Hello Ladies,
I found my way back to the thread...
Well, I have so much to say and don't know where to start...
I stopped treatment completely I had an appt 2wks ago with the fertility specialist and things went down for the worse.
1: she referred to a program (metabolic Nutrition program) to loose weight.
2: she wanted to continuity Clomid but did one cycle of letrozole then I had decided to take a month off it was starting to get to me emotionally.
3: I haven't gotten my period.
At the appt the doctor wanted to talk to me about the treatment. Per her, her co'partners felt that she shouldn't even be treating me because of my weight and is worried that if I start IUI it will be critical etc.. etc... she had me confused because at first we had decided on 3 cycles of femara and she was all over the place about the treatment.
I told her I had decide to do the treatment to loose weight and she said that maybe I should talk to that doctor first and ask if its bad to take treatment will I am doing the program.
I was so upset and told her I rather stop now just because of all the other appts I will be having and I don't want to have the run around.
I feel that she should have told me this from the beginning to really get serious first with loosing the weight.
If she knew that Clomid was not going to work because weight issues why did she put me through hell.
I felt like shit after I did not cry while I was with her but I seriously just wanted out of the office as fast as possible... (I had my husband waiting in the car)... I went outside and cried and felt like the roof just fell over my head... My world just came crashing down... I don't get it I saw a lot of heavier ladies there and yet I get the NO and after all of that she wanted to give me oral meds after she said it wasn't going to work... but anyways I put my emotions back in order before going to the car... I couldn't tell my husband she denied care...
I just simple said that I decide to move on to the program for couple of months and then later continue once my weight has gone down.. I didn't want him feeling the pain for me... he tries to be strong for both of us...
She said that I was young and had enough time to have a baby but still that does not make it right... I went through it over a year and a half and to be told to loose weight or no treatment and yet she says she understands that PCOS makes it hard to loose the weight.
I have been trying but its so hard... But I will keep trying to loose the weight I have my first appt on 8/26 to to ekg and Labs.
I will be on a very heavy program for the first month...
I have to see a doctor twice a month and support groups every week.
it consists of 650 calories per day (5shakes) +snacks 1st month is a liquid diet and after they introduce food back into the diet= 20lbs off hopefull and that should bring closer to the goal..
I am trying to stay positive... only time will tell.
What do you guys think.... Painfull to have to be told that!!! but then again its for my health... but its sad to hear the truth and not be able to do as you please when you are ready for a baby...
I only wish you all the best in your treatment and that every step you take brings you closer to your goal.
I am doing much better now but sometimes I get sad and cry a little but thats life... I am thinking positive and waiting on the outcome of the weight issue... I am getting myself ready for the hardship and dicipline and strength to help me get through the treatment... I will keep you posted as the days come around .
Right now I am trying to loose weight on my own and today I go back to Muay thai training ( I was sick for a minute_).....so sorry to hear what your going through CLWC...but keep your head up I know its hard...