been ttc#1 forever (and a bit longer) ....

[nomoremagnolia]

Thought it was time for a new thread - we're almost out of room on the original one

[herbaceous]

Hello girls. Hope you all had a wizard weekend. Mine was highly boozy, catching up with old friends all back in London from various parts of the world.

AF still not here. If I did ov on cd10, or so, it either means a luteal phase of 22 days, or I'm up duff. Keep feeling AF-type oddness, and rushing off to lav, but nothing there. Feel quite sick, too. And off red wine. Unheard of!

I think I may have to POAS tomorrow morning. Then spend half an hour in tears at the BFN, I'll be bound.

[RahRah1]

Hi girlie.... well I nursing the hangover from hell!! I went out Saturday night and got in at 8am and didn't finish being sick until 8pm! I have never been so sick! GRRRRR

Many congratulations Jess, so pleased your scan went well. Glad you are starting to relax a bit. Make sure you update us on that 20 week scan!

herbaceous - have my fingers crossed for you. Hurry up with that test!!!

Hello to everyone else... I'm off to rest my delicate head again... (off Sick today)

[herbaceous]

Oh for fucking god's buggering sake. Did a test this morning, absolutely convinced I was pregnant - had even worked out when it would be due - and it was negative. Gutted.

And what does it mean. My last 9 cycles have been 28-29 days, and now I'm CD33 and counting. And I reckon I O'd on CD10, or so. Christ. Don't tell me it's the menopause.

Told DP by text this morning, and he replied 'oh, I had a good feeling, but was trying to keep calm'. Which made me blub. Life is SHIT.

[nomoremagnolia]

(((herby)))

[Ready]

Herby, Are you sure you ovulated as early as 10? It's not the menopause. Don't even think about the menopause. I would say wait until a week late, forget when you might have ovulated, just go by your normal cycle length - and then test again. If still nothing, blood test. Sorry you are going through this. Hope that it is a good thing in the end though. Fingers crossed.

All over for me again I am afraid. Period arrived last night. Not sure whether or not to count yesterday as CD1? For some reason I have it in my head that if you start bleeding after lunch time then it doesn't count - but I think it is entirely possible that I am clutching at straws to try and avoid an 11 day luteal phase

Grumpy. Cheesed off. Sore belly.

And to top it off, found a poor starling dead on my patio this morning. I cried my eyes out at having to put him in the bin - if it was that flamin cat there'll be trouble!

[herbaceous]

Just embarrassed myself at work. DP just sent me a bunch of flowers, and it made be burst into tears. Natch, I can't say why...

I only think I O'd at day 10 due to masses of EWCM. Maybe it was one of those annovulatory cycles that apparently happen occasionally and don't mean I'm barren and hopeless.

As for CD counting, I always seem to start AF in the evening, on a Thursday!, and count that as CD1. Don't suppose it matters, really, as long as the system is consistent...

[RahRah1]

Oh Herby..... like Ready said forget about your ovulation and look at your normal cycle length. I was 3 days late this month and knew exactly when I ovulated as IUI, but still late! Just a major head doer! I still have my fingers crossed for you in case its just not showing up yet on tests, because the best sign of pregnancy in my eyes is lack of a period!

Ready sorry its CD1 for you again... GRRRRR .... its not fair!

[RahRah1]

HOORAY for Herby's hubbie.... what a lovely DH you have!

[herbaceous]

He's so wonderful. I sometimes feel sadder that I'm letting him down than anything else. He's 10 years younger than me, and could be having hundreds of babies with a younger, more sprightly lady, but instead he sticks with barren old me. But he loves me! He tells me every day.

[EachPeachPearPlum]

Sorry herbaceous and Ready

I'm on CD3 here too, so it's misery all round!

Herby - your work colleagues probably just think you had a big argument or something and he sent you flowers to apologise

[Ready]

How lovely of your dh Herby... but I will not allow you to say that he could be off having hundreds of babies with someone else. He wouldn't want that!!! I too feel saddest at letting down my dh, so it is probably wrong of me to tell you off for thinking such things. But you mustn't.
Rah is right... lack of period is the best sign of all. Fingers crossed.

[Ready]

Sorry you are back to the beginning EachPeach

[nomoremagnolia]

(((Ready Herby EachPeach))) Ready I'd count today as cd1
Herby Your DH obviously loves you

[nomoremagnolia]

at random bold/starry mistake

[herbaceous]

Ready and Rah. You're so lovely. Both with big troubles of your own, and you always take time to make me feel better. I hate the way this TTC, or FTC, lark makes me so self-obsessed...

[RahRah1]

WOW Herby a Toy Boy! You lucky sod!
My hubbie is a year and a half younger than me, so I always see him as being my toy boy..lol! Yours sounds very sprightly and utterly in love with you!

I'm self obsessed too! It can't be helped! So don't worry about that!

EachPeachPearPlum - sorry to hear your on your next cycle.... its just poo isn't it!

[Ready]

Hey, we are all in this together!! I know that I would have gone completely potty if I didn't have support here.

[nomoremagnolia]

My DH is a year younger than me too
(sorry for calling your DP your DH earlier Herby)

[herbaceous]

That's OK! I'm working on him becoming an H rather than a P!

I've been sent into a right spin by all this. I think it might just be the final straw, adding to

• all that nonsense with biopsies on my boob last month
• feeling the pressure to conceive in the next few months, as - we have to give up in order to adopt
• worried the adoption people will find out that I've been referred to a consultant for internal tubing investigations
• my deputy being promoted beneath me, taking my responsibilities, because I admitted to boss that I'm going for adoption
• my dad having alzheimers
• my sis being due her third, perfect, trouble-free baby in three weeks

Gosh. When I write it all down, it's a bit heavy duty!

[EachPeachPearPlum]

My DH is less than a week older than me so it looks like I just missed out on a toyboy

You are all really nice! I wish I'd joined the thread ages ago now. Feeling quite depressed today but it's nice to know there are other people in the same boat (although obviously I wish you weren't if that makes sense).

[EachPeachPearPlum]

Sorry herbaceous - cross posted, but you have my sympathy - it sounds like you've had a really crap week/month/year

[Ready]

Y'see it's times like this that I feel I ought to bury my head in shame. My life is far from easy, but crumbs - I moan enough plenty as it is, could you imagine if I had to deal with real issues.

[Ready]

Big hugs Herb, I so hope it works out for you, if not this cycle, then really ruddy soon! x

Oh... and is it weird enough that there was a pattern emerging about being first born... I too have a toyboy. Only 6 months, but still.

[rattling]

Yep, age gap here too - do you think infertile women are drawn to virile young men? DH is 4 years younger - though according to the doctors he is the problem , so maybe infertile young men are drawn to virile older women .