I'm utterly heartbroken and just looking for somebody to talk to, unsure why but I don't want to reach out to any of my friends...most of them don't have the desire for children so I don't feel like they will understand.
Today I had a miscarriage to what would have been our 3rd baby. After making the decision to have a 3rd child I was so excited to find out we'd fallen pregnant in the first month. Even though this loss was an early one at 5 weeks +1 day I'd found out very early so felt like I'd been pregnant for ages. I'd imagined who they would be , I'd booked my first midwife appointment , I'd planned how I would announce it to my two other children. This just hurts so much, I've had one previous miscarriage before my second and this one feels even worse. I'm laid here wondering how I get up in the morning and do the school run , carry on with the Halloween activities we have booked at the weekend when all I want to do is hide in my room and not come back out. I want a 3rd child so bad but I'm now so scared to try again incase I keep having miscarriages my heart cannot take it. Like I said I really don't know the meaning to this post I just needed to say it out loud because I'm drowning at the moment 💔