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[Oilyoilyoilgob]

Just starting a new thread on self insemination before our first one locks down!

39 pages of highs and lows and THE most supportive group you could wish for if you’re starting or on a self insemination journey.

💚✨ good luck ✨💚

@Lori23TTC yes trying to be positive 😊 I'll hopefully be in my tww on Xmas day (or coming to the end of it) and will be too busy to obsess about it 😅 maybe. With my FF chart I say I do it at the same time everyday even if it's 30 mins difference. If it's more than that I record the actual time but I can't deal with seeing all the triangles 😂 not too many days to go for you 🤞🤞 how are you doing?

@Nej1983 yes, we will opt for the unmedicated IUI first - I have no known fertility issues and my husband's sperm volume is healthy so I think we're try the most natural route first and see how we go from here.

@MrsKin90 @Lori23TTC thanks for the lovely words. I know 10DPO is early but it's also when I first found out I was pregnant back in April - so even though I know every pregnancy is different, somehow I've managed to convince myself that this definitely means I'm out... I'm also super irritable today which again could be a sign of 787878 things, but in my mind it's already a clear cut PMS symptom.

My due date, had it not been for the MC, would have been 17th Dec - so I'm bracing myself for the fact that I will almost certainly NOT be pregnant on that day and probably serve myself a right meltdown. Bucket of mulled wine, anyone?

Hello - can I join? Catching up! In the midst of the agonising 2ww and googling everything conception. We are trying for number 2, this is the first month of trying.

Our DS is now 18mo, it took us 11 cycles to get pregnant with him so whilst I know I shouldn't be too hopeful, I can't help seeing pregnancy symptoms everywhere! Cycle totally wacky since having him and still bfing which doesn't help.

My husband struggles to finish during sex so we use a syringe, sterile cup and soft cup to keep it all up there. Think we used preseed too last time. Saying that, we were away when I got pregnant with my DS and ended up using a syringe and, ahem, sterilised egg cup. They've become something of a lucky charm for us now .

Hi everyone! Well guess what, I started my period today and my god I’m having THE worst cramps. I knew it due to these huge red bumpy spots and insatiable hunger. This is early for me as my tracker estimated another 6 days, I estimated another 4 as my average is 34 days. I think my hormones have been knocked off balance with the early miscarriage end of sept, as I bled for 2 weeks with that, then got my last period just three weeks after on 31/10 (thanks to @MrsKin90 for checking 😙)
So that epic 13 days of syringing came to zilch ☹️ Part of me is thinking ok, with stress and upcoming stress of my girl either having an operation or having to be put to sleep it’s maybe better so I’m not early pg and very stressed combined but then at the same time I’m gutted. But I will keep cracking on and we might see about ivf next year.
I know syringing works though so I’m keeping the faith.

@primrosechill i hope you’re ok about the negative, I’m out the running but you and @Lori23TTC seem to be similar timings. Fingers crossed still for you both and like we always say you’re not out until your period arrives.

Sorry I missed who said they told their friend who said ‘stop trying and it’ll happen’ I know people mean well but I wish people would just say ‘I really hope it’ll happen’ or something like that because if it was as easy as stopping trying we’d all be pregnant 😏
Especially then when there is such a huge range of things going on behind the scenes like on here, ED, vaginismus etc

I actually need to stop now or I’ll just have a long pmt rant!

I hope everyone is ok, and staying healthy and happy. I’m going to go on a big walk when husband is back to try keep up some level of fitness and movement! I’m loving seeing people’s Christmas lights up now it’s dark early 😊 xx

@Oilyoilyoilgob sorry you got your period, lovely! and sorry it's a painful one, ouch - a lot of cramping on here nowadays! Ha. Sorry the 13 consecutive inseminations didn't pay off this time but my god you guys deserve a medal for it regardless!

And I TOTALLY get what you're saying about people who say "Stop trying and it'll happen" - sorry I missed that earlier, @MrsKin90! So not helpful. People assume that because they can have sex whenever, wherever, others can too, but for me and so many of us on here sadly "stopping trying" does not work at all! I know people mean well but wish they were more aware of all that and maybe they would bite their tongues before speaking!!

@MrsCremuel welcome 😊 I hope your tww flies by and has bfp happy ending! Fingers crossed for you 🤞

@primrosechill I can't imagine how hard that date is going to be for you. Make sure you give yourself time to be sad and don't try too hard to power through. Sadness is actually good for us sometimes and helps us move through our feelings and feel better afterwards. We'll all be here if you need to get things off of your chest! You're definitely not out, but I think we all need someone to tell us that when we get a BFN or are worrying ❤️ I will be praying for BFPs for both you and @Lori23TTC!!

@Oilyoilyoilgob I'm so sorry AF has arrived earlier than expected!! Maybe it is a horrible blessing in disguise in that you've got a lot on your plate right now (saying it but don't really believe it 😅), the positive is you know you can do that much syringing if needed? And you know now your cycles might be a bit wonky so to start SI accordingly for the next cycle? I can also be very grumpy and negative with you if you prefer, sometimes you need a bit of "fuck this shit" solidarity! 😊

I'm trying vaginal application this cycle but otherwise not changing anything. Not sure what else we can actually try other than getting healthier!

@primrosechill cross posted with you 😊 the other thing someone said to me the other day is 'you don't really seem that fussed about having babies anyway" which actually made me start to cry 😳 because I don't walk around talking about how we're trying all day I must not want any at all! 🙄 People should just keep their opinions to themselves really.

@MrsKin90 yes I’d love some Fuck This Shit! Tbh yes with stuff going on it’s logically for the best and my brain is thinking that, but of course there’s the hope. Sigh

People can really be insensitive or not think huh? The very odd occasion I’ve known of a friends/family struggle I do err towards the neutral but kind ‘I really hope it works’ etc.
No one needs to hear if you relax it’ll happen. If you stop thinking about it, it will happen’ etc I have also never commented on when people might get engaged/married/have babies etc, it’s so intrusive and I know from a family member who went through many unsuccessful struggles with ivf, no one needs to be getting the third degree about stuff ☹️

I hope you are ok. Big hugs.

I’ll get back on the sticks this month after period.

@primrosechill if you need to come on here to talk, cry, rant anything about the upcoming date please know we are here for you 💚 xx

Fuck this shit indeed!! It's positive that we never lose that hope though as it's what spurs us on I think to try agaib.
People just don't think before they say stuff, and I'm sure it doesn't come from a horrible place. My wonderful MIL keeps telling me how much weight her other DIL has lost and because I am awful and jealous I feel like rolling my eyes 😂 especially because I have gained so much since stopping birth control I'm blaming a lot of it on hormones but I can't tell anyone that so they obvs all think I'm eating cake all day (they're not always wrong though 😬).

@Oilyoilyoilgob I hope things going okay with your lovely cat's MRI tomorrow (I think it's tomorrow?). Will be thinking of you and hoping for the best!

@Oilyoilyoilgob @MrsKin90 thank you for being so kind 💚 and bloody funny as well - this tread is in equal measures support group and a comic relief on a regular basis! Oily, thinking about you and your fluffy friend, too.

Plot twist this morning in my TTC saga/drama! My temp went up again (in fact it's the highest it's been all week) AND I threw up this morning. I feel pretty under the weather today so I think it might very well be a sign of a cold/stomach bug (plus I think it would be way too early for morning sickness?), but I have decided to hold onto some hope after all 😬 What a strange state when you're EXCITED about throwing up 😂

@primrosechill 😱 that IS a plot twist. Hopefully it's not a bug, but a bean! 🤞🤞 I am sorry you're feeling under the weather though so hope it's all for a good reason. Fingers super tightly crossed!
😂 I absolutely cannot wait to throw up, I genuinely day dream about it like a right weirdo. It's the only part of pregnancy I can actually imagine.

@MrsKin90 thank you for the FTS I needed that! Yes we are there at 12.30 today, I’m scared.
I have had a lovely couple of days with her and had a good chat with her yesterday. Telling her that her and her sister are the best cats ever and how much she is loved and adored 💚

@primrosechill omg that is a plot twist 😮 yes sickness can deffo come early. In sept pregnancy I believe I ovulated 5th sept, I started getting retching and sickness from the 15th Sept, along with a metallic taste and absolutely crazy vivid dreams. I already knew I was pg before I took the tests on the 21st.
I’m keeping my fingers very much crossed for you and whether it’s a bean 🤞🏻 Or a bug I hope you feel better soon xx

@Oilyoilyoilgob I hope it went okay today and I'm sure your cats are in no doubt about how absolutely adored they are ❤️🐈

How is everyone else?! I hope everyone is getting on alright.

Well girls I’m cracking up at the moment. This two week wait is driving me loola! I could have sworn it was 11dpo but it’s only 6!! Why does it feel like an eternity 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️
The waiting game is getting old, waiting for AF, waiting for fertile window, waiting for peak, waiting for ovulation waiting to test, I’m sick shit of waiting!!! 😬🤷🏻‍♀️😬🤷🏻‍♀️

@Oilyoilyoilgob that's super interesting that you had morning sickness so early. When I got pregnant back in April, I had no symptoms at all - just felt completely normal with the only exception of suddenly feeling really dizzy when I went to sleep ay 9DPO. Tested the next morning and it was a positive.

I haven't been feeling any nausea since the quick vomit this morning but I have been feeling generally very ran down - I ended up taking the day off, just sleeping it off and watching loads of netflix in bed ha. Just sitting and waiting like you, @Nej1983 ;)

Oily, I hope your cat's appointment went well - or as well as it could.

@MrsKin90 I LOLed so hard at your comment about how you can't wait to be throwing up hahaha - I'm sure it's nothing like the Hollywood movies!

@primrosechill fingers crossed it’s a sticky bean and not a sicky bug that’s making you hurl. 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻
Honestly sounds like a day in heaven, off work in bed watching Netflix! Well overdue a a day in bed. In other news, besides cracking up waiting I keep thinking I’m feeling implantation cramping 😅😅 except it keeps changing sides!! 😂 so it seems I’m officially losing my senses!

@Nej1983 it definitely feels more like a "two week-year" rather than a two week wait! 6dpo is almost half way?? 😊 It's funny how when TTC we want desperately to ovulate and then we want the tww to be over asap and if it's a BFN we want AF to come and go NOW so we can get back to waiting for another TWW 🙄 the things we do to ourselves!! I usually make it to about 9dpo before I properly lose my mind 😂 fingers crossed those are implantation cramps and you're having twins?! 😋

@primrosechill sounds like you needed a relaxing day off! I'm sure morning sickness isn't as lovely as TV makes it seem 😂 I like to think I'd just be so bloody grateful to finally get pregnant I wouldn't care but I'm sure everyone feels that way until they can't keep their breakfast down!

@MrsKin90 wouldn’t twins be amazing! 😍

6dpo & 8 days until AF And then the waiting begins again 😅😅😅 it’s a vicious cycle that we are all stuck in

Hi all, hope everyone is OK!? @oilyoilyoilgob I hope the news is positive about your cat.

God yeah I'm with you all on the waiting, and the wishing time away. Like you say, you wish af week away, then wish for ovulation to come, then wish for your tww to hurry up and finish. We ended up si-ing for about 12 days this cycle, because I misread a cheapie opk early on in my cycle and thought it was a peak. Ooops! CB gave me my peak only a few days after af finished, then a few days later my cheapies did too, so we basically just carried on. Thankful my husbands not gone blind, and it's not dropped off, despite the warnings I used to hear as a kid 😅

I try really hard not to symptom spot, but my boobs have been aching a little. That could very well be simply down to the fact that I hardly ever wear a bra anymore though.

I also hate the comments from others about trying/not trying. A woman at work used to make throwaway comments like "pregnant are you?" if I was ever unwell/ravenous/going into a meeting with my boss. Thankfully I've not seen her since March, so she's not made comments since we've been trying.

Hope everyone is keeping hold of their sanity as best they can! Hopefully one day we will all look back on this time with fond memories...! X

Another BFN today, another temp drop + I woke up to a phone notification from femometer app reminding me that my period is approaching. Thanks phone, I think I figured that one out myself 😓

I hate how every cycle we manage to convince ourselves that it will be THE cycle. I started getting some bad anxiety the last couple of months as well - I keep thinking that something is wrong with my body because of the long MC earlier in the year, even though I know all of my tests came back fine. Maybe 2020 wasn’t meant to be our year - is it anyone’s?! Normally this is the time I would start getting festive and excited about christmas - instead I just feel really deflated.

Hi everyone! Well, I've had quite an adventure and it looks like I will be back in the TTC game soon. 😞
Yesterday morning I noticed a tiny amount of pink mucus when wiping, didn't think much of it but kept an eye. By evening, it had turned to bright red spotting and mild cramps. Went in the EPU, they took bloods and sent me home with paracetamol. 2 hours later I was doubled over in pain, so I went back in the EPU. Bleeding hadn't gotten any worse. They gave me codeine which gave me some, but not complete, relief. Then my results came back and apparently, even though I'm sure I'm 6w2, my hcg is too low and they couldn't give me a scan. It was 3am at that point and I just didn't ask about the specific number, all I wanted was to go home and sleep. They said EPU will call me in the morning.
I know I'm miscarrying, but it's so physically painful, I have no feelings about it, I'm just trying to get through the pain.
Sorry to be a downer, but I know some of us have had similar experiences and it's comforting to be able to talk about it.
Hugs to all, I hope everyone is OK! 💖

Oh no @eloiseislost that sounds horrid. So sorry to hear that!

@eloiseislost oh Eloise I am so sorry to hear this (you actually made me cry reading your message) my heart goes out to you and I hope you can find the strength to get through this 🥰 we are all here for you. Will you be going back to the EPU today? X

@eloiseislost I am so sorry to hear about this, my heart is breaking for you - it is such a lonely and horrible thing to go through and it's completely unfair how often it happens. Let us know what the EPU says today and please take some time off if you can to really take care after yourself. I was a bit like you when it happened to me earlier in the year - slightly detached at first and then it hit me like a brick. Just know you have a lot of us on here who have gone through something similar, like you said, and we'll be here to lend a virtual shoulder when you're ready to chat about this ❤️

@Birchybirch @Lori23TTC @primrosechill
Thank you for your kind words girls! 💕
I'm waiting for a phone call from the EPU to discuss the plan.
The pain isn't as bad this morning and the bleeding is minimal, so it looks like it will drag on… Cervix was closed last night still.
And it's DH's birthday of all days! He's been absolutely amazing, I hope to feel well enough to wrap his gifts and have a nice meal later.