?

Vjay - loving Alex's wee outfit! What a cutie - Mr Gold Top man

Welcome back Gracie - so for your BF GF, what a time she has had. Think your correct re: him rejecting her in case something goes wrong but what a time for it all to happen .

BakingQ - babydust central to you, fingers crossed a BFP awaits...

God its 9pm, where did the evening go? Better join DH downstairs x

One day, I'll manage a proper post, honest.
Neeko - I'm with everyone else, Your former BF needs shooting. Yes there are lots of horror stories but there are far , far, far more good news stories - just look at all the babies out there for proof.

Take care tomorrow - DD will have a great birthday!

Hi. Thank you so much for your lovely messages. They made me cry but probably with relief that others understand how mixed up and emotional I feel. I've said it a hundred times, but don't know what I'd do without you all.

Vjay Alex is such a cutie. I'm sure he's a source of endless joy

Iggy big hug to you. It's awful not bein in control. Come back to us soon.

Buddha welcome back. Sorry you're suffering so much, but it'll all be worth it.

Mermaid Thanks for the advice on delegating, but don't you know by now how much of a control freak I am. No one else would do it right! You're words are so lovely though. I'm glad you're so wise but sorry that you've obviously come through so much to make you that way.

Gracie welcome back to you too. Sorry to hear what your friend is going through but gold star to you for being such a good friend. Can't believe how far on you are now - congratultaions.

4ever I know I'm one to talk, but try not to worry about other people's stories. Your pregnancy is unique to you and each one is different. I'll be thinking of you and your DH on Monday. Loved the story about the belly stone.

Bakingqueen so nice to see you again. Hope the game plan goes well. Here's some baby dust from me

Blue Phew that your lo is rumbling again. remember the icy water trick next time.

LBM presents wrapped and balloons and banners up. DD is so excited so she'll probably be up at 5 in the morning. She completely changed her b'day present "wants" today Ah well I'm sure she'll be pleased with what she gets.
Blue I have made 54 tophats! DD and I iced 24 fairycakes with pink icing and sparkles today - lots of mess and great fun - have 24 toffee cups, chocolate fudge, chocolate crispies and millionaires plus lots of savoury nibbles and sandwiches, topped off with a huge M&S birthday cake! Think I may be over-componsating, but what the hell!

DH just told me that when he and DD went for the birthday cake today, she wanted to hold it. He told her it was too heavy and she said "It's ok, Daddy, I'll use three hands" Child logic is fab!

Thanks again to you all for your love and support today. Night night all.

P.S. Three years ago right now my labour pains were building and I was both petrified and dying of excitement

neeko you have a lovely day today, and a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to your dd

jools hope you had a good night

gracie welcome back we've missed you. So sorry about your bf and his gf, they are both going through tough times right now and are lucky to have you, but remeber to look after yourself too

sabs and lion thinking of you both, hope you are both well and pushing as I type

Welcome back GG

Crap night Meltdown in progress

hello

gg glad you came back, although like 4ever i too had a sleepless night thinking about losing a baby later in pregnancy like your friends gf...your post kept going around and around in my mind, one of the main reasons i didnt post last night
I think i was having a sleepless night anyway but woke up wondering if a 20 week scan could tell if the baby would be blind or deaf? I couldnt sleep again then and i have spent ages on the internet trying to find the answer...not sure why im so fixated on it though

neeko hope dd is having the best birthday ever! Im hoping that you are holding up and making the most of today....

sabs i cant see you on fb today...i know it was your edd yesterday, im hoping you our lion will have some news very very soon

jools fingers crossed you are making the most of the sunday morning lie in

vjay i love the new pic of Alex....so cute! You are being so good managing to still post!

budda welcome back from your hols...hope you had a fab time...im starting to suffer with sciatica pain, mainly if im lying down, yesterday at the beach i had to be helped off the sun lounger the pain getting up was so bad. Thankfully it doesnt happen all the time, just now and then.
I did however wake up screaming in pain three nights ago, the leg cramp was horrendous! my poor calf is still aching today...i was walking to the sea like an 80 year old woman yesterday, not such a good look when the under 25 hungry football team decide to sit next to you on the beach never i have i felt so paranoid...and yes i know that they are just babies themselves! I felt all bloated and yukky...so today i finally got my new bikini, even though i had to buy one 2 sizes bigger from topshop as i couldnt find a mat one. Im going to cut out the size labels!

iggy and moon i hope you are ok in rl....thinking about you both.

mls i havent stopped thinking about you, if you are lurking i just want to say hello.

blue im gald im not the only one who wouldnt look at baby things until 20 week scan...even then i dont think ill buy alot, but it will be nice to at least not run walk past any shops containing baby items!

mermaid how are you doing love? what enid blyton thing are you up to this weekend, building tree houses or looking for secret gardens??

baking i have everything crossed for you this month, i hope bd is going occurding to plan!

lbm shopping with your mum can be very expensive, no? glad you had fun and cant believe you are also organised

barbie waves to everyone else and leaves thread to go and find a pair of scissors to remove evidence of her bigger self!

xxx