Ive been sat here staring at an 8dpo test for an hour while my 2 year old son has been playing with his toys. I could have spent the last hour reading, playing with, appreciating him. It took us 19 months to conceive the first time around and were trying for number 2 and on cycle 11 and im just spiralling with it again. It really is all consuming to me and I try and relax and promise myself I'm not going to test but I just can't get it off my mind.