Hey ladies, sorry I’ve not been active on here. I’ve needed some time away. This might be triggering for some but I did get pregnant and it was healthy but I ended up having a termination. Because of the troubles of trying to get pregnant for a few years, my partner and I only really focused on ‘getting pregnant’ but hadn’t really thought about what comes after in a realistic way.
I got pregnant back in October. It was totally accident before we were about to start fertility treatment (as it always happens). I got dye stealers which was nice, saw it on the scan as it progressed. But my pregnancy was awful. Really, really awful. I got every symptom you can imagine, and I even had weird things like I kept having UTI symptoms without any infection. My pee always burned, I was constantly hot and cold, very dizzy, very sick. On top of that I realised I got perinatal depression. I’ve never felt depressed like that before, it was really horrible. I didn’t feel like myself.
I know pregnancy is hard and I really give credit to those that go through it (and those who don’t have many symptoms are so lucky), but it was affecting every aspect of my life. That’s when my partner and I really faced what it meant to start a family. This would only be a small sacrifice considering the amount of sacrifice that was to come after. Realised I wasn’t ready, and with my partner’s support got a termination.
I felt better mentally pretty much immediately and have been getting back to myself since. I’m not sure when we will try again or if I’ll ever feel able to through it, but I’m grateful for our health system and laws that gives women a choice in the end of the day.
@ToeBeans24 your due date will be coming up soon and I’m super excited for you! And all the other ladies trying. :)