🦕🦕 The dinosaur crew - part 8 ttc after mc 🦕🦕

[Annny27]

Hi ladies,

You know the drill after this long haha! All of us ladies are ttc after miscarriage (whether that's MMC, MC, TFMR, ectopic or CP)

I will tag people in next message :)

Thank you @ElsieG3m I don't know what's wrong with me today I'm just so emotional. I've been quite alright up til now. I said to myself that no matter the outcome I wanted to try and enjoy this pregnancy as last time I was just terrified of being pregnant and kept thinking that we'd made a mistake. Now I want it more than ever and it's killing me thinking that I might now happen. I know there's nothing to do but wait. I know I'm fortunate to be in this situation and there's many of women who would love to have the BFP, I'm not ungrateful I know I'm blessed. Hopefully a good night's sleep will help.

@PeanuttyButter
I used to feel the same. It comes and goes the feeling that you are losing it again.
It is hard... nobody understands how terrified you feel inside.
What i found helpful like you did is repeating myself that regardless of what happens this time i want to enjoy and cherish every moment of the pregnancy. The time i MC i was so negative all the time and didn't want to bond because i had this gut feeling from the start that something was off.
With my DD i did the opposite and just kept convincing myself that everything is ok. I trust my body. I do my best to be healthy and as far as i am concerned i am having a baby. Keeping positive thoughts like saying to my body and this little bean "we can do it!".
Getting out of the house or doing some activities helped clearing my mind and the pessimism some days.
This chat and the pregnancy ones were also good to vent and be reassured.
And those days were i could no thinks straight because of that horrible feeling i booked a scan or a blood test early on.
💓

Could not think*

@sweetbabydust1989
Will find out next Wednesday what he wants to do nxt fingers crossed its not a bad dip 💚 I don't think you will be in to long of that's what time they bringing u in 💚
@miscarriage39
No luck what so ever lol going to phone my doc today to c if she will put and emergency referral in for me what pup did you get yourself 💚
@PeanuttyButter
Awwww sorry your feeling like this it's so hard isn't it just remember different egg different sperm different outcome 💚

@Babyghirl I don't really know how I feel these days. Think because I'm waiting for appointments at the moment I've kind of let go almost like this is a rest period before it all starts. Still trying but not that focused if I'm honest. How are you?

@Sweetbabydust1989 I can only imagine how you are feeling. Personally at times I want to switch off from it all it's so draining

@27DONFIN
Waiting on an app with my rmc consultant next Wed for my scan results and blood clotting results, waiting on doc phoning me nw about my cyst hoping she can get me an emergency appointment to get it sorted all going on for us with appointments lol, my neighbour was talking to me there she had second infertility had ivf for her second she just said to me September is your month she being saying it nw for a few months lol little did she know I have fell pregnant the last 3 Septembers lol she said she is never wrong so we will c 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️💚

@27DONFIN
Just take this time to relax while waiting on your apps coming through it will do u the world of good 💚

@Babyghirl that's crazy her saying that here's hoping then 🍀 Im in a phase the longer I don't hear from them the happier I am dreading getting back into it all. Obviously want to know if somethings wrong but at the same time that can make things final right now there's still hope. Iv got a feeling tho nothing will show on on scan, bloods and Hsg and we will be told it's unexplained. In that case Iv already been told we will start 4 rounds of IUI

@ELM7
Goodluck for today thinking of you 💚😘

Hi all!

So I've had a weird period this month basically off an on for two days then a light flow Sunday then nothing yesterday and today really. Done tests and negative tests. Today in work got this metallic blood like test in my mouth to the point it's distracting me!

I was convinced it could have been an implantation bleed but it was around the time my period was due. My pregnancy that ended in MMC I had positive tests before my implantation bleed and my bleed was actually heavier than this "period" I've just had. Should I leave it a few days and do a test?

@apwilso
Yes give it a day or two you could of ovulated abit later than you thought to goodluck 💐

@Babyghirl I'm sure I ovulated around the normal time day 17/18 but now I'm a bit unsure. I've got straight negatives for the past couple of days but never had this taste like this until I was pregnant last time. Hmmmmmmm I'll see! It's our anniversary next week so would be a lovely surprise!

@apwilso
Maybe your body geared up but did not happen until a few days l8r fingers crossed 💐

Argh, how frustrating is the 2 week wait. I'm second guessing every little thing. Is it just a warning that my period is coming or is this the month its going to happen? Oh a spot is that pregnancy hormones or period pimple? Back pain, some cramping or feeling my boobs to see if they feel more firm!
It's the longest wait ever.... We need some sort of advent calender each month to get us through it!

@treesall I was wondering how you were getting on? I read back over the previous thread and noticed you'd had lots of tests done and new treatment and I was hoping you could share details of the consultant, tests and diagnosis if it's ok to ask? Sorry to be nosey - it's just I'm gearing up for more tests xx

Hi @ElsieG3m I went to see Dr Shehata at the CRP clinic. All my tests came back normal, except my natural killer cells were overactive. He started me on treatment of hydroxychloroquine, aspirin, progesterone and monthly intralipid infusions. It's way too soon to say whether it's successful or not, But I got pregnant first cycle, and am now 13 weeks. I've had several scans and each one has been normal, and my miscarriages & chemicals all happened much earlier than this so I am desperately hoping this is the one!

Not everyone seems to believe the Nk cells thing so only some clinics test for them. It seems to be Dr S' specialism. He claims to have an 80% success rate, though I'm not sure exactly what that means if I'm honest. Happy to share any more info with you so feel free to ask. Best of luck, I really hope you get some answers.

@treesall congratulations on your pregnancy and so great that you're at 13weeks and all seems well. So happy for you xx

@Spotsmama it's the worst! And you start all hopeful and then hopes get dashed so soon :(

We're having a break from ttc this month so hopefully that'll help!

@treesall
Congratulations so happy for you your getting your wee rainbow baby 💐

@ELM7
How r you doing x

@treesall thank you so much! That's really helpful. I'll get in touch with them to see if I can get an appointment. Do you know what other tests he ran? I have recurrent BV at a very low level but only recently learned that it can cause miscarriages. I didn't have any treatment for my pregnancy with my daughter so maybe I just got lucky but no such luck since then. Congratulations on your pregnancy and keeping everything crossed for you! Xx

Thanks for the new thread!
Jealous of the puppies @Babyghirl your dogs are gorgeous.
@treesall congratulations!

I called the doctors last week and have a phone consultation on Monday! Takes so long, still no period, haven’t tested for a week so really need to do so but I’m just not ready to see another negative test. Will try and do one in the morning. Currently on CD49. Although I told the doctors I hadn’t had one for 2 months as I didn’t count my weird spotting bleed back in July

Hi Ladies sorry haven’t been on for a few days.

We had a change of plan and didn’t have op on Monday.

Lost the baby Sunday night at home. Went in Mon morning and they scanned me to make sure everything had gone and so came back home and spent the day on the sofa with my hot water bottle (whilst sat in shorts it was quite a look - no sign of summer for months and then when I need a hot water bottle we have a f’ing heatwave 🤦🏼‍♀️😂)

Sun night was horrific as I had to collect it to be able to take it to the hospital for genetic testing (which is why I’d opted for the op as didn’t want to deal with that but my body had other ideas) and my DH face is something I will never forget. xx

Hello everyone! Wow! New thread! @Annny27 thanks!

I've been back at work after the six week hols and very busy so not been checking this thread as often as I was during the hols. It's been helpful to be busy as it's still very early days in this pregnancy for me so helps to keep my mind a bit busier. Got my first scan booked at 12pm tomorrow, which is only 5 weeks since my last miscarriage and I'm honestly not sure what to expect. Partly excited but very scared too. Had a huge argument with DH yesterday as he had a go at me because I said something to upset him and then I asked him to give me a break and basically outpoured every bit of fear and anger in his direction telling him that he had no idea how it feels to have gone through miscarriage 4 times with all of the bleeding, physical pain and then emotional roller coaster on top of it all and how I'm not sure if I can keep going through this journey if it doesn't work out again!!! He seemed shocked to hear it all in one go! Whoops! All of this can be so tough on relationships! Xx

@ELM7 I am so sorry that you had such a horrific experience! I really hope that you get some helpful answers from it. Loads of love Xxxx