First cycle ttc again after loss - feeling anxious.

[Pinkmoon23]

Hi everybody, (tw: talk of miscarriage)
I'm just wondering of any success stories or anyone feeling/having felt similarly to me right now so maybe we can support each other? Could use some words of wisdom as I don't have anyone in my life at the moment who's been through the same thing. (and sorry if you have because I know it's awful ❤️)

I'm currently 8dpo on our first cycle of trying again after going through an early miscarriage back in June. We took a break as it was obviously extremely upsetting. I felt very ready to start trying again but now as test day comes closer my anxiety is starting to kick in. The month I was pregnant I never got the chance to be excited as there was so much doubt and anxiety surrounding everything. It didn't feel right in my body, I had low Hcg, my tests took a long time to darken.

So this time I promised to myself I wouldn't test early to try and at least avoid obsessing over the test progression it I am pregnant. And then if I am I have no idea how I'm going to deal with the day to day worry about the same thing happening again. I have an overthinking mind anyway and anxiety, so it's a bad combo!

So yeah that's my story and just looking for some folk to join me in the 2ww and hopefully support each other 😊

Many thanks x

Hi @Pinkmoon23 im so sorry for your loss xx
I had a miscarriage in June too, it's totally shit isn't it. I didn't take a break from TTC but think maybe I should have, as I've struggled with the test day each month, been symptom spotting like mad!
Well done for staying away from the early tests. I always do them and just feel really disappointed, I'm going to try not to test at all next month unless Im actually late!
I'm also a chronic over thinker and the miscarriage definitely made this even more pronounced. All I can say is you're not alone, and always welcome to vent and stress here to someone who knows what you're going through.
June was actually my second miscarriage, and I think the thing that helped me get pregnant again was just relaxing, I stopped tracking, stopped OPKs, did yoga and meditated a few days a week. I haven't really got back into that yet so I'm going to try this for next month.
Sending hugs xx

Hello
I wanted to reply to your message as I’m in a similar situation. You are not alone in this. For me, I feel that miscarriage steals your joy and makes you feel that you can never associate a positive pregnancy test with a baby. I’m really sorry you went through that.
I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks in August, the pregnancy was unplanned but we came to terms with it and the miscarriage blindsided us.
We are now having another go but trying to be chilled about it. On day 17 of my cycle so a little behind you, but happy to join the tww, ttc after loss feels very lonely. Im also an anxious overthinker!

@Pinkmoon23 So sorry for your loss 😔 and @GreenMug30 @RubyCat06 so lrry to hear of your losses too.

I had a MMC in April so a bit further on and a CP last cycle. It's been a really tough few months. I'm now in due date month for the April one and that has been quite emotional.

There is a similar thread here with a few of us on that you might like to join so you feel less alone. ❤️ There's another one too, 'trying to conceive a rainbow baby' although it's been a bit less active lately.

https://www.mumsnet.com/talk/conception/4899935-cd1-of-ttc-first-cycle-after-loss-anyone-want-to-join-me

This is also a lovely and very active thread if you want company with people who 'get it'. Lots of us on there are TTC again, whilst also navigating our losses etc. 💕

https://www.mumsnet.com/talk/miscarriage/4732386-support-thread-for-those-experiencing-or-recently-experienced-a-mcmmc-thread-7-all-welcome