Conception- terrified either way

[rosieb060]

We've been TTC since July. I've been though a full rollercoaster of being unable to focus on anything else cos I want it so much, and very relaxed.

I'm due AF on Thursday. I had some quite medium bleeding 9 DPO, and have had some spotting since.

Is this likely to be implantation bleeding?

I've suddenly got big feelings in both directions which are really conflicting and confusing - I will feel really sad if I'm not pregnant AND I'm full of weird and big anxious sad feelings if I am pregnant after all.

Not pregnant, AF arrived this morning. Onward and onward!

@rosieb060 Sorry AF arrived! It really is an emotional rollercoaster & so all consuming. It’s hard to think about other things when you want it so much. My AF arrived last week & we have been trying for 8 months now, it’s so disappointing. Least a new cycle can begin for you now & you’re out of your misery. Sending positive vibes xxx

Thanks so much @MJM1608. Always here if you want to chat. I need some strategies I think for staying and being calmer and enjoying the process more. Do you have any that you've found work for you?

@rosieb060 here for you too!❤️ I feel so relaxed as soon as AF comes but the two week wait just sends my mind into overdrive & that’s the bit I can’t cope with! I do think keeping busy is key! Making plans (although it’s hard right now), housework, reading a book, getting into a good tv series, time with your partner, exercising, going for walks - all these really help me keep my mind off it. Lots of people say stop temping, stop doing 2 OKPs a day, stop testing too early.. just DTD every other day - helps make it more relaxed.

I had an early miscarriage last month so was disappointed to see AF this month but we move! Just got to clear your head for a new month 😊

Doesnt it send you crazy seeing how many people are announcing pregnancies right now too?! 😂xxx

@MJM1608 all sounds really helpful, thank you!

It does seem a lot!. It just makes me want to cry every time anyone says it.