Yogurt pot yuppies, sexy basters and UFO discs - part 3

[eloiseislost]

Starting yet another thread on self insemination before our second one locks down!

Welcome to THE most supportive group you could wish for if you’re starting or you are already on a self insemination journey.
Remember, nothing is TMI and you are not alone. 💖

Calling the usual suspects, in no particular order (and sorry if I missed anyone 😊):
@ComebackQueen
@Makingnumber2
@Janefx40
@AdriannaP
@MrsKin90
@primrosechill
@bigsweetpotato
@Sydney1986x
@Bluey18
@Birchybirch
@Lori23TTC
@Cathie102
@Labrat3
@DinkBoo
@Oilyoilyoilgob

Let it rain BFPs!!! 🐣

@MrsKin90 I had no idea they tested it by blood, GP hasn’t suggested it so I wish it could’ve all just been taken at once for a full MOT like you! Get it all over with. Hope you’re not too upset and that’s absolutely fantastic on the weight loss, every pound off is brilliant 😊
Well I said that to my mum, I know some run out but not sure about rubella. Haven’t googled it but I know I’ll need it before getting pregnant if that happens. I’ll have a look into coq10 thank you 💚

@Bizawit thank you, that’s kind and thank you for sharing about your tubes. I’m glad it went ok and quickly. You’re right it’s a really hard journey and I think I’m in a bit of disbelief it hasn’t happened. I genuinely thought I’d get pregnant. Had one very late period last February, our first ‘what if’ moment of thinking I could be. Can’t believe a year later husband is pushing ivf. I’m genuinely so hurt, upset and disappointed and absolutely kicking myself for taking it for granted that pregnancy would happen.

@bitheby glad you have some more information to work towards any paths you may choose to take after trying SI and you’ll be able to start trying whichever one you think will work best for you.

Hi all... I’ve not been on here for a little while and I’ve been catching up on all your news.

I want to say congratulations to everyone who has had a BFP recently it’s fantastic news and I wish you all a happy healthy 9 months ❤️

I wasn’t going to comment as I’m not in a good place at the moment as ttc is really taking it out of me but @Oilyoilyoilgob your message really hit me. I’m so sorry your AF is coming/here. I am DPO15 today and mine is also on the way (bbt temp drop) The last few cycles I’ve been getting brown spotting on day 6-9 and let myself believe it was implantation. I had a HSG in December and I felt really positive that the next 3 months we would have more of a ‘chance’ that 3 months is up now. I feel similar to you in I don’t smoke, drink (apart from a few glasses of wine when AF turns up) I’ve had all the fertility tests and everything has come back normal. I’m onto my 19th cycle now and it’s so hard.
My next appointment with the fertility clinic is in a few months and it will be the IUI/IVF route which like you I really did not see happening. So frustrating when I know so many other people recently who have got pregnant first time (really struggling with this atm) everyone around me is pregnant and I feel like I’m being left out. I think for me the stress of doing it this way is too much now so maybe I do need to leave it in the hands of the professionals.I just wanted to reply to you so you know your not alone in how you feel ❤️
Like @MrsKin90 said I’m just going to climb back into my hole now too!

I also didn’t get offered a chlamydia test I don’t think, it was never mentioned anyway?!

Sorry I haven’t mentioned everyone but I have read through all the messages and I’m thinking of you all 💜 xx

@Lori23TTC my lovely I’ve been thinking of you, I never like to tag because of what may be going on.

Thank you for messaging and I am just so, so sorry for you. I can feel your pain through your words. Sending you a huge hug.
The brown spotting you’re getting is just so cruel as it’s so easy to think it would be implantation, that’s just so sad.

I do get you on the professional route and @Janefx40 put it really nicely in that there’s a group of people there helping and wanting for you to achieve a pregnancy.
I’ve gone into a bit of disbelief that this is happening because I made a stupid assumption that I’d conceive within a few months. I guess in a few months it could happen for us but I can’t keep letting the time tick away, my husband is wanting this (ivf etc) much more than me right now. I just want to curl up and hide for a while. I’m sad and stressed over a few things and this sounds so babyish but I said to my husband last night can we just have this one sprinkle of good news and a bit of luck on our side. Just this one thing.

I found out today the girlfriend of a friend is pregnant, and like you I just feel left out and very, very sad.

Thank you for letting me know I’m not alone, it’s been a hard few days and weeks for a good few of us and I just feel so sorry that it has to be this way when I know our babies would be so loved and wanted.

Take care of yourself and we are here whenever you need us. I might join you and @MrsKin90 for a while in our respective caves 💚 xx

@MrsKin90so glad your midwife was lovely and as helpful as she can be at this stage. Good luck for tomorrow, we are here for you either way ✨

@Makingnumber2 so glad your midwife was lovely and as helpful as she can be at this stage. Good luck for tomorrow, we are here for you either way

@Janefx40 Oh my goodness - how stressful to go through that and believe that you’re both infertile, what the hell happened for them to get it wrong? I am SO glad that isn’t the case though!

@bizawat lovely to see you post on here again. Yay for cycle buddies, here’s hoping for this month 🤞🏻

@Lori23TTC lovely to see you post again, here for you if and when you need us again on this thread, take care

@MrsKin90 happy birthday for next week!! We are here for you if and when you decide to come back! Good thinking re the BMI- I am going to do that tomorrow, thanks so much! Really?!- blood test for chlamydia... I wish they did that for my first full blood work? Even my Lloyds pharmacy one is a swab.

For those mentioning about the chlamydia testing as part of process- I was horrified when I was asked as I’ve been with my hubby to be for 12 years! But, it’s a elimination process because that specific STD is usually non symptomatic for women and leads to infertility if untreated. Although men usually show symptoms - it makes me wonder by my partner wasn’t tested and just me 🙄 and presumably if we had it he would have symptoms.

Sorry to go off on an STD tangent 😅

Off to torture myself and watch the Emma Willis delivering babies programme 🤪🤪🤪

I'm back from the hospital appointment where they confirmed I've miscarried naturally but I need to do a pregnancy test in 3 weeks to confirm. Bean conceived via injection.
I'm conscious I'm cycling through the stages of grief, and right now I'm feeling angry at my husband.
The reason is: he thought we shouldn't tell anyone until the 12 week scan because of what could go wrong. And by anyone, I mean not even my mother, who I'm fairly close to. Because if I tell my mother, then he feels like he should tell his parents... it becomes a bloody competition. Additional info: my husband thinks my mother is a bit too controlling, and I feel this colours his judgement.
So, as per the previous cycle (when I had a chemical), I started spotting again this last cycle and ended up with a bean with no heartbeat at a scan after showing a heartbeat at a previous scan.
At this point I told my mother (she lives other side of the world) that I was pregnant but showing signs of a miscarriage... she asked me to see a gynecologists asap and to see one privately if I couldn't see one via the NHS.
I've now booked an appointment with a doctor next week, but I've already miscarried (as per the scan today).
My mind is full of what if's. What if, I'd ignored my husband, and mentioned to my mother that I was pregnant and spotting, what if my mother had encouraged me to see a gynecologist, and what if the gynecologist had prescribed progesterone or aspirin or something which meant my bean would still be alive.
I'm clutching at straws and trying to find someone to blame... but I'm feeling guilt.

Men! Can't live with them... etc. If I didn't have the sperm donor (husband) I wouldn't have the bean in the first place.

It is my body though right... if I wanted to tell my mother to get some moral support/advice... is it right for him to discourage?
Or should I have just ignored what he said, so I have myself to blame anyway.
Anyway rant over!

So sorry to hear about your bad news @birdbybird

Not good news for me either. Had second scan done. Sac is still empty. Had grown but only 7mm in 12 days. I'm 8weeks today (at the most conservative estimate- by my dates I'm 8w5) and so the fact there's nothing there means this is the end of the road. I've left a message for EPU for a call back which won't be before tomorrow morning as they only pick up messages 9-12. Anyway I'm signing off from here for the next few days I think.
Sending lots of baby dust to everyone in TWW and SI-ing and lots of solidarity sadness and wine to those with AF and going through losses of their own xxx

Sorry to hear about your sad news @birdbybird

@Makingnumber2 I, like many others here have been following you as you’ve posted and I’m just really, really sorry to see this. I hope the EPU can keep supporting you with any help you need during this time.
Sending a really big hug to you and please just take care of yourself and I hope you and your husband will be ok 💚

I’m going to do the same and bow out for a few days. As per my blood test I need a rubella vaccination which is booked for next week and the GP recommends not trying to get pregnant for a month from my vaccination date.
This has actually offered me a huge relief today, the first two weeks of a month are spent on a period, then tracking opks, then inseminating and bringing myself to orgasm when sometimes it’s the last thing I feel like doing. Then the two weeks after that are spent in hope, wondering, watching out for signs, eating and drinking really well etc all of which I don’t begrudge but life has become a merry go round of stress and worry. This month with time off from doing that will be a bit of a release and I’m going to look after myself.

Wishing lots of luck to everyone are inseminating and who are going into their tww-fingers crossed!
Sending hugs and strength to those who got their period and who are going through losses💚xx

@Birdbybird, I'm sorry your husband is not being supportive. For what it's worth, with my DD I told my mum at 6 weeks as I was bleeding and needed support. My DP's parents weren't told until nearly 11 weeks. I think it is you who is going through it and you who gets to decide what supports you need.

Makingnumber2, I am so sorry for your loss. I was so hoping it would good news. Please be kind to yourself and know that we are here for you anytime you need xx

I am 11dpo, had majorly convinced myself I was pregnant but I had a bit of bright red spotting at lunch time so think may be out . Gutted as I had so many signs this month.

@Makingnumber2 I'm so sorry. What a devastating day. Take time out and be kind to yourself. We'll all be here if you ever want us xxx

@birdbybird Such a sad day for you too and I can totally understand why you feel angry and upset. It is hard not to be able to share with the people you love. There will be time to think about getting more information and Drs etc. For now, it's just a case of getting through it anyway you can. When it happened to me I went straight to Asda and bought up their entire stock of chocolate, crisps and chocolate and just basically ate crap and watched tv for a few days. Sending so much love x

@Oilyoilyoilgob sometimes an enforced break is a good thing as you say. Take some time out and hope to see you again soon (and rubella free!)

@Bluey18 sorry you are out. It's always hard especially when you had symptoms x

@birdbybird I also wanted to say please don't feel guilty. There is nothing you could have done to prevent this. I go to a super intensive IVF clinic and they pump us full of aspirin, progesterone, immune drugs etc but women still miscarry. I still miscarried despite all of that. It's tough but it happens and it isn't our fault xxx

Had bright red spotting and cramps yesterday at around 1pm. Had brown spotting later last night. But then it stopped this morning. Took an IC, followed by a FRER this morning and had very, very faint lines on both.

So, in limbo land over here, definitely not getting excited over it, not sure if it's a chemical or what. I shouldn't have tested yet but I was just so convinced I had symptoms.

Hi ladies. A bit confused, as always!.

So it's second cycle ttc. I use the clear blue OPK which I used this time too.
Out of interest and wanting to connect to the Premom app I also bought some OPKs strips. I didn't receive them until after I had ovulated.
However, I keep being told they're high. And the number doesn't even seem to relate to any other I've seen on anyone else's. I've posted a pic below.
As you can see there is an LH decline today but it still says high.

And this is my chart....

@Remembermee To be honest, high and low don't mean much, it's the peak that matters (where the test line is as or darker than the control). You have already ovulated, so all the strips tell you now is that you are not about to ovulate again. 🤣
Your baseline LH levels might be "high", per what these strips detect, it's nothing to worry about.
Best of luck! 🧚🏼‍♀️

Ah thanks @elosieislost. That is reassuring!

Ah so sorry to hear of your news @birdbybird and @Makingnumber2 my heart goes out to you.

There's a girl I work with who had a god awful time in 2019/early 2020 with at least 3 misscariges at around 6w. I'm planning on telling my department on tue (bosses already know), and I absolutely hated the idea of her having this bombshell just appear, so I messaged her last night, and we ended up having a really lovely conversation. I feel super guilty that I made her sad with my news, but I'm also glad I was able to talk to her on her own 1st.

My heart genuinely goes out to her, and all you other ladies who are going through utterly shit times. I really wish I could help or comfort you all.

I'll keep everything crossed as always for those of you who are SI-ing, or in the tww x

Hi all,
I am not posting anymore to not bring anyone down. I am 11 weeks now and had another positive scan.

I wanted to just send you all love, hugs and encouragement: i had three horrendous years with odds stacked against me, my DH’s ED which caused tension between us, I got depressed, gained weight, had 3 MC and recently lost my job (and 15K paid maternity leave).
In the meantime 3 work colleagues got pregnant, 3 of my cousins, 2 close friends and my SIL twice. I hate to admit it but all these pregnancies hurt so much. I also spent around 3K on fertility treatments and test, vitamins, acupuncture, TCM and OPKs.

I just wanted to share this to let you know that there is light at the end of the tunnel and hopefully for all of us ☀️🌈💕
Look after yourselves, be kind and gentle, it’s a tough road but you got this. Xxxx

And thank you for all the love, encouragement, tips and support I received in this forum. I wouldn’t be pregnant without you all. Thank you

Hi everyone, thanks for the words of encouragement.

@AdriannaP I feel genuinely happy for you and please stick around (your story gives me hope). Although part of me thinks any new baby I now have won’t be the one I lost :(
I’ve handwritten a note to the little one and feel I’m on the road to recovery. Went out for an actual walk and that helped too.

Hello ladies, checking in after a couple of weeks away. @birdbybird & @Makingnumber2 my heart goes out to the both of you - no woman should have to go through this. Birdy, i’m so glad that putting pen to paper has helped - I also find writing theraupetic. @AdriannaP thank you for a lovely message too and so glad you got your happy outcome after a couple of harrowing years. ❤️

Hope all of you other ladies are doing okay - a few of us have been here for a while now, it doesn’t get easier... Hope you’re all taking good care of your mental health through all of this - I decided to learn a new instrument and bought myself a keyboard 🎹 I can’t control what my body does re pregnancy, but I can teach it some new skills!

Quick update from me:

• Husband redid his SA and it is now completely within norm 🎉 His morphology and motility were below norm when we first did it six months ago and then slowly both have improved every time we redid the SA since (twice now). I feel super proud of him as I know a lot of this is down to him improving his lifestyle. Now we’re like, “if we’re both crazy fertile, please can we get pregnant?!”
• We spoke to our fertility doctor and decided that we’re not going to bother with IUI anymore as it improves our chances ever so slightly and likely we’d need to commit to at least three rounds. So if we do end up doing anything medically assisted, we’ll go straight for IVF. We’ve decided to give it two more cycles - as this is when it will be exactly a year since my MC and most couple our age should get pregnant within a year.

It sucks to know there is nothing “wrong” with you and that you just keep losing the lottery month after month - but I keep telling myself that this is exactly what ttc is, a big fat lottery. Hoping we get our winning numbers soon 🤞🏼

@bitheby Try not to think about the "what if"s of everything. Everything (even some of the truly shit things) must happen for a reason. And it's not like there's a college course in TTC this way is there? Really if anyone is blame the clinic you went to initially as they'll all know the NHS guidelines and should have steered you there. Anyway. It is what it is now so try to keep your spirit up however you can ❤️ are you talking to anyone in your life about everything? It must be a bit lonely doing it on your own!

Makingnumber2 & birdy I'm so sorry for you both. I hope you're getting lots of support and taking as much time as you need.

@AdriannaP I'm so happy that everything is going well for you ❤️ thanks so much for your lovely post, it's really inspiring Xx

@primrosechill I'm impressed you're doing something creative as an outlet! That's fab news about your husband's SA! I'm very impressed. Can I be nosy and ask what improvements he's made? Hubs has his SA tomorrow 😬 so worried about the results. Not sure what we can really do if they aren't great. You're right about it being a lottery. I'm sick to death of it now. I hope it happens for you before IVF. If you book IVF and get pregnant just before do you still have to pay for it?

CD1 for me today. 3/4 days early. 😕
I get my blood tests results back tomorrow. I expect they'll all be "normal" and I just have to wait.

Birdbybird and makingnumber2 (I haven’t tagged you both as want to respect your wishes) I am so sorry for your losses, please take time for yourselves and look after yourselves. Sending so much love to you both 😔

@AdriannaP I can’t speak on behalf of the other ladies on this thread but personally your posts are encouraging and help me keep positive. So please don’t feel like you can’t post here. I would love to hear more about your milestones in pregnancy and beyond!

@primrosechill great idea with learning a new skill, how is it going? Great news about your Partners sperm results too! I hope that over the next 2 cycles you get your lottery number 😀!

@MrsKin90 have your blood test results come back yet?

I am currently in the 2WW.. 5DPO. Trying to keep busy and as occupied as possible. Doing my best not to obsess this month. If AF shows it straight onto the hospital to book my hycosy so either way I see some sort of positive this month.

Hope everyone else is doing ok?