TTC after loss part 5

[Ella31]

Just continuing our old thread. I've added anyone who has asked to stay on here. As always, anyone who is trying after a loss is welcome to join and those who have been lucky since are welcome to encourage those who are still waiting for their rainbow (if you want to stay of course )

Also for the next thread, I'm going to let someone else take over creating the new one if people don't mind. I've a lot on at the moment with tests and I'm back to work in the next few weeks after my bereavement leave with my boys. So if anyone would like to take the mantle, feel free.

Im 2dpo today and have another ultrasound on Wednesday to see if follicle has burst followed by pdg blood test.

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@ThelastRolo20
@Figtree11

I took CoQ10, never figured out what the difference was! @Figtree11 it actually bought my ovulation forward by a couple of days but I know for @Ella31 it pushed it back so I think it's all very individual. I think the folic acid and vit D was probably more helpful anyway!

@Superscientist so sorry - being caught in that situation must have been so hard. Well done for making it through, it's not to be underestimated xx

Ubiquinol is the purer version of Coq10 , it doesnt need to convert. so they tend to recommend that. It definitely delayed my ovulation by 4 days.

The month before I conceived this pregnancy, I came off everything bar natural folic acid and liquid vit d. I used a brand called Viridian, all natural ingredients. My ovulation returned to what it was 2 years before all my losses. So it definitely worked for me to strip back.

@Figtree11 coq10 completely messed up my ovulation as @ThelastRolo20 said.

Thank you both @ThelastRolo20 @Ella31 as ovulation seems to be delayed anyway for me I might leave it out this cycle & just take the folic acid, vitamin d and omega 3 and wait until my appt in November before trying anything else

@Superscientist hope you are ok. I’m on a new team at work who are nearly all mums so there is a lot of chat. I keep busy & do things that I don’t need to be at my desk for

Thanks @ThelastRolo20 and @Ella31

The colleague today I've known for a really long time. We work quite closely and we were at the a previous company together too. I can't be happier for her but definitely feeling sorry for myself at the same time. I had suspected she might have been for a while but she's definitely "showing" now. My line manager must be relieved that he's not losing both us at the same time! I jest. It adds a blanket over the hurt. I'm ok, just letting myself have some time to be sad and think about what might have been. I'm only in the office once a week which helps.

The chat must be hard @Figtree11 you'll be able to join in soon I hope. I do try to be mindful of child talk only around those whos circumstances I know. We are a fairly open group. One colleague had spoken about her difficulties conceiving after having her eldest unplanned whilst at uni, another about his wish for a second but nature had other ideas. I think it does make everyone a bit more aware that it's a privilege not a right to have healthy kids at home.

Thanks @Superscientist I don’t find the children talk too difficult, more that I just have no contribution to the convo so can just end up on the sidelines. None of this new team know about the losses I’ve had. I definitely find the pregnancy/baby chat that happens with others so difficult. Seeing pregnant women I find particularly hard, so I really feel for you today.

CD10 for me today. Interested to see if this cycle will be another 50 day one or if it will start to get shorter. I go on holiday for a week this weekend, so going to enjoy life a bit. Then once I’m back will start on the ovulation testing. I really really want to give it my best shot & desperate for the next cycle to be successful

I really hope it is shorter! Enjoy your holiday x

@Superscientist that's so hard, it's such a tricky mix of emotions when you're genuinely happy for someone and also devastated it's not you. There are so many pregnant people in my life right now 🫠
@Figtree11 if you get the chance to move beyond small talk (and your colleagues are nice people) it can sometimes help to be open; if someone looked at me from face value they'd see 3 healthy kids and assume my life is perfect. Meanwhile I'm stewing over whether to keep or scatter my baby's ashes. When I was pregnant I accidentally (unknowingly) made a slightly insensitive comment to a colleague who'd turned out to have had a TFMR between her second and third living children. I apologised and she told me her story, and it later gave me a lot of hope that one day id be brave enough to try for a rainbow baby and be walking around, functional and everything. All to say, you never know what people have been through and they might at least be sensitive to your feelings too.

Here's hoping the super moon is fertility boosting for us all!

@MrsS11 thank you, you’re right it does help opening up to others. I was quite open with a few of the women on my old team & they were so supportive & it helped to confide in them. I think with the new team if something came up that was kind of relevant then I will mention it. I’m so conscious of not making people feel uncomfortable around me & feel like they have to sensor what they are saying. It’s tricky.
Hope you are doing ok - fingers crossed we’ll all be seeing out the end of this year with some positive news

@Figtree11 if it's any consolation, I genuinely believe sticking to basic vits is good. Plus I'd say while you are waiting for your cycle to regulate, no harm letting it take its course. Only my opinion of course but I've done the full cycle of vits and this is the advice every physician has given me

@Ella31 thank you, yes I feel like I need to try and get back to some kind of normal with this next cycle & then take it from there.
One positive is that I’ve had the request thru from Tommys clinic about arranging blood tests ahead of my first appointment with them to test for all sorts

That's fantastic. I found the tests really reassuring and they can do so much if anything crops up, which I'm sure it won't. Delighted you have got your request

@Ella31 thank you, I know the appointment isn’t for another 2 months but I feel like it will be here before I know it. There are 8 different things they want to test for, and I’m to then email them the results once they appear on the nhs app. So I guess in the appointment they will let me know of any issues with those.
How are you doing?

Bit of an odd one, I’m CD11 today. Last cycle I ovulated around CD40. But I’ve had ewcm a bit yesterday & today. But negative OPK. So not sure what that is about

It could be a prelude to ovulation, I'd take it as a positive. I usually got egcm about 5 days before positive.

I've had all those tests so ask away if you are unsure of anything.

I'm fine. Dying sick with nausea but I've no right to complain. Hopefully it will ease up soon.

@Ella31 thanks for responding so quickly. I really am hoping it’s a good sign, but have this niggling feeling it’s my body playing tricks & will be weeks yet til ovulation! Maybe I will start the ovulation testing sooner than after my holiday.
Ahh thank you, I am sure I will be back on here after my appointment with questions!
I’m glad you’re alright - the sickness is so difficult, forget how bad it is until you’re in the thick of it!

@Ella31 pregnancy sickness is awful. You definitely can complain! TTC is hard after loses but you are absolutely allowed to complain about the pregnancy. It's just a different type of awful.

Do keep an eye on it and see the GP about antiemetics if it gets too bad.

I hope you ovulate soon @Figtree11 and certainly earlier than day 40!

Aw @Figtree11 I hope you get a nice early ovulation in 👌

I woke up feeling hopeful, realising I’d dreamt I was pregnant again and was waiting to find out if it was going to be successful. Made me a bit sad when I realised it had been a dream. And that I’ll never be pregnant again because we have decided to stop 😔 just wanted to share that here because I knew you would all understand.

@Superscientist @CurlyWurly1991 thank you, I think it was wishful thinking as any signs of ovulation have gone.

@CurlyWurly1991 it’s so hard when you dream about something & then come to the realisation of reality. I’m sorry you’ve felt sad 😔

I’ve had a weird day. Woke up feeling pretty fed up, and kind of full of rage if I’m honest! Then felt on the brink of tears all morning by letting myself think too deeply. I go on holiday on Saturday which I’m looking forward to. But i went away the same time last year, and the day after we landed home I found out I was pregnant for the first time. So I just keep thinking I’m a year on, I’ve been through a lot, and still got hurdles to go

Hows everyone? I am back at cd1, well at least I think I am as I am getting light bleeding but not yet full flow. Fingers crossed for a better cycle. I am just hoping I ovulate a little earlier this month as the ovulating after cd21 is getting annoying. Hoping the very expensive vitamins for naître help

I am 3 weeks 3 days post D&C and got my very positive LH today we DTD last night and today. Feel very mixed and emotional because it’s a good sign my body is recovering but not sure how I am going to cope if we don’t catch on this cycle. Praying and manifesting everyday xxx

@Joleyjojo have you had a negative pregnancy test yet just because hcg can show in lh strips.
Amazing otherwise to be ovulating again already. I didn't get a period for 7 weeks after my loss and 10 weeks total for LH peak so just a bit jealous 🤣🤣

Hi I have been LH tracking for the last week all feint 2nd lines. I had a nearly positive last night and one that I would say is even closer today. I would say I had a negative pregnancy test around 6 days ago to a normal person. To a POS addict tilting etc I would say negative 2 days ago stark white. I mean it may not be true ovulation but I am temping too so will see what it says over the next few days. Praying it is and hoping to get a sticky BFP soon too. Sending you lots of positive vibes. Xxx

Hey, just checking in to say I am reading this thread every few days and rooting for you all! It's hard to know how much to input, but thinking of everyone. Delayed ovulation is so frustrating. But when that blazing positive LH line comes up, it's all worth it!

9+1 today. I had a scan at 7+1 and all looked good, but still very nervous. I have a work event next week, and it's going to be basically impossible to hide the pregnancy (it's no2, the bloat is genuinely unreal, I will have to wear sports gear). Been driving myself a bit mad worrying about it but I think I'm just going to have to go with it and trust that no one will be intrusive enough to ask.

Hope the sickness improves @Ella31 .

I hope people at the work function give you your space @ExTriTrying. I would hope most people would although I have had pms bloat mistaken for pregnancy by someone which was a kick in the gut! She just wanted to be in early with the gossip too.

I'm cd18 and feel a bit funny, it's feels like bubbles in my lower stomach area a bit like i sometimes get before my period. I don't know how to read it. It could be my period coming it's only 6 weeks since my miscarriage

9dpo here and I know in how I feel that I'm not pregnant again this month. AF is due on the 25/26th. I'll be on to month 5 since my most recent MMC when that arrives, just want the next week to go quickly now.