Hi Cosmos, glad you had a good anniversary. I am truly getting excited now, it feels so much closer and although in a sense waiting seems to be getting easier as it gets closer AF seems harder to deal with. I am on CD3 and when AF came this time I actually felt really disapointed. Have no idea why, have only had "safe" sex last month and wasn't in the least bit expected to be pg but still somehow I felt a little low.
I am also doing the next year I will should have a baby thing, all the time, its actually getting really sad now.
And... I have even started getting really fed up with the whole pub scene and am finding some of my mates (I mean mates, not close friends) really hard work at the moment as everything seems to revolve around the pub and/or getting pissed, I just find myself so tired of that lifestyle. I feel so much older than them, even though I am in fact 10 or even 15 years younger than some of them. I suppose I just have less in common with them now, they look forward to pay day so they can spend more down the pub, I am starting to resent spending more than a £5 down the pub cos it seems like I am wasting money I could be saving for the LO on a pursuit I am rapidly loosing all interest in! Don't get me wrong I still like my glass of wine or 3 but I think my middle aged mind is starting to rebel against pretending to be young and carefree when actually its the last thing I really want to be anymore. TBH I think that this is the first time I have actually realised all this and probably why I was such a grumpy sod down the pub last night! I am sure I can't be alone in thinking all this but its a conversation you never have in RL so I think you can end up feeling really alone, its not as if I have any friends with kids who I can talk to about it. Waiting ttc when you are desperate to start is actually quite lonely, thank god for MN!
Squacky, I am on FB but don't really want to let my RL details out on MN. I don't have kids yet and people don't know I am planning to start trying soon and I don't want them to find out. Sorry, sure I will be more relaxed when if I am pg.
Anyway, that was a very me me me post and having just come back to this after doing a spot more work I think I am loosing the plot. Still I think I will press send anyhow...