Feel like it will never happen

[Conundrum12345]

I've had 2 miscarriages, high NK cells, low LAD and have to start IVF soon. Its been one knock after another

I honestly find it so hard to picture myself pregnant or with a baby.

Did anyone else feel like this and was there a positive outcome?

I understand how you feel. It's such a shit way to feel isn't it. When all you want is for it to happen!!

Yes I've had three losses. Can never imagine myself having a baby now and quite honestly don't know if I can be bothered with it all. The longer it takes the more appealing a child free life becomes if I'm honest!

It can be very disheartening. I had 2 mc's and lost a twin in this pregnancy. But I am now 30 weeks pregnant and really looking forward to meeting my little fella! So there is hope.

People keep telling me to be positive but its so hard :(

Hi @Conundrum12345

I feel the same at this current moment. I feel so sad about it. I've been trying for two years with one miscarriage. I'm tired of seeing fertility doctors, of watching my cycle, of having sex constantly only for AF to arrive and throw me into depression for a week. All the while everyone around me gets pregnant and has a baby. It's not fair . And I'm not even that young anymore.

Sorry I'm not really any help to you, just want you to know it's okay not to feel positive, your feelings are normal and valid.