Spunk me up! - Bus 18

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs

Testing dates:
@2020mission - October 6th
@notyetamumbuttrying - October 6th
@Katao - October 9th
@minster2012 - October 12th
@nestinginNL - October 14th
@Vil10 - October 16th
@Franklydear - October 25th
@Juno231 - October 26th
@clairey844 - October 30th

@Minster2012 sorry to hear about the bfn, really hoping it might be still too early for you, and it'll change to a bfp by your actual test date. If not, then really hope the remaining egg is the lucky one 🤞

@lucyrp looks like your ov day might have been cd 32! Hope you get another high temp tomorrow!

@NestinginNL Enjoy your road trip! It sounds fabulous. 😊

Oh my. I've never been more excited to have a nauseous spell! It's super early, but oh my. Been peeing a lot tonight too. My grandad is quite concerned 😂 Trying not to get my hopes up too much.

Morning girls!! Happy Sunday!

Me and OH have had a lovely chilled weekend, but he did tell me he was starting to feel the pressure of TTC and starting to feel like there's something wrong with him, he said because I had those bloods it's obvious I'm okay, so now he's doubting himself, and it made me feel awful, I told him it's still so so early and couples can take a year to conceive and have absolutely nothing wrong, I said I'd stop telling him when I ovulate so there's no pressure on that side, I feel sad that he might've been feeling this for a bit but just not said anything! Then this weekend I've seen 2 people announce their pregnancy, another girl has given birth, I also bought my friends 10 month old the cutest autumnal zara outfit and my other friend who is 31 weeks pregnant I bought her baby a fluffy snow suit, and they both arrived yesterday and it made me all emotion making me think I want to be buying this stuff for my own baby🥺 I'm spending the evening with my friend and her 10 month old too whilst our OH go out for food together!

Sorry for the long post! Hope everyone is okay and has a lovely Sunday!!

@Franklydear don't be fooled by that pesky progesterone!

@Juno231 thanks lovely. Just hoping an egg has actually been released as my temp rise isn't as dramatic as usual.

@Vil10 oh bless you both. It's such a rollercoaster and there's so many ridiculous emotions involved that no one really realises beforehand. It's good you were able to reassure him but I get how awful it is. As long as you're there for each other and just trying to stay relaxed as possible, it'll happen eventually x

@Newbie0818 thanks, I need the handhold, it’s been 11months, I should know by now...
@Vil10 sad that he is feeling like that, but good that he is talking about it

New mantra: I shall not symptom spot.

@Vil10 I super relate to that. Me and the partner have had a similar talk. We never thought we would have any trouble conceiving, we just assumed that it would happen.

Morning girls 💕

@Minster2012 I'm so sorry lovely 😔I really thought I'd be checking in today to see good news from you! How are you feeling? Xx

@Vil10 the exact same thing happened to us, although the convo was kinda forced on us by OH not being able to perform a couple of times. He said it all just felt so timed and planned, which obvs it was 😂, so I stopped even doing OPKs. I knew roughly when I would ovulate so had that in mind, but it meant I didn't have that pressure of having to do it on a day once I had peak etc. That worked much better for us ☺️ I think it's so difficult when it's all we want and can think about, but it's so good that he's told you about it so you guys can change it up a mind find what works best xx

@lucyrp what's today's temp like? Is CD32 the day like we think it is 🤞

@Juno231 it's 36.90 so gone down from yesterday ☹️

@Vil10 I can relate too, actually just had that type of talk this morning with DH, telling him about my temp staying high and we are still in with a chance this month lol he said he'd rather not know these early signs that I'm reading into 😅 I said I'll try to not tell him anything as he felt the pressure in cycle 1 already but it is so hard not to especially when I used opks and see the peaks! But running out of opks and deciding not to repurchase for next cycle. Going to just temp.

10dpo today, did an ic....and I think I'm developing line eyes I think I see a shadow of a line 🙈 or convincing myself there is something there...

@lucyrp still way higher than your previous temps - I think CD32 was maybe the day! Did you DTD around that time? 🤞
@blodyn91 what do you think

@Juno231 we DTD CD31,32,33 + 34 so well covered if it is ov day 😬🤞🏼

I'm only 7DPO, but I had to get up twice to wee in the night just gone. The second time I felt like I was busting, but only a trickle came out 😂 (sorry, TMI) I'm feeling quietly optimistic...

@mosherchick hope it's good news for you x

@Minster2012 how are you? Hope you're holding up okay xx my sisters one egg didn't fertilise so they are doing the cycle again. :(

Ladies I nerd to vent :( I'm so down about it all 😭 it's like once I'm past ovulation I'm just scared I'm not pregnant and pretty sure I'm not pregnant every single time. I get so frustrated just thinking about my period coming huff. This is so hard and my partner is so calm about it all but this is really affecting my mental health and every month is harder.
I don't understand why it's not happening when there are no problems 😬 I think about things in the past and I feel so much guilt and like it's my fault that I'm not getting pregnant 😩
We are going to my OH friends house who had a baby like a month after meeting (they're now married) baby is like 8 months or something and thinking about it is annoying me. I guess I'm jealous and upset that we've been together so long and love each other so much and it hasn't happened 😩🙄 fucking hell lol I literally torture myself 😭 helppppp why am I not getting pregnanttttttttt
:(

@Missgoldilocks I feel you, it’s been 11months of us trying, I am convincing myself is not happening while being hopeful every month, I feel quite psychotic, tbh...

I'm sorry, @MissGoldilocks. It's cruel that some people get pregnant without even trying and others have to go to such lengths. I've been trying since January, but had to take a break around August, because like you, I felt it was affecting my mental health. I feel you x

@Missgoldilocks I'm feeling the same! I started trying in January and I've actually found myself thinking a lot the last month or so about how maybe this isn't meant to be. I've been thinking about our life without a family and trying to come to terms with it as I genuinely believe that's what's ahead for us. I've even been thinking of reasons why I might not make a good parent to try and make myself feel better about it. Comparing us to others who have a family and thinking of trivial things like I don't have a car and we don't have a nice house yet 😕 can't be a good mindset.

@Franklydear hand held 💕

@Missgoldilocks I totally feel you! In a way I'm glad I know I have an issue, it was so much worse when I didn't have my diagnosis as I felt so guilty and broken. Just know that it's completely normal for people with no issues, some are luckier than others and your body is just preparing for the healthiest pregnancy it can give you 💕

@Missgoldilocks @Newbie0818 is totally right! Some couples do just take longer. It must be so frustrating! Tbh I'm glad I know what our issue is, even though I wish we didn't have an issue at all. It's a tough one!

@Franklydear it's horrible :(

@mosherchick it is so hard, I had a child 9 years ago with an awful person in not good circumstances and yet now I have everything for a child it's not happening! It's crazy x

@2020mission ahh don't think like that! I know it's been a while for you too but don't think about not having a family! You'll just need to get some help if it comes to that to get pregnant x

@Newbie0818 I know, thank you but I guess it's hard to focus on that and be like everything is fine lol probably because the worst is not knowing when it will happen right? That's so hard I think because you're just in the dark. What's your diagnosis?? Xx

@notyetamumbuttrying yeah like of course you don't want there to be an issue but it kind of gives you an understanding! And a path as to what happens next x

@Missgoldilocks Oh that's really tough. Sod's law indeed! We don't have any children, so we're trying for our first. Would be nice to have twins, but also terrifying!

@Newbie0818 you're right! At the beginning I'm guessing everyone thinks oh we'll get pregnant it'll be easy, but you don't think about all the other feelings you have along the way, it's draining! Yes definitely!x

@Franklydear he's not usually one to talk about his emotions because he thinks it makes him seem soft so I'm really glad he's said something!!

@Mosherchick don't we all! He just said he doesn't want to let me down, it made me feel so sad for him!!

@KateColx my ovulation has changed since using those northisterones so I might use opks again next month to see if my cycle goes back to normal 30 days or if it says at 33-35 then I might stop using them too!! My friend who's pregnant at the minute said she used them once and that's it! Yeah definitely I'm so glad he told me!x

@Mrsbear1122 yeah I don't tell my OH now if I have signs, a couple cycles ago he was convinced I was pregnant and I could see the disappointment when af arrived and it made me feel awful, so now I just don't tell him, only tell him if and when af arrives! It might not be line eyes!! Have you got a pic??

@lucyrp you're deffo covered, I hope you have ovulated🤞🏼

@Vil10 I also have a have to be tough and soldier on dh, it worries me that by the time I found there’s a problem he is way down the barrel, mine is also feeling the pressure so I don’t talk about ovulation, but he is counting the dates as he normally ask when af is due a couple of days before it is.