I have a lovely ds who is nearly 5 and we are ttc no2 we are being investigated by the fertility clinic as we have been trying for a while and things aren't quite right.
I really do want another child, our family doesn't seem complete and I want ds to have a sibling. However I worry (to the extent that I don't sleep) about ds and our yet to be conceived child falling ill or dying. I feel that I'm not pregnant for a reason and that having a second child would be selfish and that we are tempting fate.
The awful tragic story of the couple who jumped from Beachy Head struck a chord with me. If ds died I couldn't face a life without him but if we had another child we be forced to endure the pain of carrying on. Given that I feel this way would it be advisable to stop ttc and concentrate on the child that we have? Will ds feel he has missed out if we don't provide him with a sibling?