Tits out, chin up and ❤️ yourself - TTC Bus 19

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs

October BFPs so far:
@blackcurrantqueen - Oct 5th
@mrsbear1122 - Oct 12th
@savethechubbyunicorns - Oct 13th

Testing dates:
@adogisforlife - October 17th
@pebblesinthesand - October 17th
@mosherchick - October 18th
@Vil10 - October 21st
@ladybird345 - October 22nd
@lucyrp - October 22nd
@Franklydear - October 25th
@Kay00 - October 25th
@Juno231 - October 26th
@dsr87 - October 28th
@clairey844 - October 30th
@notyetamumbuttrying - October 31st
@katao - November 1st
@2020mission - November 2nd
@nestinginNL - November 18th
@Hopeful110 - November 22nd

@Juno231 oooo yes lovely!! We spoke last night and tbink we're going to go for composite too because our area is prone to flooding, it flooded in Feb, we had to get new floor😩

@lucyrp I'm so sorry you feel so shit and fed up today!! This journey is so draining and difficult and it is truly upsetting when people are you get pregnant so fast, but your time will come whether it be natural or with help❤️

So girls do you all class the first day of spotting or first day as full flow as your af? I've been spotting since yesterday just when I wipe so usually I wouldnt log it as af until it's actually on my pad or I need a tampon, but just wondered what everyone else does...x

@Vil10 I read somewhere that you're supposed to count the first day as spotting there was a good reason for it but can't remember why. If it has to be with help then I'm gonna be paying off that loan for forever 😔 wouldn't get ivf as I already have a child sadly x

@katao thank you :) where are you in your cycle hun? Xx

@lucyrp it's a difficult situation and anyone going through it can relate xx it's so hard to relax I mean what does that even mean? 😂 That my pussy muscles are all clenched up and that's why I'm not getting pregnant? So I need to relax? Thats what I think of when people say to relax. I don't know I have no words of wisdom because I'm the same and I think about my termination all the time and wonder if this is my punishment but realistically it's just a very negative way of thinking which I know it is but hard to break!! I think we are our own worst enemy! Xx

@Vil10 I don't count spotting. I can spot for up to 3 days before proper af 🙄
@lucyrp do you have room under your bed? You can get handy under bed storage

@Vil10 I read up that first full flow day is cd1 xx

@lucyrp Like these kind of things

@Newbie0818 oh my gosh look how Milo has grown!! 😍
I'm sorry you're feeling so crap lovely. When I cbf with sex I just remind myself that once it starts I do actually enjoy it and push through. Sorry that's probably not super helpful.

@Gem176 angry doggy (style) sex for the win 👌🏼

@Missgoldilocks of course you looked damn good girl! So glad you had a good time!!
🤞🏼🤞🏼 for you the next couple of days.

@lucyrp oh darling!! I'm so sorry you're feeling so shitty! Hugs your way x lovely ring 💗

@Juno231 funny you should mention greyhounds - I spoke to a gf yesterday who fostered one for a few months this year. She said it was lovely but she'd never adopt one full time because they are a bit nuts and destroyed so many of their things!

Loving the dogs and nails!! 😍😍 my dog and nails are both scraggy and covered in paint atm so I'll save you from them for now!

I'm 6dpo today I think, and have had strong cramps the last two nights, to the point I've had to take Panadol to get to sleep. Bit weird because it's too early for anything preg related, so just putting it down to having a messed up cycle post D&C 🤷🏼‍♀️

@Joanna1009 we know how you feel, TTC can be very all consuming of thoughts it's horrible you can't switch off. So not really any advice just a hand hold that it's normal to be a bit obsessive then try to switch off for a couple of months and sometimes you can, sometimes you can't 🥰😩but it's early for you & it might be coz some of us are a bunch of old bus wankers that you feel that way 🤣

@Missgoldilocks i fecking don't want periods. PERIOD!! Ha ha oooo so you are testing tomorrow 🤞🏻🤞🏻gif I so want this to be your month lovely

@Juno231 do the dogs come with the paint?? If so, def like that one!!

@AKC88 your dogs are lazy?? I need dogs like that. Defo. Specially when they are mega cute too 🥰& get on that sausage girl for slip slidey ewcm fun 🍆🍆

To all those without puppies @Katao @2020mission don't forget a puppy is for life. And if you need a loan of one I can oblige. Not a puppy but a dog for a while?? It might put you off! Or a toddler?! It might put you off one of those too. Mines just tried to drown me numerous times & "saw mummy leg off" in the swimming pool. The lifeguard was laughing at me so much. I got a full on workout.

@lucyrp it's ok to have Down days, you will get there hun. We will be here with you 🥰😇I kind of my woolly jumpers in a drawer but they still end up in a heap. It's all I wear now the weather has turned!

Well girls no good luck needed!!! I checked my cervix and there's a bit of blood up there ready to come down. Sooo yeah 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

@Missgoldilocks difficult is not the word. I hate when people say just relax. Oh thanks great I hadn't thought of that I'm all relaxed now!🤣 that's how I feel about it all, and I torture myself thinking about the pseudo labour and o replay that day over and over in my head from start to end and I can just see them there 😭 I was around 15 weeks when the hospital finally sorted themselves out. I went a couple of weeks before and they'd double booked me so I had to go back. I wish I hadn't 😔xx

@Katao i already use under her storage for my many pairs of shoes 🤣

@Skip86 thank you 💗💗 its cute isn't it x

@Minster2012 I have mine in a cardboard box on top of my chest or drawers and it's winding me right up 😭

@Missgoldilocks FFS why are us OPs destined to be here so long???

@lucyrp mine get one of my best drawers cos I basically live in jumpers all year round. I buy them constantly 😂

@Minster2012 how do you fit them in a drawer ? Mine are so big I could probs fit like 4 in max 😂

Yay @Missgoldilocks you go girl!! Glad you had fun and held your own! I'm ok thanks. Off for my smear this afternoon, yay for me 😝
@lucyrp ahh I'm sure things will get better soon, or at least feel better soon. Pretty ring 😍
@Vil10 wouldn't log it as day 1 until you need a pad/tampon. Sometimes I come on in the evening but it's still a proper flow so I log that, but I wouldn't if it was only brown when wiping. I prob would if it was red when wiping as I know that means I'll get full flow same day.

You lovely lot are properly cheering me up today, much needed. Feeling very down in the dumps atm. Work is horrendously stressful, thankfully weeks leave next week so trying to focus on that. All that and TTC constantly in my head enough to make anyone go nuts 😂

@Juno231 @Katao @Minster2012
Thank you ladies I appreciate it. I am thankful for what I have already for sure. And I'm thankful to be on the bus with you all! Haha 'old bus wankers' that really made me laugh

@Missgoldilocks fertile week 😉 not really tracking though so hoping that will take some of the torture out of the tww.
@lucyrp that's where I keep my shoes too.
That sounds like a really hard experience, no wonder you relive it. Hugs
@missgoldilocks oh no!!! Ugh you are right @Minster2012 some of us really do seem to be stuck on here 😥 and absolutely a dog is for life. Hate to see them moved on and treated like commodities.

@Kirky658 it's a big pile of poo isnt it! 😂
@notyetamumbuttrying good luck with the smear

I'm defo out. My watch decided to finally work and my rhr has taken a dip. Hopefully af is on her way 🤞🏼

@Kirky658 you are very right! Hope the time off does the trick for you!
Thanks @Katao just sat waiting to go in now. enjoy FW! I'll be one of the long timers too @Minster2012 at least it's familiar "faces" 😂
@lucyrp hope you don't have to wait long for her, or that she doesn't show at all!

@lucyrp by that I mean, that you get a surprise bfp instead!

@lucyrp hugs, and chin up, don't envy you a few days indoors with a toddler, get creative, I have jumpers every where, specially as I like them oversized...
I had a bit of a tummy ache, don't know what it means, maybe the decision of having galaxy caramel with my lunch...
Trying to keep my cool a few more days, ds was I'll last night so nobody slept, the torture, babies sleep all night, right? #icantdothis

@lucyrp hmm I'll have a research! Ohhh yeah I completely forgot about that, it's so rubbish that because people can change and circumstances, I have so many friends in the same position where one of them has a child with someone else but they're struggling to get pregnant with their new partner, it's awful that they can't get that help! That with the wardrobes is our problem!! When OH bought this house it was 4 bed but he knocked a wall down and made it 3 so the master bedroom was bigger and had an en suite, so he had the second bedroom as a spare and the third as his wardrobe room, then when I moved in we changed the spare into a single bed instead of a double so I could have it as my dressing room😂 so if we get pregnant one of us will have to compromise and move out wardrobes and getting fitted ones in our bedroom! So plenty of storage but a pain of moving everything if I get pregnant!

@Katao well this will be day no.2 if spotting for me so not sure whether to count it as af or not, I never spotted when I was on the pill, I could pin point exactly when I was going to start and it was always in the afternoon on the same day, but since coming off I always spot a few days before!!

@Missgoldilocks Thankyou I'm going to have a research!x

@notyetamumbuttrying yeah I thought the same!x

So anyone that knows me on here knows how terrified of testing I am because of constant bfn emotions. But I'll be 14dpo tomorrow and I have a cheapie test and a frer. Should I be brave and do the cheapie tomorrow morning?
I had spotting over the weekend, a bit crampy today, but no af when I normally get it by 11dpo... my temp seems to be all over the place, but still up which is unusual. No symptoms whatsoever and I bet af will come overnight now I've said all that as that's what always happens 🤣
Thoughts/ predictions??

@LaceyMermaid oh it's just awful! There's no social distancing, no physical way to do it in our building that is, and like you I have no idea how we're going to get the year 11s through it. My dept are pretty good as we've been doing recorded lessons for everything we teach so that helps a lot, but still not the same is it.
Just feel like... I didn't sign up to be out at so much risk. And can't afford to not go into work...

@lucyrp aw no twitchy eye sucks. Try to do things that calm you down tonight, bath, wine, breathing, etc. Chocolate is my personal fave...

@2020mission do it! Honestly, Milo has seriously helped with my broodiness, and it's so nice to go for a walk each day etc. Really think I would be so much more emotionally struggling without him through all this ttc business.

@Missgoldilocks I'm in a similar position to you! Not sure whether to test or not?!?! See above 👆🏼and below👇🏽
Sorry about blood :( let's hope it's not af.

@Skip86 Thanks for replying :) I just need to get back on it haha. Next week is half term so hopefully I'll be more in the mood if af doesn't show..
hopefully signs for you so far! 🤞🏼

@Newbie0818 I’d be tempted to test or maybe leave it a few more days if you don’t like seeing BFN? I’m due tomorrow and cramping away so I’m sure I’m out. Caved and did an IC today and it was stark white. I know what you mean I absolutely hate my job right now but can’t afford to leave as I don’t know what else I can do and earn the same. It was bad enough and so pressurized already but now it’s even worse and my boss it being the bitch from hell since covid. I struggle with mental health anyway so it not a great situation and I just don’t feel like I’ll ever conceive as my stress levels are so high all of he time! Sorry rant over 😪

Ps I think your chart looks promising!

@Newbie0818 I feel the same, I only test late, my plan for now is to test 4 days late, unless af first... I am really nervous as I don’t know what to think, but I am not panicky