Hello everyone! I've just been catching up on the month that I've been off this thread -and what a lot's happened! OAP, I'm thrilled, what fantastic news and it's exactly what I need to hear right now! Spook and Mowmi - belated but huge hugs. It's amazing how completely unfair and shitty life can be in completely random ways.
I was plunged into the depths by my last FSH test a month ago, which was still 15. I had really hoped the previous result last summer was a blip but no, looks consistent. Which is almost curtains for me. Added to which, I'm in a conundrum about the medical support I've got... I'm with a private consultant, the only one in my town. After the FSH result, he put me on HRT to bring it down. Nit sure about this - it tricks the pituitary gland into thinking your ovaries are working because there's more oestrogen in the system, but doesn't actually improve ovarian response, so what's the point? And then we went to visit the clinic he works with in London, and were amazed at how shabby and disorganised it was. They don't do the egg collection there and we have to go round the corner to another clinic for that bit, is that normal? But, they might let me go ahead with my own eggs if my FSH is down to 12, and I really want to try with my own eggs (assuming there are any!) We came out in a panic and went to see another clinic down the road, the London Women's Clinic, which was gleaming, professional, does everything and is cheaper! But will probably tell me I need an egg donor. I really don't know what to do.
And the jaws of time are closing - AF arrived today, 4 days late (mc or messed up by the HRT? I don't know...) so next FSH tomorrow and if the drugs have brought down the FSH I have to decide whether to go now with the dodgy clinic or wait till next month to see if the good one will let me have a go. Want someone to decide for me!