Emmsy's onwards and upwards part six - sticky icky babydust BFP central!!!

[Curlywurlee]

Here's a shiny new thread named especially for 4ever, let this be the one where we get lots and lots of new BFPs and everyone's pants get bigger

Ever onwards and upwards for all of you lovely ladies

vjay oh thats the scary bit the bag... I had everything but the kitchen sink, the face spritzer, the socks in case your feet get cold, the muzac, energy tablets and kendal mint cake and those ace disposable nickers (I loved those, just rounded off the look perfectly). never even got time to unzip the bag I totally advocate the tems machine absolutely brilliant bit of kit.

So my slippers won't be enough. I'm just at the can't be bothered stage, I just hope this 'nesting' instinct kicks in and I suddenly become motivated

get a nice nightie, not pink with egg stains down the front slippers are very important though vjay so you are nearly there!
mls yes defo a massage chair, this is begining to sound like the generation game.

hello lovely ladies

at mls gps comment! although i can understand why he said it - i dont know about anyone else but i knew i was pg both time before i took the test, i just did the tests for confirmation. and they were at like 5-6 weeks, i couldnt wait any longer than that!

i think i'm a bit back to front with my mcs! although i was of course completely devastated with mc no. 1, i got through it with ttc again, and the thought that 1 mc is very common. after mc no. 2, because we arent ttc straight away, i feel like i've got nothing to aim for, and i'm just kind of in limbo land. mon night i sobbed for hours uncontrollably, i still feel as if everything happened yesterday, and it was over 4 weeks ago. plus af came today, i am not impressed!

4ever you have been through some crap havent you, like the others have said, i really wish a great big fat bfp on you

vjay i love that you are still here to give us all hope

kate you and your poor dh i hope things start looking up for you soon

curly are you and your bean ok?

big waves to everyone else

Sod the foot spas, lets have a jacuzzi in the greenhouse

with men in little towels wondering around

Moon don't beat yourself up about feeling so down, if your af has just come of course you are going to be all over the place emotionally. Plus four weeks ago isn't long at all. What I hate is the fact that at one minute you feel like you are coping & being brave & then the next it feels like you are about to break in half with grief. It's so goddamn hard but the likes of 4ever & Jools prove that we can get through this.

can the men be giving us really good head massages?

mls its like you said earlier, i feel a shadow of my former self, i can usually bounce back pretty well from most things life chucks at me, but somehow this time i've lost my fight. it takes all my effort to be brave at work so that by the time i get in the car to go home i just need to cry. but you are right, the ladies here are an inspiration and i really do think i'd have lost the plot by now if it wasn't for all of you.

how are you doing after your erpc? can we have another group hug

Evening all!

My MIL rang today to say she would prefer it if I had a boy not a girl! What an odd thing to say! I just replied that I would prefer it if I got a healthy one this time. Strange woman! As if I get a choice?!!!

Loving the idea of a nice warm greenhouse, with a frezer full of Mini Milks.

I'm getting excited for Jools. I can feel another run of BFP's coming on.

MLS bless your GP! If only we could do that. I thought I'd done tremendously well to wait till day 27 this time! I have no idea how I waited till day 34 last time.

Vjay bag packing - how exciting!

A friend of mine is getting induced at 38 weeks tomorrow (gestational diabetes), was going to send a text message in the morning sending my best wishes, not really sure what to send. Any ideas? "May the force be with you!"

Moon I think you're right, a group hug is required.

Ooooh mini milks I saw a pack in tescos last night and brought it home - tried a vanilla one last night and it was soooooooo yummy AND low fat - where have they been all my life

sabs quickly runs in to join the group hug

Moon not doing too bad thanks, now all I can think about is am I going to ov before the bleeding has completely stopped? I need to do another hpt tomorrow to see if I get a bfn before I ttc. It's all such a bloody headfk. GG how about 'Good luck & don't forget to breathe'?

Another group hug I think! Doing hpts after miscarriages to wait for a negative is so s**t!

Scared now, doubting myself. Might wimp out of testing

Can't face a BFN, scared of a BFP

ahh test jools

will anything go right for me ay mo i feel so unhappy

Oh Mrskate Keep the faith - we have our ups and downs but things DO get better slowly

You have a lot to deal with at the moment and you've been so strong lately, with so much to plan ,look forward to and organise. You are now crashing, and man flu + swine flu must be a pretty draining combination

Big hugs, choc and wine x x x This will pass

Hello all. Just a quick one as I am missing you all but I feel I need to stick my head in the sand this week till my scan is done on Friday.

Thinking of you tomorrow 4ever, your 3rd MC breaks my heart, as all our MCs do, but it just seemed so particularly cruel. Hopefully there will be good news for you this month lovely lady

Very hopeful for Jools and iggy Good luck with testing girls!!!

Moon and Mls brave ladies, and also everyone else who is down at the moment, I promise there are happier times ahead. Just hang in there xxx Moon have you and dp decided when it would be good to ttc again?

Thinking of you too Kate and hope things are good with you and DH.

Lots of love to everyone else. Sorry for not posting to everyone personally. I am thinking of you all xxxx

cupcake you can come hide in my kitchen for a few weeks if you like - so long as you bake lots of cakes for everyone

Well, I laid awake with a full bladder from 5am, as I'd forgotten to locate and unwrap a test ready for action and didn't want to wake up DP !

BFN - not even the ghost of a line I'm still feeling nauseous and my abdomen feels tender though. It is only 9DPO, so I will test again. However, I really thought something might show up now as the symptoms are so strong.

Maybe it is just a bug.

At least I'm coming down to earth and will be less disappointed if / when AF arrives.

Off to get my bloods done in a few minutes - will pop in later ...

jools honey go gently on yourself - I admit to waking up at 6 and the first thing I thought of was jools will be testing! Hope the bloods go ok.
If it makes you feel a bit better I still feel sick and giddy reckon we have had a wierd lingering bug thing.
But there is still hope of course it is early.xx

Jools like Mermaid says, there's still hope its still very early. Hopefully you can convince them to do HCG levels with your bloods, though when will you get the results? If they'll make you wait weeks there's no point.

Curly only 2 more sleeps till your scan, though it must feel like months!

Cupcake so how are things with the job situation? whats the plan?

Big hug for MrsKate, MLS and Moon.

I have an appointment with the matron from work at 3pm to discuss the ideas for me going back to work, its obviously got to happen at some point soon, can't stay on a sick note forever (though it would be nice).

Morning all!

I'll start with the bad news... I gave in and tested this morning and BFN. Also Nausea gone and am not really feeling anything now - but not even AF... Anyway - on the up side - my cycle has been longer since the MC so I may have tested too early and last time when i had shorter cycles I didn't get a BFP until CD29 and that was so faint - then CD30 was better. Today is CD28...

slap me please!

So - maybe - just maybe I'll try on CD 30? Unless AF has come? What do you lot think? Or shall I try to wait a bit longer...

jools don't give up yet - is so early!

Mls and moon great big hugs for you lovely ladies

Catch up with you all later properly!