Tits out, chin up and ❤️ yourself - TTC Bus 19

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs

October BFPs so far:
@blackcurrantqueen - Oct 5th
@mrsbear1122 - Oct 12th
@savethechubbyunicorns - Oct 13th

Testing dates:
@adogisforlife - October 17th
@pebblesinthesand - October 17th
@mosherchick - October 18th
@Vil10 - October 21st
@ladybird345 - October 22nd
@lucyrp - October 22nd
@Franklydear - October 25th
@Kay00 - October 25th
@Juno231 - October 26th
@dsr87 - October 28th
@clairey844 - October 30th
@notyetamumbuttrying - October 31st
@katao - November 1st
@2020mission - November 2nd
@nestinginNL - November 18th
@Hopeful110 - November 22nd

Also @Juno231 I always need the progesterone reminder

1. You lot to keep me sane

Love this @Pebbleinthesand and I need to remember how lucky I am. Mine are...

1. My amazing little girl
2. My OH is a gem
3. I have my health
4. My family who rock
5. Only working 2 days a week plus school holidays

🥰

@Minster2012 YES 🍾🥂🍷🍻🍹
I thought sloe gin was the whole point of attending shoots 🤔🤪 can't shoot all that straight with or without it 🙈

@Clairey844 I love the idea of the baby choosing you to be their parents 🥰.

@Mosherchick I know what you mean about the negative test being the definitive thing. I only have one test left in the pack of 5 I bought in the summer and honestly with the amount of bleeding I've had today, there's just no chance anythings clinging on in there.
I'll keep my fingers crossed for you still.

@Minister2012 I love sweet wine so Moscato of it's Rose of White and Jammy Red if I fancy red wine. I like gin and have loads on but I never seem to reach for it unless I have people over. I also can't resist a Baileys 😋
Love your 5 things! You must be one very lucky lady to have so many wonderful people around you and to have overcome so much. Your tattoo is incredible too!

Yes we all need a number 6
EACH OTHER the crazy lockdown corona TTC crew 🥂🥰❤️🌈fuck boy bodies n all

@Dsr87 yeah sorry fuck boy bodies got alllllllloooootttttta answer for

@Juno231 negroni??? What's that???? (Mental note to buy some!) mmmmm this red wine is lush btw
And I'm gonna crack open some really slack mushy soft Brie & blue Stilton & crackers to really head off the "I'm not pregnant" vibe 😂

@franklydear and @Clairey844 love your 5/6 things! Thanks for sharing.

I definitely agree that this group has been so amazing the past week. Feel like I've been chatting to you all on here for months 😂

@Pebbleinthesand baileys, seeeee that's one thing I really can't get on board with! For my 21st in the heady clubbing days (remember them?!) 😂🤣 my friends got me a cement mixer....a lime cordial shot & a baileys shot you down & it cuddles in your mouth. OMFG. URGH. Put off for life 😩and I think I'm bleeding the same as you today...much like a sweet wine perhaps 😳

Cuddles in your mouth, what a typo.

CURDLES.

Ok that might be the g&t & wine 😂

I'm onto cheese next.
Mmmmmmm

@Minister2012 that sounds grim! I'm not surprised that put you off Baileys.

@Clairey844 oh okay thanks! someone said it helped regulate periods and to shorten lengthy cycles so wondered if anyone had had either 🙈🤣 wishful thinking!

also "me, my brother and our balls" is a really good watch about male infertility, chris off lobe island has done it and it made me cry so much😫

@Minster2012 tipple of choice has got to be my number 1 is PASSOA😍😍 number 2 is any gin and then any other spirits after that🤨😂

@Clairey844 don't be silly you don't need to apologise for saying all that stuff when you know we all feel the same!😂 and about the baby choosing the parents that's so lovely to think! and regarding @Minster2012 YES!😂😂

@clairey844 I hear ya. Someone i know announced they were due in apr (my due date) and the same wk I would have been telling everyone as I'd have been 12/13 wks so now I've to look at all her baby posts which is non stop since. Dont get me wrong. I'd never begrudge anyone, just it's hard when that should be me too 😭
But yes I love what you said about the baby chooses you. I love that. I was told that about diabetes, my sons t1 diabetic and someone once said we were chosen as a t1 parent because we were able to do it which in a way was nice. T1 had to fit into our lives not the other way around xx

@2alreadywantanother oh my god totally feel the same. Someone we know has just had their 3rd boy. They are very much the do baby bump shoots, baby showers etc etc types. She announced in lockdown just as I was going through MMC & I was thinking shit I'm meant to be pregnant coming out of lockdown with a baby. It's only natural. If we didn't feel that way then I genuinely think we might not be invested. BUTas @Clairey844 says, it will fall Into place & it will face & wont matter as we will have our dreams. We don't forget, but we will heal
🥰❤️🌈😘

@lucyrp ive still got that to watch & another drink I haven't heard of. I'm genuinely shocked there's still so much more booze to try???

@blackcurrantqueen I'm sorry you're going through a loss too. It's horrible isn't it. This group of women have been a huge support for me these last few weeks so I know they will be for you too. Sending a big virtual hug to you. Xx

@gem176 see those patterns of hypos sounds good to me. I do an antenatal clinic and I'd say all of my T1 ladies have the same issues, so many say it was the 1st sign that they were expecting even before their period was late 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 for you. Looks like you're guna need some extra carbs in you before bed until you know for sure either way lol... How many dpo are you now? When do you think you'll test?

With regards to the wave if light candle & talking about pregnancy loss... Reading a few of your posts about made me feel so emotional. I did put a lit candle photo with a #waveoflight on my insta stories yesterday. I didn't put anything else just that. No one asked questions or anything. I didn't want to say anything else because those who are close to me know about it. I want to be able to share about it more widely one day but its still a bit raw for me...yet i still wanted to share it. I wanted to share it for my little baby.
@gem176 I agree with everything you said about not talking. We need to talk. I reached out to my cousin who I know has a miscarriage between having her 2 children, only to find out she's actually had 4 (2 before each child) and never spoken about the other three. We had a good talk and we both found it so helpful. I don't know what I'm waffling about now but I just found catching up tonight so emotional and wanted to send virtual hugs and love to you all. 💕

@Minster2012 been meaning to watch it for ages and tonight on day 2 of days off together i convinced OH to watch it with me and his thoughts from it were "oh maybe i should go and get checked then". poor chris brother. he was ejaculating as normal but not one single sperm was contained in that! no sperm?! 😧😔 omg passoa is the best, literallt tastes like squash and when i go out normally ask for luke quads of it with orange juice 🤣 no bubbles so doesn't bloat me or make me feel sick 😂

@2alreadywantanother @minster2012 I've had the exact same this this last week with people announcing babies due the same time as we were due. Its so hard isn't it - like a kick in the proverbial bollocks... 💔

I was chatting with my cousin about it all the other day as she had a really lovely attitude about her 4 losses - she said that she does feel sad that she had to experience so much loss to have her family but if it had happened any other way then she wouldn't have her daughter & son and her journey through loss brought them to her. I found that oddly comforting 💕

also has anyone else seen myleen klass's wave of light instagram post?! 😭

@minster2012 negroni is pure booze 🙊 it's campari, sweet vermouth and gin in equal measures...pretty lethal!

@Franklydear the progesterone reminder is secretly to remind myself each time 😂

Hi girls I hope everyone is okay and enjoyed their Friday evening 😁
I am with friends all weekend so I won't be on here much till Monday! Pool party tomorrow 😬 but after all this whiskey G&Ts and food I'm sure ill be bloated 😂😅😅🥃🍲 but its fine ill still rock it! Omg I thought I was going to be sick righttttt after drinking from 12pm alllll day but my friends Colombian auntie gave me a "potion" completely stopped the sickness and I coukd drink again!! Haha how mad is that xx

Morning!! ☀️

@Minster2012 funny you should mention my being a porn star - I'm still working 400kms (250 miles?) away so sent some sexy nudie pics to OH the other day to make sure he misses me when I'm gone 😝
Srrriously though, it's bad enough that we have to have the shit news of (ivf) BFNs, MCs etc, but then the constant reminder with the blood bath that follows for a week?! Salt to the wound. I hope you had much choc and fun last night to help 🍸
I am super lucky to not get badly nauseous in pregnancy like some others do, so OH and I didn't change up anything with our sex life. We aren't like rabbits anyway, but a couple of times/week. It never occurred to me to stop?! 🤷🏼‍♀️

@Clairey844 it is so so natural and ok for you to feel that way about your friends. I am also very much not religious, but agree whole heartedly with your friend's thought on eventually having the baby that 'chooses' you xx

@Juno231 ah you are my booze sister! Red wine and negronis!! 🍷🥃🤤

Oooh 5 things I'm grateful for, nice one @Pebbleinthesand 💗

1. my amazing, slightly crazed, two little boys
2. my body, even though it is a love/hate relationship. It has tested me to my limits with debilitating illness and pain, birthed two children way too early, and given me two late preg losses, but it is still here and still fighting and I still have my mind intact, and that's a bloody great thing.
3. my supportive OH and family
4. my extreme privilege to be able to spend time with my kids and not have to go to conventional 'work'. Renovating this house is hard AF but it's what I chose to do and I'm so grateful for that.
5. where I live. It's safe and sunny and we have access to healthcare and education. Oh and we aren't lead by a narcissistic oompa-loompa, which is always helpful.

Sorry my 5 things were long!

Omg @Minster2012 you don't know a negroni?! It's ice, gin, Campari and vermouth. Strong but amazing.

Ok can I talk about this thing of seeing friends' preg/baby announcements on socials? Safe to say we are all caring and kind ladies yes? None of us would ever wish the suffering of fertility problems or losses on anyone else right?
So. I think it goes without saying that we are happy for those people, but there's honestly no need to put those disclaimers on your emotions here! Tell it straight, no judgement.

Example:
'Fuck you Facebook friend!! For posting a picture literally every fucking day of your pregnancy. Yep I know, you are pregnant, yep you're having a gender reveal, yep ok it's a boy, ah yes there you go you have a belly, what a lovely nursery you have there, and some maternity photos, uhuh small child kissing belly, bump update, bump update, bump update, bump update..... oooh yep there's the baby, there's you coming home from hospital, meeting small child, bath, walks, blah blah blah blah'

But I feel really happy for her 😝 (no really, I do.)

My point is you are welcome to say here, no holds barred, how sad these things make you feel 💗💗💗

@Skip86 omg what use are you to me across the world! How am I supposed to share negronis with you this way 😭

Just had an argument with OH about the definition of intelligence vs being scholastic - a new low 😂. I may even have called him the c word lol

Oh god I love this thread!!

@Juno231 @Skip86 @lucyrp I totally need need negroni in my life. It's totally safe whilst on AF then I have another AF Before meds right so any potential child won't be Satan??? 👺👹and of god 31st Oct was my due date so long as we get that outta way we are safe anyway 😂👻

Adding to shopping list

@Skip86 what time is it there, it's a bit weird I'm still awake drinking more red wine & you are now awake??? 🤔 your fuck you Facebook friend is absolutely accurate. We are pleased...through gritted teeth. I always forget you've had early tough births & that miscarriage is always a scary & real prospect for you my fellow scarred warrior but how many houses do you currently have on the renovation front 😉them bloody pigeons didn't want you to take time off! And the business and your hubby's tests?? There was a query on him on something wasn't that maybe??? Or is that too much wine for me playing pigeon shit jokes on me!

@Missgoldilocks I bet you look fucking smoking hot. HAVE AN AMAZING TIME we love you x.

And that's me out this month with the arrival of AF!

Morning ladies, I love the idea of the 5 things we see grateful for so here are mine

1. My dd 👩‍👧
2. My OH, been together 8 years now ❤
3. Being able to conceive naturally after being told it would never happen. (Unicornuate uterus/half of it, pcos)
4. Owning our own home 🏡
5. My health, having MURCS syndrome but luckily it doesn't affect me.

Sorry for AF catching some of us out :( and im glad to see your back with your Gin @Minster2012
🤭 I had theee strangest dream, choosing a name for 'our baby boy' talking to family about including my late grandads name as a middle name as I promised him we would lol. So strange! Woke up and hesitated to poas this morning, 12 dpo and thought well if I had a sticky bean it would show up on frer by now surely? Possible implantation around 7 and 8do (2 day temp dip) my temp is still high too! And im pretty sure these are bfn, a few times they have caught my eye and I'm like ohhh i think I see something and then I'm like nahhhh cant be as its not a dark line lol
Feel free to tell me what you think, im pretty sure im out though xx pics were taken at the 5 minute mark

@Hopeful110 i can vaguely see a line but i hate saying i see lines or i don't because i had one on an FRER which definitely wasn't a chemical so i'm not sure 🙈 fingers crossed for you!

also here's a laugh for you ladies yet again. wtf is my body actually doing 😂