Feeling drained - support following MMC needed 💔

[hellobanana]

Hello, just feeling so drained/ down in the dumps and desperate to put my missed miscarriage behind me. I feel like everyday is so difficult at the moment.

Found out on my 12 week scan in late July that I’d had a missed miscarriage and opted for surgical management, this essentially failed as I had retained products of conception and had the procedure again 3 weeks later after a horrible few weeks of passing tissue and blood.

Now I’m here and I had my first period start on 05/09 and finish on 08/09 and my ovulation sticks are so faint and I’ve got clear cervical mucus stained with old / pink blood. Can anyone shed any light on the blood and why my ovulation sticks are so faint 😭 not increased in 3 days.

Very normal for ovulation sticks to do nothing and then everything within three hours. I have to test three times a day to catch my peak or it's back to nothing and I've missed it. You and your body have been through a hell of a lot. You will ovulate again, and you'll get pregnant again. There's no reason to think you won't. You just need a bit more time x

Thank you for responding @Springadorablex It’s just hard and rubbish!

Oh it's totally shit. We spend years being grateful to get a period telling us where not pregnant having been told by school that if you look at a boy you will be pregnant immediately, and then when it comes to it it's not the case. I feel your pain and your anger and it's all justified.

Sending you my love.

I just found out today my baby had no heartbeat. My hcg levels were very low to begin with and they have only fallen slightly so they want me back in another week for a scan and to check if my levels are falling by themselves.
I've had no symptoms of a miscarriage.
We found out we conceived this baby naturally after an ivf cycle. We've been trying 20 years naturally and our only child is ivf so it feels so cruel to have it snatched away.
It's really hard to even begin to know how to deal with the grief

@hellobanana @VioIetMoon really sorry for your losses. I had a MMC at 9 weeks in June and experienced prolonged bleeding also.
The first ‘cycle’ post the loss was an odd one for me - I did actually find a peak on the ovulation sticks a couple of days after the bleeding finally stopped (after a month) but the peak lasted over 3 days, whereas I usually have a day trending to high, then a clear peak and back to negative. My body must have still been adjusting and it just took me a little more time.
The second cycle my ovulation seemed a day or two later than usual but the sticks followed my usual pattern.