January 2025 ✨

[Emiily887]

Hi ladies, a new thread for us to continue the amazing support into the new year.
Praying this thread will hold the key to many positives🩷
I’m currently on CD4 today and looking forward to a fresh cycle. We have now hit the one year mark TTC no. 3 so hoping for a miracle soon xxx

Before I go mad, I’m going to ask for help.

Please help 😩

so, my LH surge was detected on CD13 on the Clearblue digital (the pink one). This seemed really early, but we went along with it (I normally have a 29 day cycle).

I’ve been crampy ever since CD13, and tonight, felt like I was getting EWCM. It’s now CD17, so did another clearblue digital ovulation test, and got another smily face 😱🫨 I literally have no idea what this means.

I hope DH is able to DTD in the morning. I really don’t want to miss our window.
but how can it be detected twice on one cycle?

HELP

Has anyone encountered this before?
any help would be so much appreciated ☺️😬 thank you Xx

Hi @HopeB can be normal, I don't think you need to worry. Sometimes the body gears go to ovulate but doesn't get a strong enough surge, so has a second go a few days later. Some people regularly have two surges per cycle. I've read it can lead to Fraternal twins!

Hey @KittyFantastica , thank you ☺️

After my mini-breakdown (ok, not so mini 🙈 lol), I did a lot of reading and it’s exactly as you say; the initial surge isn’t always enough, so your body goes again a few days later. We’ve DTD today anyway, to give ourselves the best chance, but that was a bit of a wild ride.

Man! It seems like there is something new every cycle lol

How are you getting on @KittyFantastica ? Xx

Good job covering all the bases anyway @HopeB 😆 Fingers crossed that one surge or the other produces and lovely BFP for you!

All okay here for now. I've got my booking in appointment in 10 days, which is suuuuper early, but I'll be considered high risk this time, so maybe that's why. EPU have booked in an early scan for 7 weeks, so just waiting now.

That’s amazing @KittyFantastica! I’m so pleased they are taking care of you from the off ☺️

How is everyone else doing? After my freak-out, I actually feel a lot calmer now 😊 xx

Hi ladies, sorry been lots going on 💕I just wanted to update you that although I got my bfp this cycle and had the pregnancy confirmed on Tues with good beta hcg, the results from today show the hcg hasn’t increased as it should so they say the pregnancy isn’t viable. Just trying to process it and prepare myself.
the silver lining is we are conceiving but still so heartbreaking when they don’t stick and I just feel like we aren’t getting anywhere.
Will just wait til I start bleeding now and hopefully will be just like a normal period. I’m not even 4 weeks yet so hopefully won’t be too bad. Onto another cycle still with taking the aspirin as clearly it’s doing something and hope we will get there and be able to make it to a successful pregnancy some day. Trying to stay level but I’m quite low from this this evening not gotta lie.
sending love and support to all 💕

Oh @LuxyLocket im so sorry 😞 this journey is so bloody unfair!! I’m thinking of you and if you need anything at all we’re all here to listen and support. That goes to everyone else too. Sending so much love.
We have decided that if we haven’t conceived this cycle, we will have a discussion on whether to take a little break from it.
I think hitting the 1 year mark again has really made it difficult, alongside my endo pain being worse then ever, I can feel it taking such a toll on my mental health so perhaps having a break is sensible. It’s just that feeling of ‘wasting time’ that worries me, especially with my endo getting worse. We will see - I may feel differently next cycle 🩷

@Emiily887 Thank you so much lovely 💕💕I know you completely get how this feels. I know lots of us have had difficult times which is comforting but also so unfair that any of us have this when it is so easy for others. Really appreciate your words and support. Next month is our first angel babies due date so I know I’m going to find that hard.
completely get that about a break and we have been talking about doing the same. 1 year mark is a very hard milestone to hit I’m so sorry it sucks and sending you a big hug xx love the support on the thread I’m so glad we all have eachother. Still rooting for everyone else

Oh @LuxyLocket, I’m so, so sorry.
this really is unfair. I wish I had some comforting words … all I can say is that we’ll be here for you, just like @Emiily887 said 💕

sending lots of hugs to you both ✨

Such sad news @LuxyLocket I'm so sorry to read this.

@LuxyLocket I'm do sorry to hear about your result, so unfair! Thinking about you and hoping for peace and strength for you ❤️‍🩹 it's such a hard blow, we're all here to offer support and wish you well.

@Emiily887 I really think it's important to have that chat with your OH... this process impacts so many aspects of your life! I'm still keeping everything crossed for your BFP, but I completely understand you may crave some space and relief from all this. What you write about endo sounds terrible, is there nothing that can be done to help?

Nothing much to report from me, started taking progesterone tablets, plan is to begin IVF stims at the end of month. I actually feel they make me emotional, but that may be just another form of symptom spotting! I feel like I stumbled into yet another way to be unhinged and second-guess myself while TTC, what a ride this is 😅

So sorry to read this @LuxyLocket , lots of love to you and take care of yourself 💕

So sorry to hear that @LuxyLocket

Hey everyone, I just wanted to check in with how everyone is doing today?

Quick update from me:
I’m on CD21, and 7DPO (I think). I’m going to do my absolute best not to test early - although, I have all of my tests ready to go - its going to be pretty difficult, but I don’t think I can take the emotional roller coaster right now.

We’ve booked a few days away for the end of January now too. It’s a nice distraction, but completely flexible (so, if I get a BFP 🤞🙏, we can just change the dates and if not, then I have a nice break to look forward to).

I spent all of last year not wanting to book a trip “just in case” and ended up not going anywhere. We decided that wouldn’t be the case this year, so I’m proud of us for keeping to it ☺️

How is everyone else doing?

@LuxyLocket and @Emiily887 I’m thinking of you xx

Hi all!

Dipping my toe back in. Tried to TTC number two since 2022 and had multiple losses. Two losses last year and needed a few months off TTC that turned into 6 months off. Resuming again this month

Sorry to read of hard results 😕 it's not an easy journey at all. @HopeB I'm on cd27 and like you trying to hold out to test. I didn't properly track ovulation so not sure where I am DPO (or that I ovulated!) AF could be due tomorrow or Tues or Weds (,cycles vary 28-30 days) I've had no symptoms at all (apart from so many weird dreams which I think I get anyway pre period) so not getting my hopes up this time

Hello all! Hope everyone’s doing alright 💜

@LuxyLocket thinking of you. It sucks. Milestones are always difficult and it can feel like a setback. How are you feeling now?

@Emiily887 I relate about the “wasting time” feeling, it’s horrible. We had had a good try this month (despite temperature carnage thanks to the flu) and on about CD18 I was thinking I really don’t feel like DTD but I’m going to have to because if I’m fertile now but didn’t cover this day I will beat myself up about it. I felt like I was going mad so I actually had an open and honest chat with my DH where I broke down and cried cause I’d just felt so up in my head about it. He was great though and kind of took the pressure off me for it “having” to be this month, which is exactly the space we get ourselves into. It did help and calmed me down cause I’d been bottling it all up and not being honest with him for so long.

@HopeB I am glad you are feeling better. It’s totally normal to freak out about stuff cause we are going through it so much. I think we might almost be CBs (!) as I am currently on CD25 and although I have bought the tests and planned meticulously when I am going to take said tests, I have somehow managed to refrain from doing a test. So far!! My main method at the moment is distraction. I’ve took it a bit far this time I think. I have actually decided I want to go back to uni and have applied for 2 PhDs and a (second!) masters in the space of a week 😂. DH has absolutely no idea about this and it is in no way compatible with having a baby 😅 I just absolutely have to be doing something to keep my mind occupied because I feel like I’m going fucking crazy. If I don’t test positive this cycle, what will I be up to next month I wonder? Scaling Everest? Sailing around the world? Watch this space I guess 😂

@KittyFantastica That is just lovely that you have shells for George. I’m sending a photo of my garden now. The big stripy stone is for my little Peanut, then my friends daughter’s memorial, and I thought the shells could be for all the many other little souls we have lost. If you would like me to add his name to one of these, or if anyone else would like that, just let me know 💜

@lynzmb how are you feeling? Are you recovered now? X

@PamelaDoov how are you? X

Not really @dev86 , thanks for asking though. Still pretty wiped out, I've had antibiotics for a UTI as well but think I need a longer course. I'm waiting on AF arriving, obviously it's late when there's no chance I could be pregnant this month 🙄 Roll on February is all I can say 🤣
How are you? x

I’m doing good thank you :) nice strong lines on my tests now so im happy there’s progression, won’t bother doing any more!

Hi ladies sorry for being quiet for a few days was a lot to take in and thank you for everyone’s absolutely lovely words 💕🩷after resigning ourselves to the fact that the pregnancy wasn’t going to continue after that nurse said my bloods hadn’t risen enough on Thurs. 3 days later still getting dark line progression on strips, so did a clear blue this evening and can’t believe it 2-3 weeks. So shows the hcg has risen. Hopefully this is a good sign. Still not out of the woods and annoyingly that scare on Thursday has caused a great deal of anxiety but for now we are pregnant!
I’ve been referred to the EPU and got them contacting me over the next couple of days to hopefully have things a bit more clarified. I almost regret doing that private blood hcg draw and wish I hadn’t as we would just seen our BGP and would be none the wiser! We are still taking it a day at a time but maybe my hcg just rose after the 48 hours and things will be ok after all 🤞this is further than we’ve got before and pregnancy after loss is so so so hard but all we can do is be greatful for now and try and stay calm and take a day at a time. Sending love to all and I’m so thankful for your support.

What a rollercoaster for you @LuxyLocket - will have everything crossed for you, keep us updated if you feel up to it xx

Good luck! @DaringlyDizzy and welcome ☺️✨

Hey @Sunshine924 , oh wow, not that long to wait then (kind of 😅). Do you usually get symptoms before AF? If yes, having no symptoms this time could actually be a good sign? Everything crossed for you! ✨✨

Hey @dev86 , thank you for your message. You’re so brave and it’s exactly the right thing to do - communicating openly with your DH. It’s the hardest thing to do sometimes - for some reason. And it’s a good reminder that we are going through this WITH them. Not just by ourselves ☺️

Ooh! When are you planning on testing?
Haha! I actually laughed out loud 😂 distraction is the absolute key! lol, what are you going to do if you get accepted for both PhD’s?? 😂😅 so funny.
What’s the subject area (just out of interest)?

I’ve been deep cleaning my house at all hours of the night when I can’t sleep, and I’ve even started writing the novel I’ve always wanted to write (35k words in so far ☺️), and yet, I still have head-space to obsess over my cycle like a mad woman 😂 sigh!!
Everything crossed for us both, and all the baby dust ✨✨

Thinking of you @lynzmb I really hope it’s not too painful and AF comes quickly ❤️

That’s AMAZING @PamelaDoov !! So happy for you ☺️

@LuxyLocket THIS IS AMAZING!! I really hope this one sticks and everything goes smoothly from now on! And I really hope the EPU look after you! Wow! What a rollercoaster ✨ xx

@HopeB I usually get some cramps and bloating. I've just started getting cramps now so perhaps AF is on the way :( really fighting urge to do a test