Anyone else ttc #2? Thread 2

[Chanel05]

New thread ladies!

Hi everyone. I was on thread 1 way back in October! My name then was PartyPotato. I got my BFP on the first try and I’ve just been reading back all my posts on the old thread and it was such a lovely exciting time.
Sadly I lost that pregnancy in January, so I’ve been TTC again since then. Currently I’m guessing I’m 10 or 11dpo but as my cycles have been a bit haywire since the MC I could be another day out either way.
I did a FRER this morning and I feel like I can see a tiny line when I edit the pics but I also feeling like I’m just kidding myself. My boobs ache a bit and I feel a little bit sick sometimes but no where near as strongly as I did last time.
I’ve attached pics of todays test in case anyone can see anything but I’m not convinced.

@bleachblondemom, so sorry to hear about your MC :(

I can't see anything but I'm a terrible line spotter! I have my fingers firmly crossed for you xxxx

@bleachblondemom I remember you! So sorry to hear of your loss 🙏🏼

@bleachblondemom oh no I'm so sorry for your loss! I hope you've found some healing.

I'm 9dpo and I've just taken a test. Bfn of course. This is going to sound so self indulgent but I don't understand why it can't just happen for me. I'm on cycle 6 and my first two pregnancies were conceived on cycle 8. I've spent such a bloody long time ttc, why can't it just be simple for me?

The thing is, if I knew I was going to fall pregnant again in two cycles, I'd be fine with that but I have this awful WHAT IF feeling if it takes longer when I have a secret expectation. What then?

@Chanel05 I know what you mean :( I’m only on cycle 2 after MC and I’m still so jealous of all the people that get pregnant again straight away! It’s that desperation to be pregnant that makes you feel all these bad feelings :(

@Chanel05 it's absolutely soul destroying TTC, my first took 18 months. This one took 2 weeks. It really is down to luck & perfect timing. Try not to stress it won't help either 😣 baby dust to you xx

Spotting this morning 😕 it’s light and mixed with cm so a small part of me is hoping it’s implantation but to be honest this is how my last period started

Nope it’s def AF, so it was all in my head :(

Bleachblondemom I'm sorry it's AF! It's so sh*t isn't it. Feeling very fed up today too! Fingers crossed next month's your month Xxx

@bleachblondemom sorry af got you! I'm out too. Cd1 today, came on at 2am 🙄. Cycle 7 now 😬.

Cycle 3 here. I know 3 cycles isn’t a lot but when you’re trying to make up for a loss, every cycle feels more desperate.

@bleachblondemom totally understand that feeling. There's nothing like desperation to be pregnant again after a loss

@Chanel05 just responding to your comment a while back - that was cycle 4, but on cycle 2 I got pregnant then had an early miscarriage so not sure if I count from there or before... Since MC it was cycle 2, but first month after MC we didn't really try.

Sorry to everyone who has had negative tests/AF recently 😔 hope next cycle brings a BFP for you all ❤️.

@Graceybaby how much vitamin c are you taking? Kiwis are super high in C too so I'm sure that's helping!

@bleachblondemom so sorry to hear of your loss. I hope it happens again for you soon x 💗

@lovesT how are you? X

And of course @bleachblondemom I meant that I hope conceiving happens again for you super soon, just read that sentence back and it sounded off - sorry! X

@Skylark1990 don’t worry I knew what you meant ☺️ Thank you

@lovesT how are you going? xx

@Skylark1990 thank you for asking ❤️ I'm okay, I've been trying not to think about it all too much (pretty much impossible!!) We're moving this coming week so trying to focus on that and I'm trying to assume it won't happen this month as my husband was away so we could only dtd about 2 days before ovulation. I know it's possible but he went away the day I got my peak so 🤷.

I think in the next few days I should know either way but because I'm trying not to think about it I haven't looked at my cycle day and I'm too scared to again 😂.

I have a lack of certain symptoms and a few things that makes me wonder but I'm trying to tell myself it could all mean nothing 😬😬😅.

Good thing is I feel better even just from taking vit b complex and vitamin C! I feel better in myself so that can't be bad.

I'm also not stressed at all this month ...

How are you doing??

Sorry for the very long reply! 😄

As much as I try not to get my hopes up and think about it I know I'll be so sad when af arrives 😥

Is anyone else due to come on in the next few days? I'm dreading the disappointment haha xx

Ahhh my fingers are crossed for you @lovesT! I hope this month you get a BFP. Can definitely relate to the fear and uncertainty of course.
Good idea to just wait and see and focus on the other things in your life! Distraction is key 👌🤞

I'm doing ok, still not sure if I want to ttC this month. I've done my treatment now (course of antibiotics) so could theoretically try but not sure if I want to wait a cycle to get myself feeling better 💯🤞 it's CD 13 today but no ewcm yet or positive opk - but yeah Def should think about doing the deed soon if we are going to try this month 😂

Just got a positive opk I think! Am full of cold but think I'll try to get DH in the mood and give it a go this month... Haha can't resist now I've seen the opk!

@Skylark haha why not if you're feeling up to it! 😊😊

Hi can I join please? TTC for 6 months now with ovulation tests but still not happening, finding it stressful and nor sure if anyone has any other tips to help please? I'm turning 34 shortly and I keep reading lots of unhelpful articles about how mu fertility will decline rapidly at this age 😭

@Kelbelz17 welcome! It's so frustrating and disheartening each time isn't it 😥. Are you taking any vitamins??