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Just starting a new thread on self insemination before our first one locks down!

39 pages of highs and lows and THE most supportive group you could wish for if you’re starting or on a self insemination journey.

💚✨ good luck ✨💚

@Birchybirch ahhhh I’m moving to Manchester then!

You’re definitely right about the postcode lottery it’s so unfair, I only have access to one cycle and my friend slightly down the road (well 15mins away) has three cycles.

Fingers crossed we get our appointments soon, you never know, we might even by cycle buddies lol.

@MrsKin90 Oh no so sorry to hear this :(. All I can say is your feelings are totally valid, and natural and understandable and you should allow yourself them. Just have a good cry if you need to 😢😢.

@ComebackQueen omg how utterly awful and hurtful 😡. So sorry you had to go through that.

Amazing news on your referral though!! Congratulations 🎊 🎉 and a great way to start 2021.

@ComebackQueen ah that's awful to hear that she treated you that way!

@MrsKin90 I echo @Bizawit and @ComebackQueen it's perfectly acceptable to get upset. My favourite saying is "this too shall pass" It may not feel like it right now, it may take a few days, or it may take longer, but one day, you won't feel like this. Its important too not to be in a rush to get past the feelings you have. They're perfectly valid emotions, that need to run their course. I've mentioned this before, but a hearty shower cry is one I can personally recommend...! 🙂

@ComebackQueen that's truly awful of your "friend". I can't understand that. Surely she'd have wanted to share the joy with you in that situation after you basically being part of her journey? I wonder if you were the only person who knew she'd has IVF and she wanted everyone to think it was unassisted conception?! I know you can't know these things but I'd have had to ask her why she was such a donkey about it. Bless you for being such a lush friend.

Thank you ladies for your kindness, it really does help to let it out and have people be so understanding.
"This too shall pass" will be my mantra for a few days! Today has been a bit of a shit storm for bad news and I've had more than enough and might go to bed 😂 nothing can get you once you go to bed, isn't that the rule???

I keep saying to myself that if she wasn't pregnant I still wouldn't be pregnant so it makes no difference to my journey but fucking hell my heart aches. She also said (non judgmentally with no idea we've been trying for a while or at all) "it's now or never as we're getting too old". She's the same age as me 😭 I've felt sick to my stomach ever since and can't get warm lol I think "pregnancy envy" is an actual illness and I should be entitled to sick time off of work!!

@MrsKin90 I so totally get you!!! I couldn't get out of bed for 2 days straight when my best friend of 25 years announced she's pregnant back in June. And we hadn't even started TTC then!! She gave birth the day of my miscarriage. Life has a very cruel sense of humour…! I love her to bits but I had so many dark thoughts, I hated myself. She had an abortion at 14 weeks in her early twenties because she wasn't ready, with the man she eventually had this baby with. And while I am pro-choice 110%, there was a bitter, horrible part of me that thought "it's not fair, she gets what she wants, when she wants it and here I am bleeding out my first and very wanted pregnancy". I hate myself even typing this but I hope it helps you feel better about how you feel right now. Sending virtual hugs 🤗

@ComebackQueen Your friend sounds toxic and her behaviour is not a reflection on you. Sometimes things like these in the long term are for the best. You got rid of someone who never deserved your kindness and friendship!

@eloiseislost I have horrible thoughts too 🙁 another close friend already had one baby, started trying at the same time as us, got pregnant straight away but had an early loss, but then got pregnant straight away after that and her baby is already two months old! I can't believe it and we've not had a single bfp. I would never wish a miscarriage in anyway on anyone ever, but can't believe they've been through so much in the same amount of time and we've not achieved anything 🥺 it's not a competition and not comparable but I feel like I'm never ever getting pregnant. I'm having lots of EWCM today and feeling hopeless. I'm sure I get that around this time every cycle 😢 I think really we just need to get hubby's sperm tested so that will be what we do in the new year.

@MrsKin90 I'm so sorry you're feeling like this at the moment. It's totally understandable that you do, but doesn't make it any easier. I am sure your friend would be mortified to know that her comment made you feel so terrible- I do wish people would be more mindful of things like this- you just never ever know what people are going through when it comes to TTC and even if you don't know someone is TTC I just think it's always better to err on side of caution and sensitivity!
Getting DH's sperm checked in New Year is a really positive step that will hopefully bring you one step further forward on your journey to a BFP. I hope you're feeling a bit better this morning after a night's sleep? Sending a hug

@ComebackQueen I am so sorry that happened to you- that is devastatingly nasty. You're undoubtedly better off without someone that toxic in your life. I am so stunned that people even behave like this...!

Thanks everyone! You're all so lovely 😊 ❤️
@Makingnumber2 I didn't sleep well, but the weather is better today so that's a good start! I've woken up feeling really sick, probably too much stressing yesterday, so trying to just breathe through the drama today. How are you doing lovely?

How is everyone else doing?

Sorry for monopolising the thread for my woe-is-me meltdown!

@ComebackQueen oh just reading that made me angry! How disrespectful to you and after you were such a good friend! I really do sometimes loose faith in humanity- just seems to be so many nasty people around now days. You are better of without her.

@MrsKin90 I totally get how you feel... I feel the same I keep thinking it’s so unfair we have been trying for nearly a year and a half and in that time I’ve had about 15 people I know get pregnant and I can’t cope... I try to avoid fb now. On the other hand there is anyways someone out there going through a harder journey... I’ve had all the tests I can have and I'm told I’m completely normal, same as hubby. There are some people who are not normal and I should be grateful that we are healthy. I truly believe our time will come but just have to be patient-one day this will all be worth it. I really want to have a few drinks tomorrow as it’s only me abd hubby now on Christmas Day but I’m DPO6 and not sure if I should-I brought some alcohol free wine 🤣 prob taste like crap haha xx

@Lori23TTC I love alcohol free wine! It tastes just like wine but doesn't give you a hangover! 😁

@eloiseislost oh brilliant I’ll stick with that then! Pretend I’m drinking 🤣 xx

Hello lovely women - just wanted to say that I know the next few days can be extraordinarily hard and I want to let you know that I think you’re all amazing ❤️ i should have stayed away from social media today - way too many posts of babies in cute santa outfits or pregnant women saying it’s their last celebration before the “+1” in their families. It’s hard. But I am amazingly lucky in that I get to be with my fam right now, I know so many people can’t, so I choose to count my blessings. Look after yourselves ❤️❤️❤️

@Lori23TTC I'd definitely just have normal wine 😂 saying that I've not bought any alcohol! You're right, I'm sure our time will come for each and every one of us ❤️

@primrosechill social media is not good for any of us at this time of year is it? I'm trying to focus on all of the things I feel lucky to have right now and have found its helped me through the day!

Wishing you lovely people as beautiful a Christmas as you can have and praying for some wonderful news for as many of us as possible in the next week or two 🎄🙏🤞🥰

Hey all, AF came tonight 2 days late and I am utterly gutted 😢😢😢. Horrible timing and cried my eyes out.

Hope everyone’s having a happier Christmas Eve than me, and finding ways to celebrate despite all the covid madness. ❤️

Oh @Bizawit I'm so sorry ☹️ what absolutely rubbish timing!! I'm gutted for you!

So sorry @Bizawit - utterly rubbish timing. Piss off AF!

@Bizawit I'm so sorry about AF arriving, on Christmas Eve no less! I swear, AF is sentient, she is really messing with us sometimes. 😔 Try to enjoy Christmas, it's not what any of us imagined, but we're still here and we are doing our best. Here's to a better Christmas for you next year, and for all of us! 😘

Merry Christmas everyone! You are an amazing bunch of strong, determined women and you all deserve the best. May the festive lights shine on the paths to our dreams, no matter how short or long and windy they may be. 🙂 🎄
PS: I hope Santa is good to you all too! 🎅🏻

@Bizawit ah so sorry to hear about af coming last night, that really is horrid timing!

I hope you all have a lovely Christmas break! It certainly is a bit different this year! X

@Bizawit so sorry to hear AF showed- what a cow to turn up late on Xmas eve. I hope you are ok

Wishing all of you a lovely Christmas Day- for lots of us it isn’t what we imagined or planned but that’s a lot like life really and it doesn’t mean we can’t or shouldn’t find the joy in it where we can. My Christmas wish for all of you is that by next Christmas there’s a bump or a baby enjoying the special day xx

10dpo today and started cramping loads so I’m pretty sure my first round of iui didnt work and I’m out - I just hope that AF lets me enjoy the remainder of christmas and doesnt show her ugly face until tomorrow earliest. Hope everyone is having a peaceful and joyful time ❤️

@primrosechill I hope it's not AF for you 🙁 sometimes we do know our bodies best of course, but lots of people experience cramps before BFPs? How does iui work, do you have to just wait and see or do they bring you back in for blood tests to check? 😕 Sorry for my ignorance, all I really know about fertility treatments has probably come from TV! (That ever reliable source of information).
I hope AF stays away so you can enjoy the rest of Christmas!

Thank you all for your kind words. I’m feeling a bit better. Just got to keep trying I guess. I think I might go back to the cup this month. (Last round I mainly syringed, but not convinced I was doing it very effectively..)

@primrosechill got everything crossed for your that AF stays away.

Xx

@Bizawit definitely keep tryingMaybe you could do a mixture this cycle? One time do the cup method, and syringe the next day etc. Best of both then 😊

@Bizawit That's the spirit, you just have to keep trying! As much as the odds seem against us, the reality is that the vast majority of couples eventually conceive. It's just a matter of keeping your sanity until then! Easier said than done of course…!

@primrosechill I really hope it's not AF. Keeping my fingers crossed for you! 🤞🏼

We had a lovely Christmas Day with DH's family and my brother, we are still eating the leftovers today. Santa brought me the gift of insanity because I'm 5DPO according to FF (8DPO according to Premom 🤷🏻‍♀️) and I'm convinced I have symptoms. 🤦🏻‍♀️ Each and every one of them can be explained by the festivities: nausea (too much food), fatigue (too much food AND drink), dizziness (see previous entry), constipation (diet rich in sugar, processed carbs, fat and booze). Oh well! I think this is just my brain trying to forget about the MC and giving me something else to obsess over.

I hope everyone is having a nice, relaxed day. Don't lose hope, no matter what! ❤️

@MrsKin90 that’s a good idea- I think I’ll try that. I think I’ll also try temping this month, as I’m not sure I’m getting my ovulation right. If I calculate by when I think I ovulated each month , my luteal phase is varying from 12-16 days! But I don’t think it’s supposed to change that much 🤔.

How are you getting on? You must be almost at the end of the 2ww? X