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You asked for it......😘

@mummatara yay for TWW !!

My DH on the mend so got him last night..

@TheBirdintheCave how are you today?

@MrsCristianoX whoop you finally managed to pin him down 💪🏼

@MrsCristianoX don't know why but being in the tww feels so weird 🙊

@mummatara Still crying on and off. It's so much harder this time as there was a heartbeat so it really feels like we've lost something. The baby barely developed last time at all so it was more of a relief when it was all over.

I don't like carrying the dead baby around but I'm trying to remind myself that I'm still its mother and I'm just keeping it safe with me for now before it can go off to be tested. Sort of makes me feel a bit better about it.

I'm so annoyed at myself for not starting to try when my son was eight months old rather than twelve and not going straight for IVF. I feel like I've wasted so much time trying naturally and the age gap between my son and any potential sibling is just widening day by day.

I just want it to be Tuesday now so I can book the surgery, the IVF clinic appointment and the GP appointment.

I feel like I have to be pregnant again before my niece/nephew arrives in the summer or I'm just going to lose my mind.

@mummatara Probably because it took you so long to get here! I'm so glad it finally happened though. The limbo part between miscarriage and everything working again is just the worst.

Hi all,
NYE can be hard for many as people tend to reflect on everything that happened throughout the year. For 2023, I want to wish you all BFPs leading to rainbow babies, hope, resilience, positivity and inner strength ❤
It's a hard journey and while it's very painful, I hope someday we'll all be able to look back and see how much we've grown from it (I'm against toxic positivity though so won't be saying 'look at the positives' because there's nothing positive, it really is just shit). Be gentle on yourselves. I'm taking a month off internet/Instagram which will be good. Planning to spend January reading rather than on my phone! And organising the house to make it easier to keep tidy.
My goal for 2023 is to relax a little as everything (e.g. abdominal pain all day today which is probably my intestines but got no clue) is stressful. And maybe to learn trust life again.

What are your wishes and goals (other than rainbow babies obviously 😊🌈) for 2023?

@usedtolovenaps I don't have any goals other than actually having our second baby so that we never have to go through this again and can put the entire TTC thing behind us.

It's literally my only focus in life.

@usedtolovenaps Sorry that sounded quite dramatic 😅

@TheBirdintheCave no, not dramatic at all, totally get how you feel.
In response to your previous comment, don't beat yourself about 4 months. If you had put things off for 4 years without any solid reason, that would be a big chunk of time but 4 months is not worth beating yourself up for. There was no way you could've know and no guarantees 4 months would've had any impact. I used to always want to have 4-5 years gap between kids but given how things have been for us trying for #1, I'd now try for #2 when the first one is two (or maybe under). I know people that have kids with 4-5 (or much bigger!) age gaps and relationships between siblings are beautiful.
I read it in some book (can't remember what book!) that when we set certain goals for TTC, e.g. having certain age gap or conceiving by certain date, it adds a lot of pressure and makes it more difficult to conceive. I also had a plan to conceive by certain date but decided to scrap it after reading it. I totally get you wanting to conceive before your niece/nephew is born as it can be very hard being around a little baby.

@mummatara great news that you're in the TWW! It must feel like a great relief to be there!

@usedtolovenaps lovely message! I wish I could take a leaf out of your book and not go on my phone. Maybe one day but I feel I need the support from these forums, they really keep me going. Keep us updated with how your pregnancy progresses 💕

@TheBirdintheCave I think it's totally naturally to feel that way. In hindsight, I also wish I'd pressed the button sooner but hoped a miracle would happen before I needed to do that. Had the bleeding progressed? You might find between now and the 3rd you may begin to miscarry naturally anyway. We are all here for you 💕

@bunnykins123 I had a couple of cramps at lunch time but no more bleeding.

@bunnykins123 oh believe me I'll be back in a month to read how everyone's getting on, etc, I just like to do internet detox every once in a while (evey few months) as it can be good for mental health ☺️ especially with bloody Instagram always showing their suggestive posts to me!
@calimc83 early happy birthday for Monday!

@usedtolovenaps when does detox start?! You are a better woman than me. I'm in after work headed straight for online shopping and mumsnet 😅

@MrsCristianoX 😂😂hopefully tomorrow! If not tomorrow, then Wednesday! I have an addiction for Mumsnet, no denying! (Online) shopping - not so much 😃

@usedtolovenaps my only resolution is to drink 2l of water a day..achievable? I hope so! 🤣

This is a good one. I definitely don't drink enough water.

I couldn't live without you ladies on mumsnet 😂 I'm going to try and find some time to get back to riding my horse. Easier said than done with the hours DH works but even if it's once a week. unless I get a BFP then I'm not risking getting on the wild beast 😅

@bunnykins123 it's a def relief if it actually happens 🤞🏼 I feel in denial for some reason like it's too good to be true and I won't get a temp rise

@TheBirdintheCave ahhh lovely try and be kind to yourself it's so hard when you think I wish I had done this or that and what ifs. Think of your next steps which you are obviously already planning ❤️ there's 11 and 13 years between me and my siblings and we still have a close bond so try not to worry too much on the timeframe big hugs and love xxx you're right limbo is the worst 😩

@MrsCristianoX my water intake is shocking 😳🤦🏼‍♀️

@usedtolovenaps thank you lovely! Can't believe I'll be 40 😩...so depressing! @mummatara ohh didnt realise u have a horse. I had one when I was a teenager and would love another 😍 x

@calimc83 we actually have 12 😂 my mum and my sister both ride. I technically own 5 of those but only the 1 is rideable the rest are expensive pets 🤦🏼‍♀️

@TheBirdintheCave @mummatara my consultant said and I can actually quote 'those girls you see walking round with water bottles? Aim to be like them' tbh he has a point but sexist..v possibly🙄

@mummatara I barely have room for my 2 cats 😂

@calimc83 yes happy birthday!!! 40 isn't all that bad present company excepted

@mummatara oh wow 12!! 😳..now I'm super envious! I have visions of my 2 owning a Shetland..but horses are soooo expensive! Argh..need a lottery win! 😆 @MrsCristianoX aww ha ha thanks. I think it's more the thought of it that scares me...😆 xx

@MrsCristianoX haha ok I'll aim to be one of them too 😂 we are a sucker for a pony in need hence we have so many 😳🙈 it's a bit weird not to ride I've done it my whole life but if there's no one to watch DS then not a lot I can do won't hurt me to not do it for a while whilst I get to be mummy ❤️

@calimc83 😂 honestly I'm hoping DS doesn't want to take it up I love it but it's so expensive and when I was a kid I was into it then into something else then back into it wasn't until I was about 15 I really got into it seriously. Also does it sound awful to say I would like to get back to riding properly again and it feels like it should be a bit of me time 🙈 if he wants to do it I won't stop him and he does love sitting on and walking around now but I know how much time they take up and I selfishly want that to be my time god that sounds awful 🤦🏼‍♀️

Twelve horses! Crikey that is a lot of horses 😂

@TheBirdintheCave I can't even explain how it happened 🤷🏼‍♀️ one day we woke up counted and there was 12 😂 they are all living their best lives though they do nothing but eat, crap, sleep and cuddle