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Hi everyone I have started a new thread... hope you like the new home, this is where it will all happen. (Cindy opens a bottle of champagne) Here's a drink to all and to our month ofthe BFP... .... baby dust all around ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ooooh interesting Yellowflowers

I guess all you can do is keep an eye on the blood flow - if it stays light, it might be just a breakthrough bleed

fingers crossed for another confirmed BFP soon

Hello everyone.
Yellowflowers fingers crossed
Julesiam I know what you mean...i had no drive for years to the point of problems, not helped by the fact that my other half is 6 yrs younger than me...and now he can't quite believe the new me. However things aren't quite performing as they should be, so don't think it will be happening for me just yet [hmmm].
smileycat nice name and your scan pics are fab.
Wannabeamum Hope u get on well at the docs today
BeckymcG I would also have done the same thing. Reckon when my time comes i will be a nightmare...i am already impatient
Sorry if i missed anyone, still trying to keep up and get the hang of MN.
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oooh - I missed the scan pics - will look now.

I am not holding out hope for myself tbh. But interestingly the biggest 'sign' has been the stench of women's perfumes if they just walk by me - overpowering. Though now I know that is a sign what's the betting I get it every month now through my brain playing tricks.

Jools I don't think you're being miserable. I have been having a chat to a few of my real life friends about ttc - they have admitted to me they're trying and so I have opening up about our process. It's quite nice to talk to people as I would on these chat rooms. The main thing seems to be 'putting pressure on men to conceieve affects performance' but in the job we do it's easy to get sent away Monday to Friday so the weekends become extra important. It's frustrating that this (along with pregnancy, child rearing and a host of other things) seems to be a woman's responsibility.
Smiley - love your little scan piccies :-)
Yellow - I do not know what to make of that. It sounds like a CP to me I think but then you hear stories of the same thing happening to people and sticky beans! So my fingers are crossed for you. Maybe wait till Sunday or tomorrow and do another test? also see how the bleeding goes?
Jools Have you got much weight to lose? You definitely do more excercise than me. I anm sure that's not the libido problem - probably like you say he's worried about performance, maybe he's worried about infertility too? could that be it?

Yellow you read about these women that don't know that they are pg until way down the line as they had periods all the way through.......you could be one of those everything is crossed for you

wasabi thanks I hope your prediction is right.

queenie - is wierd isn't ti!

smiley had a look at your scan pics - how cool!

yellow a positive is good - I have hope for you xx

becky nice to hear how you doing too

jools I have to be careful about the pressure too, so I know what you mean. I slightly ashamed to say that I never talk about when might be a good time - I just try to ensure we BD on the days I think we need to... he's usually very keen, but the slightest hint of pressure...

nothing to report from me.. no real AF signs today - but no other symptoms either... We are having a weekend away - so am hoping that if AF does come she at least waits until monday... I would be even more sad if she came tomorrow and spolit the weekend too

Broodzilla thanks. I am just getting use to it? am 4 weeks and 2 days now, it doesn?t seem real but it is very early days.

Ladies, I am staying here until you all graduate because you have all been such wonderful support to me and I am going to ensure I am here for everyone one of you!! (group hug)

Wanabe Your not that far ahead of me. I am going to see my doctor at 9 weeks. I had a bad experience last time I told him I was 5 weeks? yes, he gave me all that ?its early days and it may not ? well something along the lines without using the MC word. I came away thinking goush ? and of course I did. So I want to wait till the 9 week and then if all is okay will tell him. I am not even going in for an early scan thought I would just wait until the 12 weeks ? if I get that far.

Wanabe, I know what you mean. I am scared too ? scared to get too excited as I feel the rug may be taken away from my feet. All I can do is take one day at a time, not read too much horror stories on what can go wrong on the internet and to have loads of positive thoughts. Good luck at the doctors today, hope your doctor is more sympathetic than mine!!

Smiley what a wonderful date! Well congratulations on your scan, do you now feel a little bit more relaxed?

Becky Thanks. I have waited a long time for this and am hoping the bean will stick around. I can understand how you feel, so happy for you that you got to see your little baby ? it would be nice to have a scanning machine at home like Tom Cruise had for Katie to check on the baby at a glance ? rich people are so lucky. I can understand why you did it to get piece of mind, if it helps then great!! Relax and enjoy your pregnancy. You should share it with your hubby it will give him news that his little one is doing just fine!!

Wasabi I here, here your vision!!

Smiley will look at your scanned pics in a moment!!

OK, I give in, where is smiley's profile hiding? I want to see the scan pictures of someone I give a monkey's about for a change !

Hiya, if you click her name it takes you to her profile page, then you should see Smileys photos at the bottom i think it is

Thanks kitty!

Aw smiley they're lovely and clear, that's me all gooey and fluffy for the rest of the day !

Becky - I lost my libido the day he proposed to me ten years ago and we went through a really really rocky patch where I couldn't even pretend to like BD as it really hurt

Looking back, I think I had vaginismus and it only really went away went my body clock started screaming babies at me.

I'm still don't have a very strong sex-drive, but I do know it improves when I lose a bit of weight. According to Weightwatchers, 1 am 3 stone overweight. I don't completely believe that, as I do a lot of exercise and muscle weighs more than fat. I could do with losing 2 stone though. I will weigh myself on Sunday and see how I did this week Part of me would like to be lighter when I next book in with a midwife when I was last time - there is an unconfirmed link to high BMI and increased risk of MC and, whilst I think a BMI of 34 (when I was PG) is not considered high enough for that risk, it is in the back of my mind all the time as just one more worry !

Hi all - just navigating myself round the new-look mumsnet...

smiley - not worked out how to see your pics yet but will try later. all v exciting for you!

jools - hope the BDing tonight goes well!!

yellow - alls sounds weird but I too have hope for you...a faint positive is still a positive. Keeping all my fingers crossed that the bleeding stops and your BFP gets darker. xx

wannabe - hope docs went well today?

and cindy - hope you're starting to enjoy / believe your BFP now!!

Quick update from me...had loads of creamy, lotiony CM today which made me think of wannabe and her symptoms last month...oh I SO HOPE it's a sign!!!

I'll be off line all weekend as we're going away but will log on on Monday with news of AF or, hopefully NO AF!!

Love to all
xxx

Yellow seems very strange... fingers crossed for you though that the little bean sticks.

Queenie a good sign eh??

TGIF!!!!!

Yellow is the line today stronger than the one yesterday? I can't help but think that a line is a good sign, even with the bleeding, if it's not behaving like your normal AF.
Have you tried an OPK? (I'm sure I read that someone picked a BFP up on the OPK first!)

AF hasn't showed up yet. No signs at all. In fact, (TMI alert) I've got lotiony CM, so it's not even a little bit red. Don't know what to make of it, really. I got a BFN yesterday (my cycle is usually 26 days, and today is 27.

The only "symptoms" I've had (but they would apply equally to AF) is that I've been ravenous, seriously I just can't stop eating. Scary! And, I've been crying at everything, but I do that anyway.

Ho hum. I did succumb and bought one of those Clearblue conception date indicator HPKs, but I've promised myself I'll only use it if/when I get a BFP on the cheapies.

Positive thinking, positive thinking...

Anyone got any exciting plans for the weekend? (Apart from BDing and POAS?)

Broodzilla goush are you a day late then?? why not test with a First Response with your EMU? I got a positive on my OPK!! and then a week later got a very faint line on the First Response, I think it was 8 or 9 days before I was due. Am now officiall got a BFP! My fingers and toes are crossed for you.

I am not doing anything exciting at all. DH is off to see Arsenal play at the Emirates he goes everytime they are at home. That means I will be hanging out with my 2year old DD and no doubt we will be playing cooking again!!

Off on Sunday to see a new born baby girl... I had a cold for the last couple of weeks so couldn't go earlier, so am looking forward to holding the tiny bundle in my arms. Will be hard not to say anything but DH and I have promised to keep it quite till we get a scan and everything is okay. Week 12 will be my 40th birthday week, so I am hoping it will be the best birthday present ever!!

You have a good un and speak to you soon

Cindy
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May you all have a great weekend. Looking forward to hearing about you all...

Wow, what a weekend ahead - Queenie, Broodzilla and Yellowflowers - you all sound like you could be in with a chance. That creamy lotiony CM is an excellent symptom

Fingers and toes (but not legs !!) crossed for you. I'll be the only one left at this rate, till I become perhaps the first person to graduate this thread for a second time

Aw Smiley - that's so cute. I echo Funtime's sentiment about being happy to look at the scan pictures of someone I actually like!

Jools - you will NOT be the only one left. You and me are both going to do the double. I know it's difficult to think positive sometimes and given my recent experience I actually have no idea why I am but I have an absolte faith that this is going to happen. I'm sorry you've had some practical difficulties this month. I think shifting some weight is a really positive thing to do. It sounds like you just need to get back into the habit of lurve again - regardless of whatever time of the month it happens to be.

Yellow - hmmmm, this is all most odd. I had a fresh red bleed when I was pg with ds the day before I was due and a couple of days afterwards. I'm sure I don't need to tell you to try again tomorrow morning with morning wee!

Well I'm loving the new look MN - especially the logo! Well today is my last day at work - been frantically tying lose ends up and trying to line up freelance work. Looking forward to a nice chilled weekend.

Lots of love to everyone (especially those in 2WW!) xx

good luck queenie and broodzilla and hi everyone else. I will try with mornign pee too but if anything the blood has got a bit more periody - though did two more internet cheapies today and both have the same very faint line. But I also bought a first response and did it in the loo in a dept store today so late pm urine and it showed nothing. I think it must be cp. The smell of my friends lilliesather house today though almost made me throw up, and the mini cabs air freshene, though that could happen any time to be honest as they smell so foul.

Have a nice weekend everyone.
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Still no answers. Did internet cheapie this am and i thought a line (faint but clear) and dh looked at it and said that it was just an indentation. After about ten mins line disappeared - is this normal in internet cheapie?

Still spotting though not much. Browny pinky watery now, not the bright red of a couple of days ago.

Yellow that must be SO frustrating! I hope it all sorts itself out soon, one way or another.

I'm out for this month, as AF arrived this morning, right after I got a BFN.

Oh well, there's always next month...

I've started temping now in the hope that I'll at least know for certain if and when I've OVed. That should stop the obsession with POAS, then again, I'll probably end up spending hours squinting at my temps instead...

Anyway, I'm sipping on a whiskey to drown my sorrows.

Happy Saturday night to everyone!

Hi broodzilla - well we're still in this together - about lunchtime period came properly, could no longer be classified as even heavy spotting, and then had a few hours of my typical very strong backache though usually it is so distracting I have to sit down and not do anything for a few hours and this time I could carry on chatting to people over lunch and walking round a gallery, though I was aware of it. So a bit different but maybe thatis the acupuncture, one of the aims of which is to make my period not painful.

So guess it was a cp and looking online internet cheapies actually pick up hcg in much lower quantities than even first response so must have only been 'pregnant' for a day or so to show on that and not on any others.

Am disappointed and actually have been exhausted all day so to bed now. So on to next month...

broodzilla and yellowflowers am so sorry your AF arrived [hugs]

Sorry to hear your news Broodzilla and Yellowflowers - our bodies are evil things for deceiving us like this

Not a good weekend over here Couldn't get DP in the mood and co-operative despite trying hard Thurs, Fri and Sat morning - ended up having a huge row. He can't tell me why he has a problem at the mo - I ended up telling him that if he wouldn't let me at least try to start the family he promised me when we got engaged, I'm not sure I could go on living with him, resenting our childless state and wondering what might have been.

I ovulated last night - and wow, it was the most painful thing I've experienced since the MC. Both sides hurt - makes me wonder whether I've wasted two eggs this time. This was all going on whilst sat in a restaurant with friends and trying to be normal whilst I was crying inside at the thought of another egg being wasted. We were staying over with friends, so no chances to chat, no making up - he has just swept it under the carpet as men tend to.

I'm not sure where we go from here. This is the first 2WW I've had since June where I've not been knicker checking and symptom spotting and it will be very strange. If I do manage to conceive, I'll now be giving birth at 40, which is a bit of a psychological hurdle, especially bearing in mind I don't want an only child

Trying to hold on to the positives - I've put on nearly a stone since I conceived last time and that has simply GOT to come off and I will have a healthier pregnancy for it. I also know exactly what my cycle is doing and it is back to its normal clockwork regularity.

Sorry for such a long post but it felt good to get that down. Having done the shopping and blitzed the kitchen, I am now going to watch the episode of ER that I sky plussed, then go for a spinning class at the gym

Not a good news weekend then

Broodzilla and Yellow - sorry to hear that this month isn't a worker. Yellow - especially feeling for you after a few days of thinking something may be afoot.

Jools - I'm so sorry to hear that you and your DP are having problems. It's so difficult I don't know what to say. I can understand why you feel that time is running away but your dp also sounds unhappy. It may be a naff suggestion but have you thought about counselling? I'm sure your do was devastated by your mc as well as you. I think women have better coping mechansims in terms of being able to talk to people whereas men have a tendency to clam up and just internalise everything. Maybe this is causing problems?

Whatever happens I hope you sort things out