Is anyone else obsessed?

[Mrsbrooks1]

I’ve recently turned in to a forum stalking, research mongering, pregnancy and birth planning lunatic. I’m currently 0 weeks pregnant but I’m already looking in to hypnobirthing and pricing up prams!

we’ve been TTC for 3 months and I’ve always been fascinated by pregnancy and birth ( dream job is to be a midwife) but with a healthy fear of it too because , obviously, it’s huge. But it’s consuming my every waking minute! If I’m not considering my options regarding pain relief I’m worrying about infertility 😳

please tell me I’m not the only head case 🤦🏻‍♀️

and good luck to everyone obviously 😁🤣 xx

P.S - head case comment is tongue cheek, I don’t want to upset anyone because I know how hard it is and some people have been trying for a long time xx

I feel like ttc is itself a lifetime's work 😭 after 2+ years of trying (with odd breaks) a mc, fertility tests, scans etc I've almost forgotten what it's all for if that makes any sense? Like getting and staying pregnant is the ultimate goal, totally forgetting the whole point is to have a baby and bring up a child who will eventually be an adult... it all seems unreal as I can't get past the first bit! Urgh! (Currently 15DPO, one day late for AF, stacks of BFNs and little sanity remaining!)

Oh god!! You’re spot on there. It’s like I’m just consumed with checking for twitches in my ovaries and looking what’s in my knickers every single day (eww) for some sort of sign and then even after I get a bfn, I still convince myself AF symptoms are pregnancy symptoms 🤣.

I really just want to relax and be all “if it happens, it happens” but instead I’m sitting on forums every night reading threads from 1997 about cervical mucus 🤦🏻‍♀️

I need a hobby 🙄

@Mrsbrooks1 cervical mucus threads from 1997 😂 so true though! Every day DPO I'm Googling to see what every other woman in the world experienced at that point over the last 15 years 🤣 I'm doing it now 😅

I would just say though, the one time I got BFP was when we were on a ttc break! It ended in mc but there's truth to what they say about it happening when you're not expecting it. But that's probably because you're mentally relaxed and not exhausting yourself with a month's worth of anguish every damn day 🤦‍♀️😅

Same here I'm on my second month of TTC and I am obsessed!!!! I've started writing down every symptom even though I am only 3DPO. I spend every minute on forums and watching YouTube videos! You're not alone haha

Mentally relaxed? Never heard of it 🤣🤣

Why are we like this 🤣 I’m looking everyday for diagrams of where the sperms potentially are in my tubes!! and what symptoms Barbara69 had in her last 6 cycles. WTF 😳. This woman’s uterus has nothing to do with mine but yet here I am, absolutely invested in comparing mine to hers.

I am laughing as I right this by the way. But it is an addiction and I think I need to chill the fuck out because It’s actually stressing me out lol.

ahh I feel better now I’ve got thst off my chest!

fyi - there’s about 8 series of one born every minute on 4od if you want some light watching 🤣🤣 (I’ve seen them all twice 🙄) good luck with your observation for the next 11 days. I’m on cd 2 and I’m still convinced Barbara69 bfp implantation bleeding story is potential the same as my actual period

@reddyeddy im so sorry about your loss. I can’t imagine how that made you feel and hope it’s something I never have to go through xxx

@Mrsbrooks1 Hahaha honestly same. I've been reading all of the BFP symptoms day by day. When I got my period last month I was so sure it was implantation bleeding and told my boyfriend I thought I was pregnant... two hours later I had to break it to him that I just got excited and it's definitely a period 🤣
Trying not to say much to him now so I don't give him false hope but I can't stop thinking or talking about it.

I have watched multiple videos on implantation and how it works 🤦‍♀️ absolutely ridiculous!!

Might have to watch that you know 😆

Oh god 🤦🏻‍♀️ I actually enjoy it though! I imagine this is how crack addicts feel. They know it’s wrong but it feels so right.

I don’t talk about it because we agreed we’d just see what happens and if we happen to “catch it” so be it. What DP doesn’t know is that I’m out there drinking grapefruit juice by the pint and deciding where in our bedroom the next to me crib will go 😵‍💫

@Mrsbrooks1 hahaha you crack me up! We said the same... would give it a go but not try too hard for now. Here's me with my ovulation tests etc 🤣

He told me not to get too excited as I'll get my hopes up and be sad but I said I'm thinking of it as entering the lottery and it's really exciting not knowing and wanting to find out if you've won! Then if you don't win you try again and get excited again 😁

I know I'll be sick of it in a few months 🙈 you'll have to keep me updated on how you get on!!

Do you mean the ovulation tests you’ve hidden in the cupboard because you’re just seeing how it goes and not having sex on demand? Oh yeah, I’ve got those too 🤣

I get what you mean about the lottery! I feel like it’s an experiment and I just need to do everything in a certain way and then watch. Continuously watch and research past experiments.

@reddyeddy made a good point about the bfp being the ultimate goal. Like this will be my successful experiment marker. Then (hopefully) you have a baby. Fuck 😳🤣

Don’t you worry, I’ll be here lurking like a weirdo trying to find pictures of peoples cervical mucus and pantie liners with spotting on them 🤦🏻‍♀️