The Hut of Gl/Doom Part VI - And Yes, We've Tried Fecking Relaxing!

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new home. I liked the decor in the old one, nless someone wants to redecorate!

Hello.

I have been posting my doom and gloom everywhere else but here

A good friend of mine told me to relax today

5 days late with period and BFN about 5 times! Grrrrrrrrrrr

cd1 too - oh f*ck it.

Ladies, my heart goes out to you. I half killed myself making dd's 4th birthday party perfect: despite working four days a week, I themed the whole party and did everything myself, including baking and decorating her cake, hand made decorations for the hall, blah, blah, blah. I'm sure the other parents thought I was just a typical working mum over-compensating and my dh thought I was losing my marbles.

The truth is that I'm afraid she is my one shot at being a parent, so everything must be perfect for her.

Tired and sad today. Annual leave tomorrow, thank god.

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oh definitely DD gets more here due to FTC as a compensation

Oh ladies, yes, I only have to look at a playroom stocked like Hamley's and dd's bulging wardrobe to spot my over-compensating.

hello beanie by the way. We're all very relaxed in here, can you tell?

I know it's a bit early, but I am on my holidays.

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i know shreksmissus. its shit. everyone else is pregnant or new mums and barely a month goes by that doesnt have some significance. next time im not testing. not at all.

shreks this is the place for shouting. Might join you - I have a colleague who constantly regales one and all with her pregnancy symptoms. I am happy for her - she's been ttc for a VERY long time, had a mc last year and this one was through IVF.

But it still doesn't make it easier to bear.

Let's be miserable cows together.

My tits hurt half the month these days - something else I can't rely on (as a pregnancy symptom anyway).

made yet another tit of myself yesterday - crying on my mum when she asked 'will you be ok if I show you the quilt I made for SIL's baby'.

It's not that I resent SIL for getting pregnant, or my mum for making her things... it's the treading on egg shells that everyone seems to be doing. I have only been trying for 6 months For Feck's sake, and yes I know I am old and probably Barren, but if you don't panic, then I won't panic!

Is this the kind of thing

CD3/4 and it's heavy again!

Oh yes beanie - that's exactly the sort of thing.

Here's to our shrivelled old ovaries!

Oh man, i so hate people walking on egg shells too. It would be so much better if they were just up front about it. Then, though, you do get the other ones who are totally insensitive. Dont know if i said on this thread but i was trying to tell my sister that one of my tubes was blocked after my L&D and she asked me if it was dead, what the hell sort of question was that???I didnt know much at the time due to only having a junior doc tell me brief information. I had to wait 7 weeks before my appointment and all the while worrying that my tubes were dead!!! Rahhhhh to stupid things that people say, or dont say coz they are walking on egg shells!!!!!!!Ohhhhhh i feel mad now thinking about that, pass me the damn vodka!!!!!

There you go, viksam.

Aren't many eggshell-walkers round my way, but at least everyone's stopped asking me if I'm planning another. I think the winces on being asked helped....

Viksam, downbutnotout & anniemac- hello to anyone else I've left off - big hugs to everyone. I am trying to wean off mn but still lurking at times

I have been ttc for 2.5 years now!! I had MC July 2006 and nothing since.

Felt so sad when reading all your posts. People can be so insensitive at times. I have found the only people who understand are those that have gone through similar things. I have three out of four of my BF's either pregnant or just given birth at the moment. Some of them didn't even know their partners when I was ttc!! Which seems so unfair

Downbutnotout if you get really sore boobs try taking vit B6, I've just discovered it, I have a short Luteal phase and have been taking it to try and even things up. Since my MC I kept getting sore (.)(.) and it was so cruel as my hopes of BFP were dashed every month! Since taking B6 this has reduced slightly and for the last two months I have have 28 day cycles. So it is worth a try.

I have some time off work at the moment so am trying to get my life in order and have been trying to forget about ttc, but it is so hard! I have a review with my consultant in two weeks to decide on next course of action.

I guess this whole experience has left more sympathetic to other peoples problems and I definately don't try and plan my life as much, bu tI 'm so fed up with it all. Sometimes wonder if I should have done things in different order in my life, but realise that thought like that are just wasting energy. Have a pretty good life apart from the FTC, so am concentrating on enjoying it.

Big hugs to everyone and I am officially sprinkling baby dust all over the thread!!!

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Hi All

Anniemac - Phew ! for your DH coming up with the ...er... goods. DH was similar - took ages and then one day decided he was going to do it. I guess they need to think it was their idea all along

Poppy - I hadn 't realise we were so similar - my m/c was July 2006 and nothing since (I too had sore boobs following m/c which I haven 't had before although this seems to finally be settling down). I'm guessing the 75 refers to your age too - if so, we're the same age ! Good luck with the consultant - what have they done/tried so far ?

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Hi Wheelybug yep is my age! We have had sperm test, ultrasound, and FSH etc... levels checked. All have come back ok, apparently no problems. I have also had a HSG which was fine. So I am not too sure what is next maybe clomid???

This is the first month after HSG that we haven't used anything, so secretly I am hoping that something might have been flushed through and who knows. However the other half of me is reminding itself of how many times I have been hoping and then had my hopes dashed .

I sometimes feel my friends really are leaving me behind, and there is nothing I can do about it . Each time I get a new text from someone I haven't seen for awhile it is news of a new pregnancy or birth. They usually come on days when I am really positive and it just knocks me for 6! I feel really empty each time one of my friends goes on about how amazing being a mum is, they try not to go on that much because of what I am going through but they are so overwhelmed.

Shrekmissus glad to hear you had good day you are right our moods seem to be dictated by the four week cycle now! I am also mid so it is a who knows sort of feeling this week!

AAARRRGGGHHHHH

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Oh popping in to vent. Have been avoiding as due date from m/c was just recently and couldn't deal. But today is 14dpo, still bfn, and boobs are hurting like they are going to literally come off! So apparently I'm not pregnant, only my boobs are! ARGHHH! Just waiting for AF to show, as the last 3 days have been whiter than white bfns.

Can't go to RE, as we have a child already (and no, I'm not trying to be ungrateful - I AM thankful for DS). So we would have to go private - even just for Clomid or anything. So that's it. We are in the process of making the changeover for me to be a SAHM, starting at the end of April, so then we can't afford any ttc privately. So it's natural or nothing, I guess.

Please tell me SOMEONE is having a better day than me. Anyone at all....