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[MummyToPrince]

Heey ladies :-)
@RBCoxie
@Supermathsdoc
@robodo
@BellaBella84
@BettyM90

I need to phone early in the morning they don’t give out appointments in advance you need to phone early in the morning to get one for the same day🙄@MummyToPrince
Think I’m going to give preseed a miss this month as it would’ve worked by now

Hi everyone

I’ve had a bit of a stressful 24 hours as my donor went awol, he’s just emailed to say he decided to extend his holiday ....he said he will come tomorrow meaning hopefully we could do the insemination on Wednesday.

All this has definitely wiped out my zen calm! Luckily I don’t have signs that I’ve ovulated yet so if he can make it back it may not be too late....

@MummyToPrince so glad to hear the sickness has subsided and how exciting that you’ve had scan!! I can’t even begin to imagine how awesome that was x

How are you getting on @BettyM90

@Supermathsdoc sorry its taken soo long to reply, I've really struggled with sickness today, I can't keep water down I just want to cry at the moment lol... I hate talking about myself on here it makes me feel selfish because I know what you girls are going through... How has your week been?

@MummyToPrince oh no, sorry to hear you havnt been feeling good. It sounds awful, but I really hope it passes for you soon.

In the end I don’t think this has been my best shot. I didn’t get much of an LH rise, got a very early patch of EWCM which was gone by Monday....My temps have been all over the place I think due to waking up at different times and going to visit my folks. Then of course the stress of my donors last minute holiday extension!

In the end he came round this morning but I feel sure I’ve already ovulated and wasn’t particularly fertile. Luckily I have my holiday on Monday and then Christmas so will be busy, hopefully too busy to obsess! Period is due on Christmas Eve....x

Hey. Not so good. Lost the baby.

Oh no. @BellaBella36 I’m so sorry to hear this. I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through and how you must be feeling. I am thinking of you and if it feels like you want to offload about it, I am here. But equally there is obviously no pressure even to reply to this.

Take much care x

Thank you so much @Supermathsdoc. My knee jerk reaction was to delete everything off my phone and hide away. Then I remembered how helpful you guys have always been. Most of the time it just hurts and I'm scared. But the pain and bleeding seem to be easing off now. And I know I need to start to try to leave the house. Can't avoid the world forever.

Had to have a quick name change as I couldn't remember my details to log back in to MN after going on my anything baby related cull. I have no idea whether we'll try again yet, but I can't even imagine the level of paranoia that will go with that!

@BellaBella36 I can’t even begin to imagine. I hope you’ve been able to surround yourself with support and that you’re getting the time and space you need to grieve.

Cutting all the MN and related things makes total sense to me. I wish I knew better what to say, but i am definitely am here if that can be helpful x

@BellaBella36 I'm so so sorry, exactly what @Supermathsdoc said we are here if you ever need to offload. My heart is breaking for you, be kind to yourself and take as much time as you need x

@BellaBella36 I’m so sorry, I can’t imagine what you must be going through. Please know that you are not on your own and always here if you want to talk. I hope you are being kind to yourself xx

So sorry to hear that, be kind to yourself ❤️ @BellaBella36

How is everyone feeling today x

Hi @MummyToPrince how are you getting on?

I’m good thanks. This is cycle #6 for me so I’ve eased off the symptom spotting a bit! That said I had some quite intense cramps at 5DPO which I don’t think I’ve had before.

I had to cancel my trip to the canaries as the government advice changed, but the busyness of Christmas has meant the 2WW is passing ok.

I’ll be testing on Tuesday (13DPO) that way I’ll know if I can have a drink at Christmas !

@BellaBella36 you’re obviously still in our thoughts. Hope you’re as good as can be x

@Supermathsdoc I'm good thank you :-) that's a shame about your holiday! But I'm glad it's not dragging for you... Me and RBCoxie had intense cramping around that time, they were really bad cramps.. Ooo do you think you will test early or stick to Tuesday?

@BellaBella36 I hope your ok

@MummyToPrince oooo did you?? It’s not something I have noticed before (and I keep extensive notes!!) and at one point it made me catch my breath.

I’m not super hopeful as I had an appointment with my gynae doctor who did a scan and said there’s a 5mm polyp on my uterus and she wants to remove it..... apparently it can improve fertility but I feel a bit scared. It would be so awesome if I could get pregnant and not have to go through all that.... x

Just currently waiting for ovulation, I’ve made a appointment, she wants to do my bloods to see if I’m ovulating on Christmas Eve, but I’m sure I’m going to ovulate in the next few days, don’t know if it will show up in my bloods or will it be to late.
After the blood test if still no luck this month she said she will refer me to a gyno
Everything seems to be soooo slow paced

Oh darlin @BellaBella36 I'm so so sorry for your loss 💐 You must be so heartbroken, but yeah these girls are super kind and helpful and a good support. Another wasted month for me. Cried myself to sleep last night. Was in bits. Getting really worried now. At least my OH was really good about it just cuddled me and let me cry it out. I too just feel like giving up and hiding I understand. Fuck crying again, aw your news really hit me Bella. I can't imagine how hard this must be. I really wish I could just be one of those women who didn't care about having a family and I really regret telling people we were trying. It just doesn't seem worth all this heartache. I'm sorry I'm gonna go I'm probably not helping. Too wrapped up in my own shit right now to be any comfort or say the right things but my hearts with you.

Sitting here repeating the serenity pray. It's helping a bit.

'Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference'

I just hate that something so important is so completely uncontrollable!

Right wobble over. I'm gonna have a glass of wine and go Christmas shopping to distract myself. This crying isn't helping shit and I feel like such a dick knowing your struggling way more @BellaBella36. Keep strong babe ❤️

@Marri1995 Saw your post and had to comment - I'm also having a blood test on Christmas eve to check if I'm ovulating! What a coincidence haha. Is yours a progesterone test? From what I understand, they check your progesterone at 'day 21' which is roughly in the middle of your luteal phase, around 7dpo. That test shows if you have ovulated or not. Are you also doing the day 1-5 test? Have you had any other tests before?

I don’t even know which test I’m having, I just told her about my late miscarriage last year and early this year told her it’s been a year since I’ve been trying, and she said to come in to do a blood test to see if I’m ovulating. I don’t know if it’s a progesterone test. This is my first test I’ve never had any before this. My test is on cd 23, I’ve not ovulated this month yet so I don’t know how many dpo I will be then. Let me know how you get on @acaciabluebell

What is the day 1-5 tests? @

@Marri1995 Basically they check your hormone levels at day 2-5 of your cycle and again at day 21-ish. They focus on different hormones for each test. I think the day 1-3 test looks at LH and FSH levels. The day 21 test looks at progesterone and can indicate if you have ovulated. I think I ovulated yesterday (CD19) and booked my test for CD27 which is my equivalent of Day 22. Have you been booked for other tests, like scans or internal tests/swabs/smear test? When I had my first telephone call with the GP she listed a lot of tests that me and my husband need to do, but it seems like it's going to take a while to get everything done.

No she didn’t mention anything, all she said was we will do your blood tests on Christmas eve and if you don’t have any success this month I will refer you to a gyno, a gyno usually works in a hospital in Scotland so I will probably be waiting for months on a waiting list 🙄. Have you ovulated this month yet? @acaciabluebell

@Marri1995 I’ve also had the same tests:

Day 21 progesterone, should ideally be 7DPO to check your peak progesterone which confirms that you ovulated.

Then earlier in the cycle LH, FSH and AMH basically to check egg reserve. Then an ultrasound to check the lining and antral follicle count which also tells you about the reserve. I ended up having an HSG because I’ve had previous surgery but that was normal except for a 5mm polyp which they are not wanting to remove....