Why do i feel the need to test even though i KNOW its to early and will be neg...

[Angelfifi]

Hi all,
Just needing a distraction to stop me testing, am due af on mon and KNOW that it's to early to test and it will be neg but cant help listening to them calling me..
Why do we put ourselves through it!!
Anyone else need help lets distract each other!!!

I've got everything crossed!!!! if it doesnt happen this month we will have to hold on until feb/march time to rey again as we get married in june..if it happens after this month i wont fit into my dress