Please lend me some support as I wait to see if pregnant or heading for another long cycle

[lostittoday]

Oh God I am such a mess atm.
For anybody who is not aware of my circumstances although I suspect most of you are as I have rambled on about this so many times on here your probably sick of hearing it.
9 months now ttc my 2nd dc with no luck.
I have had irregular cycles all of this time last one was 28 days and the one previous to that was 62 days.
I feel as though I am going around the bend wondering if I could be pregnant or if I am in for another long cycle.
I can't face doing a test I want a bfp so much I cannot face seeing a bfn.
I don,t even know when I should test.
Also I am supposed to have a day 3 blood test done and have no idea when that will be yet.
So confused I mean if I have another long cycle do I still have the day 3 test done.

I am currently on cd 28 with no sign of af.

do not test. (its lissie btw) leave it another week then test, any idea when you ov'd?

Yes I did think about leaving it another week.
Already I can feel my emotions building up into a frenzy.
I just can't help myself but at 37 after 9 months of ttc I feel desperate.
I have had mild crampy feelings like I get when af is on the way, but I can only hope.
No idea when I ovulate.

i know its tough, but wait it out, testing is evil and the longer you wait the more likey you are to get a bfp!

Thanks roobis.
Its very tough I have been through this before waiting for af to come wondering if I am pregnant.
I have had some very long cycles which have drove me mad.

Any thoughts on the day 3 test I am meant to have.
If I have another long cycle should I sit it out and wait, or seek advice on what to do.