2ww and the bit in between. BFP's we're waiting!

[Bucky2008]

Maybe a nice shiny new thread will get us all enthusiastic again. I am on my rubbish diet so I only have nuts and beans to put out on the table. Oh and gin of course ;o) Anyone got any cakes to tempt me with?

Ding ding....let's...go

Do you think I have gone a bit mad

I have been lurking on the mobile - tried to post a few times but it kept going horribly wrong so gave up. Am hoping my boss doesn't do a spot check on my browsing history now though!!!

I have missed you all loads - am looking forward to Sunday

I've been sleeping and eating. Life's tough!

Thanks Scary, that's what I'm hoping. Just the phonecall with the midwife has restored my faith in current doctors' practice. May stay after all..

Picknmix I'm okay. It's strange, because I daren't get excited at all. I'm hoping the midwife is positive today .

I'm out this month - again

AF has arrived. No big surprise except it is two days early, which is unusual for me. Just went to the loo - no cramping, but there's no mistake it's AF.

I am feeling pretty low and, unkindly and unfairly, sittin ghere welling up and blaming my absent DH for having useless sperm and never being here.

Please would someone talk me into cheering up and being a nicer person please.

Oh GG I'm so very sorry . Would have given anything to have you have a BFP this month.

At least your DH is sounding involved and enthusiastic about the appointment next week. Something to focus on to make things happen.

Wish I could do or say something to make it all okay . Hugs to you. Hope it's not grizzly drizzly raining down there like it is here as well.

Abbey let us know how the midwife appt goes -hope it's all okay.

GG I am sorry to hear about AF. This will all come good in the end though. Mr GG will decide that living out of a suitcase is not for him and will take a month's unpaid leave which will coincide with his man-vits taking effect and producing super sperm. At the same time, you will just happen to be ovulating and voila! You'll get pregnant with twin-mini griffins (one boy and one girl).

And if it doesn't happen as easily as that, you will still find a way.

In the meantime, (((hugs))).

You poor thing GG, CD1 is the absolute worst day of the lot, it just makes you feel like such a failure. Make sure you spoil yourself with something very lovely tonight (wine and cheese?!) and don't feel at all bad for having mean thoughts. You're only human and this a really scary process to go through. I'm angry having just seen one of the threads where a woman posted on Weds to get an intro to TTC and has now just posted to see she's actually cheggers!!!! . It doesn't mean we're awful people, just that this process is very draining. And luckily we've got these forums to keep us sane(ish).

I hope the weekend picks up for you, when's DH home?

Hello to all the usual scary, ei, hatty, bucky and jb, glad to hear midwife is looking after you abbey.

Nice to have you back picknmix, for info the reverse cowgirl is you on top but facing his feet .

Yes GG you can't give up - Toulouse, Tropez and Monaco need their mum to keep on trying so that they can come into the world and fulfill their destinies as prime minister/nobel prize winner and famous concert pianist

hatty - it's a nice day here at least. DH does seem positive for the appointment.

i am sorry I am such a misery. I am fed up with useless worrying, fed up with people asking me in a "nudge nudge wink wink" way when I am going to have children, fed up scheduling sex around my "fertile time" when DH is infertile in a useless bl**dy charade that I might get pregnant when the sperm test results were, frankly, terrible. And I am so angry at DH - I'm really not proud of feeling like that but I do . I blame him.

and I know how irrational that last post looked and how unfair it is to my lovely DH.

Oh GG wish I could say something to make you feel better. I don?t think it?s 'wrong' to feel the way you do about DH right now, I just think it would be wrong to actually say it to him (which I know you wouldn't!). I'm sure he is a lovely DH but it?s natural to feel out of sorts and at someone on CD1 and sadly he is the one to bare the brunt of your upset as its something that you can?t control. I can only imagine how that must make you feel, all the planning in the world can only do so much.

I really hope that Mr GG starts feeling the benefits of his man-vits soon ? I know its little consolation to you but its great that he is beginning to see ttc in a positive light.

Big hugs to you x

Oh GG I don't know what to say. Nothing I say is going to make this better for you.
I am not surprised you are angry and fed up because it is totally unfair.

Just be gentle on yourself and your DH. I know it is tempting to lay blame (I blame my DH when he is away and I don't conceive; I blame myself for this ectopic) but you know it doesn't really help.

One way or another the two of you will have a baby. You just might need some help is all.

GG Just think, now you can hang out with me on this thread for THREE BLEEDIN years . How lucky are you!!!. No just kidding of course.

Don't feel bad for feeling like a biatch. I am evil to my DP, um....most of the time, and he still loves me . Of course you are going to feel fed up, if you weren't after, what is it now,...17 months I would be worried! Just think you and I can get wangered on Sunday whilst DG drinks water ....(I am joking, if the ttc fairy is watching, please don't punish me...).

Get down to M&S sharpish for that sparling pinot grigio rose that tastes like pink champagne, buy yourself loads of clothes and nice things that you won't be able to afford when mini-gg turns up and then make DH take you to Paris on Saturday morning so you can wear all your new glam clothes. Only a couple hours on the Eurostar and you could be back on Sunday bright and shiny ready for your appointment on Monday! You won't be able to when the dcs turn up girlie. AND THEY WILL TURN UP. .

Um, I think I typed the longest sentence in the world in my last post. Can somebody contact the Guiness Book of Records please?

sorry gg for mean witch

ermmmmm I'm really sorry everyone for my spoiled little child outburst then. I don't know what came over me .

i am back to normal and nice gryffin now, I promise . I do love DH a LOT and he is lovely and that was mean of me to think those things and I truly don't mean them or think that of him. It's only frustration and the angry red mist descending when AF turns up yet again (actually that sentence sounds terrible when talking about periods - I hope you know what I mean!!!)

Bucky - I will be here for a very long time symptom spotting. Part of me wishes very much that you weren;t here too and the other selfish part of me loves having everyone here with me.

hatty - you are always so kind and funny and see the upside of things. i shall of course be thinking of the triplets Monaco, Tropez and Toulouse.

scary and picknmix - I am really embarrassed to have been such an attention seeker. Thanks for your very sane and sensible words of wisdom.

hello to everyone else. I am off to do what oufton suggest and buy myself some smelly (unpasturised, of course) cheeses which are actually a favourite of mine, with lots of lovely crusty bread and a bottle fizz. I really like Bucky's suggestion of M&S pink cava [yummy emoticon]. At least I can celebrate seeing DH again tonight - i have missed him loads
oh, and I promise not to be a misery on Sunday.

hello to jolly and abby for when they read this and laugh and my tantruns.

MOB - see you Sunday!
You are all officially and undisputably brilliant friends

GGx

dont worry the witch works in mysteriuos ways
heres hoping for my higher temp in the morning

GG oh, poo, poo, poo. Horrible AF. Do NOT apologise for your outburst - that is what we are all here for. Your feelings are natural in the circumstances - let them out. One way or another those triplets (!) will arrive. You may need a little help to get there, but it will be worth it in the end. However, i am pleased to hear you sounding perkier in your last post. You can have a few drinks on sunday then. I will be at that awful mid-2ww point - do i abstain, just in case, or go for it as not doubt i won't be pg anyway? We could probably all do with a few drinks!! DG will have to be the responsible one, and put us all in drunken heaps on the right train, tubes, etc

Bucky glad you have an appt with a different dr, and i so hope your DP is right with his premonitions Oh, and i hope you will have freshly washed hair on sunday

Abby i'm pleased you have a referral - although i can see that you must be worrying that it was done so promptly, at least you will be looked after properly now.

scary glad you can make the meet up!! i can't wait to meet everyone, although i am scared at the same time!

PnM Hmm, i see we are going to have to draw diagrams on Sunday to enlighten you on reverse cowgirl or i could bring along barbie and action man and let them explain!! Hey, while we're at it, we could devise a whole new load of positions for oufton as she'll be running out of ideas

Hello to everyone else i haven't mentioned personally - hope you all have good weekends.

MOB hurray for those lovely red lines and some very well timed BD'ing . I'd trust the rise most as opks can detect the LH surge on the way down too.
Bucky how sweet that your DP is so excited and positive - hope he is right ! Am so glad you have joined the temping-lovers club ! LOL at the ttc-fairy !
GG glad you are feeling better, go get the vino in and some yummy soft cheese
Ladies, have a lovely meet

Wish you could come too Mibbes. We will miss you but have a drink for you.

No apologies needed GG. I can throw a pretty big strop when CD1 rolls around, you know! I must say "red mist" made me snort my pink cava out of my nose! Have just spent 5 minutes wiping down the laptop...

Don't be scared MOB. I am nicer than my name!

I just wish the rest of you could come too.

GG how you feeling today? It was only a little strop, I've thrown far worse in my time! You feel p**d off all you want - and come around in your own time.

Hope you all have a lovely time tomorrow, wish I could be there too!

I can't go tomorrow Just found out DH has to work. Am gutted Have a drink for me.

hi ladies i had a great day with friends
high temp again today how high do i have to go for ff to confirm ovulation

Nooooo MOB, but never mind. You'll be with us in spirit, I am sure.

Tinkerbell mine normally goes up by at least 0.2 degrees, but you should bear in mind that it is not uncommon for temps to go up over a couple of days (a slow rise) rather than a sudden leap. After a few days you will see a pattern - that temps after ov are generally higher than ones before.

Good-ish news for me. Finally got a negative HPT today which (in the circs) makes me a bit relieved. This means I am back on the booze and sex (although can't yet ttc and should really wait for the hospital to confirm all is well before tucking into the booze but have not.. hic).

Hope you're all well and having a good Sat night.