TTC after miscarriage thread 10

[mummatara]

@AwayWeGo22 @bunnykins123 @calimc83 @FfayeN @Chellooo @Indianna2006 @LuckyMoonstone @Luna57 @Margo34 @MIW01 @MrsCristiano @Pancake92 @pangolin84 @TheBirdintheCave @theblueflowers

Sorry if I forgot anyone ❤️ also hope I've done this right 😂

@MrsCristianoX oh lovely I don't think it's any different doesn't matter if 2 days or 8 weeks when you see the line it's hope ☹️ ❤️ we can rage all we like 💪🏼

DH and I did have a little chat earlier we decided to buy some blood tests I've ordered two from medichecks to see if hcg is increasing or decreasing. Obviously I have been doing Google reading because it's so hard not to 🙈 I have a retroverted uterus which sometimes can make it very hard to scan and that's the hope I'm clinging to atm 🤞🏼 I certainly won't be doing anything rash until it's 100% certain it's not viable

@mummatara 💕

I love how supportive this thread is, just read a chunk to catch up. What a bunch of awesome women you all are to everyone at the different stages in TTC, DTD, TWW, with vfls, with BFNs, with BFPs and with all the worries that stem from experiencing previous losses. 💐

@MrsCristianoX gutted for you that AF arrived, I'd definitely log it with your GP as a loss, as someone else said my GP also notes them down and counts them on my record.

@mummatara virtual hugs and hand hold

@Margo34 we've missed your wise words lovely ☺️. Xx

@mummatara i hope you enjoyed Thor, it’s definitely one for the mums 😉😂

@LuckyMoonstone I did can't beat a bit of yummy hemsworth 🤭 my ice cream was disappointing though thought I'd try a new flavour but now wishing I'd stuck to good ol cookie dough 🤦🏼‍♀️

So AF arrived in full force for me again yesterday. Hit me hard again emotionally. As it's coming up to the 12 month mark since we started TTC. I feel like I'm putting on a brave face to the world but finding this journey so hard. I started spotting this time from 7DPO, which was really frustrating. I've started taking vitamin B6 this cycle to see if that'll help balance out my hormones. Does anyone else take it?

@MrsCristianoX sorry to hear AF arrived also after a possible CP 💞

@emhope sorry to hear AF arrived for you too. That's good your cycles have been regular. Mine have been different every month, I think my hormones are all out of balance

@FfayeN fingers crossed for when you decide to test 🤞🏼

@mummatara hope you're okay 💞 sending you lots of love and hope you get some conclusive answers soon xx

@Indianna2006 Yes your body can do it! I've held onto that thought as well..both my MMC were discovered at scans so I find them incredibly traumatic. I'm ( fingers crossed) 13 weeks. Had my dating scan last week and anxiously waiting for my bloods. I also want to book in a nipt test but there are so many options I don't know what to go for..xx

I didn’t realise I’d ovulated😬 My periods are irregular and I rarely drink. I track my ovulation via bbt charting. I had 2 glasses of wine when I was 1dpo. Would this affect implantation?

@calimc83 Congrats on getting through the twelve week scan, that must have been a nervy experience! :D

@rubysparkles1 No it won't affect anything :) A few days before I found out I was pregnant with my son I went out drinking with my friend and had about five gins. Son is now 21 months :)

@TheBirdintheCave thank you. One milestone out the way..how are u getting on? X

Couldn't sleep through nerves of testing this morning so got up at 5.30 but got a bfn on a four hour hold. I'm distraught and so tired 😭 I had so convinced myself that line from Friday was real. I'd even planned on how I was going to tell my husband.

I don't know what's going on with my body this month. My boobs hurt a few days ago and now they don't. No sign of spotting. Random twinges. CD31 today. Ovia thinks my period will start on Wednesday but who knows.

It's just waiting until the minute we get on the plane isn't it? 🤬🤦🏻‍♀️ Just in time to ruin my holiday.

My toddler was so loving this morning, wanting to hold my hand 😭 He didn’t understand why I was crying. I feel so guilty that I don’t feel like he’s ‘enough’ and that I know someone people can’t even have one child. I know I’m being ungrateful to want another but I want him to have a sibling.

I’m 36 in two weeks time. The next cycle will be cycle six post miscarriage and nine in total. I don’t want my son to be post three when his sibling is born so I have until March next year for it to work. At most I have six tries left.

We lost the money we would have had to pay for IVF as we had to spend it on a new car when ours died in March.

I wish so many things... I wish I hadn’t fallen in love with a man with rubbish fertility or I wish I’d met him at a younger age so that we had more time to try.

Why do we have to be the ones with shit fertility? I’m terrified my brother and his wife are going to try again after their MMC and get it again on their first try. I don’t know what it must feel like to know that you only have to wait max six months before you’re definitely pregnant.

I think next month I might have to try temping as, since my random virus in July, my cycles seem to have been screwed up.

Come on AF I just want this over with 😭

Sorry for the epic rant. I’m just so done with TTC.

@TheBirdintheCave I'm so sorry you are feeling sad and pissed off. I was on the flight on Friday so must have overlooked your photo. I've looked now and yes it's a line alright. Maybe it's a chemical maybe an hour hold wasn't a good idea (I've done this too so zero judgment) honestly I'd do a 4 hour hold later this afternoon. Don't lose hope yet

As for timing I'm really conscious now I'll be 41 if I manage to get pregnant and have a baby. I think I'll have to do some soul searching this month. I look at your age and think you're so young you could do it twice xx big hugs from NI

@TheBirdintheCave big big hugs from me too, I can’t really say anything to make it better as I often feel the same way as you, frustrated and sad. So I wish someone could make it better for both of us! All of us in fact.

Sorry I feel a bit bad changing the tone, but I really feel like I can see something this morning! Still very faint but I can definitely see it more than yesterday in real life. But I did a clear blue early yesterday afternoon and it was totally negative. Although at 8dpo on an afternoon hold that’s to be expected.
I really don’t want to do another clear blue and waste it on a squinter 😂 I want to save it for a good line!

@TheBirdintheCave big hugs lovely ❤️❤️ the journey really sucks sometimes

@LuckyMoonstone oooh 🤞🏼 I see lines on both

@LuckyMoonstone OMG!! I see all three and the third is visibly pink🤞🤞

@mummatara @MrsCristianoX uuurrrgh I can’t deal with it I’m too scared

@LuckyMoonstone time to pull out the big guns (FRER) 😭😭

@LuckyMoonstone god it so hard isn't it maybe try not to test tomorrow and do one day after? Easier said than done I know 😭 esp when the IC are so many and let's face it no one cares about wasting the things what dpo are you today?

@MrsCristianoX now that FMU is gone I’ll have to wait until tomorrow morning, I don’t think I’ll get anything without FMU when it’s still so early

@LuckyMoonstone or do what @MrsCristianoX said 😂

@mummatara yeah I’ve got loads of them haha, only 9dpo today so it’s really early still. And I’m still not 100% convinced about the other lines, I don’t want to get my hopes up and then it turns out it was just in my head. I’ve felt a bit sick on and off the last couple of days, and had some sharp little stingy cramps. My boobs don’t hurt but my nipples do feel funny 😆

@TheBirdintheCave oh hun, I'm so sorry. It's so totally shit. I understand exactly how you feel, it's been a year now for me with 3 miscarriages and I really do wonder if I'll give DD a sibling. I crave for it so much but beginning to wonder if that'll happen. Just know that you're not alone 💕

@LuckyMoonstone ooo I defo see something! Get yourself down a shop and get a FRER. Really hoping this is something 🤞

@LuckyMoonstone @mummatara did NOT mean to do the crying emoji there😂