Hi ladies, an update from me. I’m afraid it wasn’t to be for our little potential baby after all. I took a Clearblue weeks indicator test on Saturday at what should have been 5 weeks 2 days, so I was hoping to see 3 weeks + or at least 2-3 weeks, but it only said 1-2 weeks. My heart sank but I tried to tell myself those tests are a con because the range of normal HCG levels early on is so wide.
I then got some twinging yesterday morning on my right side. It wasn’t even that painful tbh but combined with the low hcg I was worried about an ectopic. I spoke to GP who sent me off to A&E so I could ask them for a blood test. I was wondering if it was all OTT at that point. Doc did a hospital urine PG test which is less sensitive than an over the counter one - deliberately, so they only show pregnancies likely to be 5 weeks+. It was negative. He said it was probably a threatened miscarriage so might go either way and to take another test in a week. But just after I got home I started lightly bleeding. Then incredibly intense cramping started around 4am. It quite literally floored me for a while but only lasted half an hour or so. I hope it was my body being very efficient and trying to make this process as short as possible for me. I’m seeing the EPU for a scan today or tomorrow so they can confirm what I already know really.
I’m quite sobbed out and v tired now, but ok. DP being wonderful. I’ve been questioning everything I did but I know I’ve been so healthy and careful so it just wasn’t meant to be. I had a little chat with my stomach on Saturday - “if you’re ok, please hang on, but if you’re not ok, it’s ok to go and please don’t make me wait too long.” So that helps a little bit.
Next time I’m not going to symptom spot at all. I know I can get pregnant now, so I’ll just hold onto that. I’ll stick to no booze (though I bloody want a few glasses of red at the weekend), watch what I eat and take the prenatal vitamins, then wait for AF to be 2 weeks late before testing. The 2WW wait might be hard, but it’s not harder than this! I don’t want to stare at lines and keep my fingers crossed for weeks on end - it’s just not worth it when nothing I can do will change the result.
So.. yeh.. that’s me. Sorry not to have more positive news to bring to the group. I may be a bit quiet on MN for a bit but if someone starts a new thread when this one runs out please do tag me in and I may join back in!
@Brightspark12 I’m so sorry for your loss as well. It’s sad and confusing and exhausting but time heals all Xx