Here I go again...TTC Bus 45 - blood sucking dungeons, whitesnake and angry cervixes all welcome...

[larrythelizard]

Your service has been interrupted as your normal bus driver has connectivity issues. Just as well there's a driver out there who's done the route as cover before...! As ever, apologies if I've got any of it wrong!

Here is the bus where anything goes, and chat isn’t just TTC it’s anything. Ranting very much encouraged to her things off your (are they sore boobs?!) chest. The last bus had loads of work promotions too & we’ve still got interviews so hopefully it’s a lucky bus in more ways than just making babies.

We are here to help and support each other & anything goes. We’ve had losses, heartache & some super fertile short ride passengers so welcome all.

The price of your bus pass is an embarrassing story please, doesn’t have to go be TTC related but can you beat breaking a guy’s banjo in a BJ or whilst DTD?! 🤞🏻🙌🏻

And if you see mention of minster's blog then blame the ladies on the thread but @minster2012 needs to carry on with it it, I’ve been lazy! #shamelessplug

minstermusings.co.uk for the blog that’s where the full stuff happens
& minstermusings on insta - some of our ladies have made special anonymous accounts so we can link up via me 🥰
If you want to sign up & get updates please do, please note your username if you comment shows up to others so maybe make it anonymous I won’t be offended 😂🤣(unless you are mean)

Story so far...

2020
June 24 BFPs
July 11 BFPs
August 18 BFPs
Sep 4 BFPs
Oct 7 BFPs
Nov 7 BFPs
Dec 14 BFPs

2021
Jan 7 BFPs
February 8 BFPs
March 5 BFPs
April 5 BFPs
May 4 BFPs
June 5 BFPs

July 1 so far @sunbird94

@minster2012
@Franklydear
@Vil10
@lexber
@amy2503
@2alreadywantanother
@InkyPaper
@bez91
@Manifestingbaby
@DKDK123
@Dollybird89
@justwant2beamum
@EllieAdam
@DKDK123
@Polkadotpixie
@kaylesd
@Billythecat
@sezzy25
@feliznavidad2
@cheekymonkey3112
@JuniperAndTonic
@butterfliesx
@GuessHowMuch
@dmb91
@Mumlili9

Just about hanging on with fingertips
@sausage1990

IVF/IUI/ICSI /clomid passengers as well as TTC on the side!
@somatronic
@clolo
@manifestingbaby
@Dollybird89
@MartyMcShy
@paintfairy

Newly promoted to the bump list!
@Sunbird84

Bumps & babies who want to keep track of us 👀
@clairey844
@blackcurrantqueen
@Missgoldilocks
@lucyrp
@KateColx
@blodyn91
@Catherinettc
@michelleScarn
@Busybee143
@Ltay2
@BlondePotter
@Clairey844
@Gem176
@kirky658
@Hollie657
@justanothercyster
@DJmum83
@Thinkingandblinking
@florence13
@2020mission
@Asthenia
@Hopeful110
@katiekattty
@madeoftea
@becarefuloutthere
@crazydoglady
@Amy00
@tornados2Inc
@KiwiTTC1st

Waiting out probationary periods at work
@Juno231
@larrythelizard

@Kirky658 I started doing that a few years ago and so much happier for it, to the shock of a couple of my aunties, who I just won't visit, sitting in your sofa trying to restrain my child for 2 hours while you critize my life? think I am gonna pass, go figure

Thank you everyone, I hope to come back with good news in the morning

Heyyy ladies!!

@Manifestingbaby it's really hard but we've started to have similar convos but I don't think the men understand HOW consuming it is and how emotional, not just "timing career wise etc" It's tough. Big hugs I was also hoping to kick you off the bus by now 😘

@Kirky658 I too have a similar friend. She wouldn't even consider dates. We've drifted like @Franklydear says too I also started to not be bothered about making the effort as it's not reciprocated & so we need to make sure we are looking after US ladies. 🤗

@JemRose that line looks good, tentative congrats

@feliznavidad2 it's a good thing you've got those tests booked, try find rhyme or reason. I might also need a gardening book to perk me up 😝

@Vil10 I hope you are chilling

So ladies any knitters wanna take on the challenge of these patterns for the bus? Or for the grad bus too, maybe it's like a "before baby", "during baby" and "post baby?" Though my tits look like the second one anyway without breastfeeding

@Kirky658 I get it - seems way unfair when some people manage it so easily. But I wouldn't worry, actual baby in the real world with cute pics and a name way trumps a 12 week announcement!

@Manifestingbaby that's really tough. No right answer there but make sure you don't rush any decisions and you and OH are communicating properly.

Agree with @Minster2012 that men don't think the same as us. Not sure why I'm stating the obvious, clearly just tired!!

Bless your DH @Franklydear obv doesn't want to get his hopes up. My hopes are up for you obviously. Oooh saw your breaking news!!!! And yes love your motto im getting more and more like that.

Gosh it's taken me almost an hour to catch up.

Congratulations on the bfp's fingers 🤞 for sticky beans.

As for me im having the worst day 😆🤣😂
I've dropped 12 uncooked chocolate muffins on my floor, flooded the downstairs bathroom , I turned the hot tap on to let the sink fill up completely forgot about it and sat down to watch the olympics. Then remade new muffins but burnt my hand getting them out the oven. So I called today a write off and spent the rest of the day on the sofa crocheting. Praying I sleep tonight, it's been weeks since I sleeper longer than 2 hours.

@Franklydear fingers crossed 🤞 for tomorrow.
@Manifestingbaby I'm having the same conversations with DH and myself if I'm honest. My life is spent poas waiting for that positive opk and then twitching for 10 days then spend 4 days poas and crying every day. I dont live I get by and thats not healthy. Its been 18 months since I lost my tube and I haven't had a good progesterone test since April. DH tbh has already given up and is just going through the motions for my sake. It's a very very difficult decision, one I keep putting off.

Well, bfn this morning so.... to wait either af or test in a week

And there is a 3rd, still there www.mumsnet.com/Talk/am_i_being_unreasonable/4312307-Locked-Parking-Thread-3

@Franklydear 😢😩that's shit, was hoping for this one. That thread should keep me busy for a while! You could always knit those fabulous big boobs of yours!

@Mumlili9 what a day!! Sounds like you should have sat down & crocheted a lot earlier 😜I've barely seen any of the Olympics, but only 2 hours sleep bloody hell that's not good

CD25 for me too here & just waiting on AF as no sniff of ovulation

Well ladies my digi confirmed it ❤️
Within dates!
Just need to hope it sticks! Thanks everyone for your support x

@Mumlili9 wow what a day 😆 hope the exhaustion of the day helped you get some sleep for longer than 2 hours.

Argggh @Franklydear so shit 😩 sorry 💕 big boob knitting yes.
You and @Mumlili9 super creative with your crocheting/knitting.

God damn egg @Minster2012 when should AF come normally?

Had some great 🍆 last night, bit pink afterwards though so either AF on her way early, not due until later in week or my cervix is angry. Can't remember who was angry cervix lady 🤔

@Laurenxx94 congrats x

Congrats to the bfp's 💕

Really hoping @Franklydear finally gets her rainbow this morning 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼 we're all routing for you and holding your hand either way lovely x

@Laurenxx94 yetyyy that's great! Still hoping it sticks more but congrats!

@bez91 ooo was angry cervix @Juno231?? I mean it could be good right too?! My cycles have been 37 days then fell pregnant on a cycle heading for 33day. Then post MC have been 31 & then 24 (where there was a peak but not on CB) now this is next one so as ever, who knows 🤪

@Kirky658 and I feel your pain. When I did my announcement (the honest one you probably saw on insta) a few of my pregnant friends reached out and actually apologised for if anything they had posted had upset me! I was shocked. It was so lovely but goes to show that people just don't think about how difficult it can be, I'm so happy I WAS honest about it in the end!
She'll be super excited no doubt but hopefully she'll hold off, but to be honest you'll be so excited and thrilled about becoming a mumma it won't matter! It's so frustrating how hard it is for some x

@larrythelizard you're definitely right, I'm just being a hormonal asshole
@franklydear dammit.
@laurenxx94 congrats!
@justanothercyster ❤️❤️❤️

Had the best sleep last night in the caravan that I've had for weeks genuinely but lots of nightmares about labour, eep it's getting closer 😬

@manifestingbaby sorry to hear you're in the same space as me, the having to start thinking about when to stop club is not one anyone wants to be a part of, sending you the squishiest hugs. We've decided to give it a year of stop 'trying' (as in not tracking, not caring about FW, not living my life looking at a calendar) but not using any protection. It does mean there's that small part of your brain that still clings onto hope and still thinks about the possibility of a baby but it's not as all consuming as it was. By this time next year (which would make it 3 years ttc) if nothing has happened then we're going to move from not trying to start using contraception again so that we 100% know where we stand and there won't be that 'maybe' at the back of our heads. It was a really tough call to make but I think the year of not trying and just assuming it won't work is easier to deal with than going cold turkey and accepting it will never happen. Its literally only been about a week of 'not trying' and I must say mentally it already feels like a massive weight has been lifted, dont get me wrong I still have moments when it creeps up and have a little cry but I definitely feel like life is starting to swing more into favour of living again rather than about the hypothetical baby that's never arrived. Take lots of time to talk to your OH and be prepared for you both to change your mind a million times before you come to a decision that's best for you guys.

@DKDK123 I’ve been trying that for the last couple of cycles, but come af due date and it doesn’t stop me going ott again, my dh doesn’t want to stop either, we have already prolonged it twice, come Xmas, I bet he’ll come with 6 more months

@Franklydear I've tried so many cycles prior to this too and got straight back into going all out again, I think its impossible to do until you genuinely are ready to stop (as opposed to just having a wobble that month or feeling deflated) and your mind and body will let you know when that real time to stop is. I definitely feel a lot different this time round compared to when I wanted to stop the other times. I think it's maybe slightly easier for me to say enough is enough now after all the CPs, if it was just one or two I may still have clung onto the hope of trying a bit longer but once I sat down and thought about it properly, 2 years of disappointment, 8 times seeing 2 lines getting our hopes up and then crushed again a week or 2 later there's only so much physically and mentally your body can take before you need to say enough is enough. A baby would be amazing and a dream come true, but we also need to have other dreams in life too and I've let them slide in favour of something that realistically may never happen. It's like pinning all your hopes on winning the lottery just because you really want it doesn't mean to say you'll definitely get it and it's a harsh but unfortunately true pill to swallow. Luckily for most the odds of eventually having a baby are waaaay better than winning the lottery so don't give up if you've still got that fight left in you lovely 😘

That's shit @Franklydear I really had high hopes for you sweets! But AF isn't here yet so not out yet might just be too early? 🤞🏼🤞🏼

@Laurenxx94 congratulations 🎉

I've partially read but will read again when I don't feel so dodgy. Slept terrible last night, kept getting so hot I ended up upside down so OH wasn't touching me and this morning I feel weird as hell I was tempted to do a lateral flow test I feel that strange, I've checked my temp and it's only 36.6 but I feel like I am melting and just generally out of it which isn't good at my busiest time of the month work wise, trying to gather the energy to shower and go into the office... but right now I feel like I could either vomit or pass out! Yay hormones!! 11dpo I think and not due until Sat (I think) 🤷🏽‍♀️

@DKDK123 that’s exactly how I feel, but dh isn’t so we are going in circles, I want the baby of course I do, but not the heartbreak every month, so much worst for you with so many cps, I’ll be 44 in September and I am thinking the boat have sailed, surely, but as @Lexber says af is not here yet, we’ll see yet what is to be, cd 27 today, looking back at the record in November I got the bfp at cd 28, but we know how that ended

@Kirky658 sundays were made for being fat!

@Franklydear ohhh no, sending hugs❤️ when's af due??

@Laurenxx94 congratulations!!

@Vil10 last Saturday or Sunday,🤨

@Franklydear you're 100% not out yet then!! I say wait and test again x

It's so hard @Franklydear I'm scared to test this month after last. And especially test before due as I lost a few days after I was due... it was very early but we had seen that positive and the excitement was real.
OH keeps asking when we can test as he can see I'm not right and is sure I'm pregnant again but I'm putting it off telling him it's too early..

I wish they had the same feelings, thoughts, symptoms etc we all get maybe they'd understand more - and now I'm crying for no reason! Fucking hormones, either way they suck!!

@Franklydear It's hard when you're not both on the same page yet. Sending big hugs, and quietly hoping your turn comes soon. Was just catch up reading on the updates on your boy there what amazing achievements he just seems to be flying at the moment, well done him and well done you for getting him to this point 🥰

Thank you all, the plan is wait for af, if not within a week test again, luckily I am on leave and can fret calmly at home, ds has his sleep over today, so he’ll be gone in the afternoon and comeback at some point tomorrow, nothing arranged yet, dfriend’s parents have been in touch to ask about the schools, he’s going into year 6, and autistic as well, we were puzzled as why we didn’t pick the school right next to us, he won’t be going there either, they are asking lots about ds school, but I did say to check all the others too, can’t be choosing school on account of one friendship