Hey ladies. FRER was negative tonight after a 6 hour hold, and I've started heavier brown spotting/bleeding, so I think this was another really early chemical 😔 (it's not AF, I'm not due for a week) something has happened just after implantation both cycles, it just won't stick! It's not progesterone, so that's good, but what is happening? 😭
The bloods being negative yesterday means it must've failed just after implantation I think, but the levels of HCG just reached enough to be detectable still in urine a day later before they dropped. I broke open both FRERs to look at strip up close, and there was a vvvvfl on the 9DPO (yesterdays) one as well, I just didn't notice it at the time, which means it's a loss sadly as if the FRER could detect it a little Monday morning in urine, but nothing in blood that afternoon, then a little again in urine this morning, it means that it had already dropped in blood and residual HCG was still in urine, not that the blood hcg hadn't risen enough yet to be detectable and it went up overnight, as that wouldn't explain the vvvvfl yesterday that I didn't notice. I also broke open tonights to check and not a whiff of a line at all, so I think that rules out evaps/indents/faulty batch.
I have been googling some of my remedies for endometriosis and I am worried that they might be to blame! I take turmeric and raw garlic to keep the endo at bay, but they might be stopping the endometrial lining from being thick enough for an embryo to implant properly (although slowing the endometrial growth is normally good when I wasn't TTC!) also turmeric and garlic are anticoagulants and could be stopping successful implantation apparently (evidence isn't entirely clear either way but theoretically it could be a problem) so I'll stop those next cycle and hope for the best 😩
Feeling super sad, so worried that time is ticking down for me to continue trying 😔 I think I need to ask them to get the ball rolling on collecting my eggs asap in case I need to start the cancer treatment soon. Blurgh, it's all a lot this TTC isn't it! 😩 Sorry for the long post, just needed to dump my frazzled brain somewhere so I can have a good night's sleep 😴
Sleep tight everyone and baby dust to you all. @Nightshift110 you're especially in my thoughts tonight, hope you rest well xxx