June/July TTC Thread❤️ CONTINUED

[FarAwayBird]

Starting a new thread because we got to 999 replies!

Yeah, at 40 I have only a 5% chance every month but I don’t know if that’s to fall pregnant at all, which I can seem to do, or for it to stick once pregnant.

@Figtree11it came as a shock to me as I was so use to seeing negatives but of course I go get a positive test the morning of my infertility appointment 🤣 the fertility specialist gave me progesterone just in case yo help baby stick but the progesterone is making an already rough first trimester even more rough 🤣

@EmPeEf That's interesting, where are those stats from? I was wondering same thing and trying to work out, if I am having my second chemical in 2 cycles, is that still normal odds for my age? 🤔 I read that most chemicals are from genetic/chromosomal abnormalities, so that could make sense if as you say @Mummysparrow they're 40% faulty 😆

I still don't totally know if it's a chemical, I think a FRER in the morning will make it clearer, as line should definitely be darker if pregnancy is progressing. Nothing too dramatic going on with cramps, still just light brown spotting, mild pulls here and there, headache, fatigue, sore boobs, so other than this morning's lighter line and last cycle's chemical, I'm not sure I'd be throwing in the towel just yet 🤔 not sure when I'll get the blood results.

@DorsetGirl89i was shocked when the fertility specialist told me that figure. She said the rest have chromosome abnormalities. After having a pregnancy with a chromosome abnormality last year I am really hoping the one that conceived this year is one of healthy eggs as I think another TFMR would break me.
How many dpo are you?

I'm not sure actually I didn't ask! I don't think it'll take long for GP to have them, but until GP processes them they won't go on to NHS app, so it depends who checks and reviews them as my GP isn't in the rest of the week now. I'm trying not to worry as I think what will be will be now, I just hope if I am having a chemical that today's bloods can shed some light on what went wrong and when 😬🤞🏻

Yeah I hadn't heard that either, but it does explain why women over 35 have more chemicals though! From what I read earlier, MOST chromosomal abnormalities end in a very early loss, so if your pregnancy is progressing it's a good sign the egg is healthy! What week did you have the loss last year? I imagine that was incredibly difficult, I'm sorry 😔

I'm 12DPO I think.

@DorsetGirl89i had a TFMR at 15 weeks for T16. Usually babies with T16 miscarry in first trimester but my body didn't get that message. My baby was properly starting to struggle and had congenital diaphragmatoc hernia so we ended the pregnancy as we knew it was coming to an end. It was horrible and then I had issues conceiving after which ended up with me having surgery in January which was just another punch in the gut. So I have my fingers crossed for this pregnancy.
I hope you don't have to wait tooong for the results. The waiting is often the hardest part isn't it

@FarAwayBird how many cycles have you been TTC? I can imagine the start of another TWW must get exhausting, it's a bloody rollercoaster 🥴

Oh goodness I'm so sorry 😔 that must've been absolute hell to be honest. I imagine it took all the strength you had to feel ready to start trying again. I am keeping everything crossed that this is a healthy and happy pregnancy 🤞🏻❤️😘🙏🏻 xxx

@amey44 I'm not too sure but I do think the first picture of these two I see a slight shadow maybe? The picture quality isn't great once uploaded though, so you'll be able to see it better than us probably! Aren't you only 7DPO though right? If so and one-step tests are already faintly positive then I reckon it's got to be twins because that would be some mad quick HCG production! 😆

Going from the pictures I don't think I can see anything definite yet, so keep testing ❤️🤞🏻

@Figtree11 gosh you've had a rough ride too. Totally recognise the negativity for first cycle back trying, that one sent me spiralling. I even got a false positive on an expired test just to make things really fun.

Welcome @PeonyPatch 

@EmPeEf thanks so much for checking in, and now im fully caught up I can see cautious congratulations are in order!! So pleased for you and obv hope all goes smoothly from here. Do you have a plan around continuing to test? I'm doing ok, I tested today, after another 48h, line was definitely darker. AF due today roughly, so a little milestone to get past. I'm 14DPO. What about you?

Also had my transvaginal ultrasound that was already scheduled as part of the fertility testing my GP organised. Too early to see anything unfortunately! But he said all good overall so that's obviously another box ticked which is nice.

@DorsetGirl89 sending love - how difficult to still be in limbo. As someone who's never really had symptoms even with my daughter I am encouraged by you feeling rough! I feel totally normal right now. Maybe a bit bloated but it might be the crisps!!

Sorry @amey44 I can't see anything but definitely try to wait a couple of days if you can beat it!

@FarAwayBird let yourself feel the feelings but I hope you find some optimism for the remainder of the tww. Or maybe there will be a very nice unexpected massive shock in 2 weeks time! Stranger things have happened.

@DorsetGirl89 oh, I found that depressing stat everywhere I looked online earlier in the year which is one of the reasons we started trying as soon as possible. I always thought we’d be fine and could just do IVF as I went past 40, but then found the statistics are to do with the age of your eggs more then anything, and the chances go down 1% a year after 40. IVF doesn’t help with egg age at all so we got going. They’re going to be averages though, as women over 45 still conceive naturally, but obviously much rather than 35.

I really hope you see progression tomorrow. Praying for it 🤞🏻

@Mummysparrow oh ny gosh that sounds so intense. Crossing my fingers even harder you you now as well. Really sympathise which what you’ve been through.

@hollyhocks2 yes, I can’t quite believe it! I think your good luck this cycle rubbed off on me as well as my partner did 🤣

I have another regular Clearblue, and then two digital with weeks arriving tomorrow. I got my surprise BFP with a weeks indicator in May so I’d like to see it written out. I’m not going to do the regular Clearblue tomorrow unless I see progression on the strips though, and I’m not going to do the digital till I see progression on the Clearblue if that makes sense 😅 A low HCG “not pregnant” would be soul crushing lol. How about you? Glad to hear your scan went well. Will you consider an early one at all? I’d like to hold out till 8 weeks if I can as I know the chances greatly improve from there.

@DorsetGirl89 only 4 months, officially! So I really shouldn’t be feeling this fed up already. It took both me and my husband a long time to feel ready after a traumatic birth/newborn stage the first time around (husband couldn’t be at the birth, I had labour and c-section on my own except medical staff, baby stopped breathing, was in NICU etc)… but once we were ready… we were READY. If that makes sense? 😂

@EmPeEf 🤣 happy to help! Yes I totally understand your testing rationale, I have my own plan with alternate day strip tests then 2 digitals a week apart to check progression. Tried to explain to DP but he looked blank. This should make you all laugh in a hollow, wry sort of way - tonight he asked me what TTC stands for. I mean really. My eyes rolled to the back of my head. Are we on the same planet??

Haha. To be fair, whenever I read or write CD, I say “cool down” in my head, not “cycle day”. I was a gamer first 😂😂

Oh my gosh @hollyhocks2 that has cracked me up. The revelation for my husband this month was that women only release one egg per month (“really?! Just one PER MONTH?!”), so there really aren’t that many days where you’re likely to get pregnant- I could see the cogs turning, we do not live on the same planet 😂

@FarAwayBird I think we’re cycle buddies this month, ov day today for me too. I identify with what you said about birth trauma so much. Our twins came very early and were very poorly, we spent months in NICU and our whole newborn experience was tough, this followed a pregnancy where I spent more time in hospital than out (we had 40+ scans!!). The idea of having any more was off the table for so long- until suddenly I felt VERY ready just like you say, it took 3 years to get there though!

@EmPeEf 😆 well I read 'compact disc' so I guess that's showing my age.

@DoubleDandelion yup, that's mine too, I think he knows more now, but he's so clueless to how it works, I remember when we were using natural family planning to not conceive, and he really struggled to get his head around the fact there were some days we really couldn't accidentally get pregnant (like the day before my period) as there was one 24 hour timeslot a month where conception could actually occur, so it was only the week leading up and a day or two after that was in the 'possible danger zone' 😆 I ended up connecting him to my 'clue' account and he still kept getting confused 😆🤷🏻‍♀️

@hollyhocks2 there's no way my OH would understand the codes, I could write a full journal and he'd be in the dark 😆 to be fair it can be a bit baffling when you start writing stuff like F36 M46 Cycle #2 TTC #1, currently 13DPO CD25 BBT elevated PDG positive 😆😆😆

Morning all!

Just a shadow again on FRER, but even a shadow makes me hopeful that the bloods yesterday might've picked it up and can lead to answers quicker. No spotting overnight/this morning, no cramping either, I just can't see a scenario in which I'd not be getting a stronger line by 13DPO if all was well, so I've made peace with that now, anything else will be a surprise!

Interestingly I think my LH strips have picked something up a couple of times as I've had slight rises, which can apparently be cross detecting HCG.

I'm not going to test tomorrow, I might as well see what the blood results are before I waste another FRER. Still don't think they're evaps because the one yesterday with SMU and previous one in evening had no shadow at all, and the FMU yesterday and this morning did. This was an expensive FRER run this cycle 😬😆

Hope everyone has a wonderful day ahead 😘❤️🙏🏻

Good to hear you’re still registering a line @DorsetGirl89 Have you thought about taking a one off temperature to give an idea of your progesterone is still going strong? Mine seems to going higher which I’m taking as a good sign. Just not sure when to consider myself 4 weeks because no sure of how many dpo. I just want to get past today and into tomorrow and then that’ll be further than I got back in May.

@EmPeEf I've been temping every morning and BBT is still above cover line, the pdg test this morning still seemed to be positive, so progesterone might still be ok? Keeping everything crossed for you that all is going well! Temp rising is good sign 🥰❤️ xx

Hi all! Got my blood and progesterone back, HCG negative and progesterone dropped. I think it failed very soon after implantation and levels rose just enough for a day or 2 to show on FRER in between blood tests, but then below 5miu/l in bloods on Monday and yesterday? I don't know, but I'm 99.9% sure implantation happened, I felt it, had the spotting when expected, have had on and off spotting since and passed a small clot yesterday, and had all my usual pregnancy symptoms, so something happened, just frustrated the bloods didn't pick it up! Next cycle I will make sure I get bloods at 11DPO which is when I've had my most obvious lines both cycles.

Going to take a break from the forums for a while, I'm not sure what my next steps are, I think at this stage we're going to carry on trying for now, but if cancer levels have increased significantly from last month then we're going to have to rethink and possibly go down the egg collection route. Feeling ok, but exhausted, I hoped I'd get some answers, but now feel like I'm as in the dark as ever! I'm worried if my progesterone is dropping before I can get a solid positive pregnancy test then how will I get prescribed progesterone? 🤔 I think I need to hope my Dr trusts my instincts here. To be fair, she trusted my instincts a few years ago when I was diagnosed with Chronic fatigue syndrome and I suspected it was more, and it turned out to be leukaemia, her agreeing to more repeat tests saved my life as without them it might've been too late to treat me!

Sending love and baby dust to you all, I'll be popping on here and there to check on how you guys are doing, thank you so much for all your support! Congratulations to everyone with their BFP's, I hope it all goes wonderfully for you! To everyone that's had loss or disappointment this cycle, I'm so, so sorry, sending huge hugs I hope you get your happy successful pregnancies soon 🥰❤️🙏🏻 xxx

@DorsetGirl89 I’m totally crushed for you 😔 You’re always in here, supporting us and taking the time to read our posts and respond at length. You deserved so much more this cycle, I’m so sorry. You’re a real inspiration though; I know that’s not much consolation. Whilst you take a break please know that we care for you and wish you nothing but the best going forward xx

@EmPeEf thank you so much, that means a lot to me, hope you're feeling ok today ❤️ xxx

@DorsetGirl89 I am so sorry. Even if the bloods didn't pick it up, you know you were pregnant again, albeit sadly so briefly. You're in such a difficult position, I really wish you clarity, strength and peace as you navigate your dilemma and figure out the best way forward. Thank you for your support on here, you come across as such a warm positive resilient person and I know that will carry you through whatever lies ahead ❤️