I’ve had a really shit year. Was TTC #3 for months last year until we took a break due to me feeling rubbish. I had a lot of issues which made me feel bloody awful that were put down by several doctors to a flare up of my inflammatory bowel disease despite me telling them that it felt nothing like that and I’ve had that under control for the last 2 years. It also seemed to get worse/ease off a bit in sync with my monthly cycle. Eventually a doctor listened to me and sent me for a scan. Turned out I had a rather large cyst on one of my ovaries causing the problems and cancer had to be ruled out, which thankfully it was. I also have some pelvic congestion which they are going to have a closer look at.
The cyst has now resolved and I had a telephone appointment with a gynae consultant to talk about the plan going forward as although the cyst was causing most of the problems, there is still a lot of lingering discomfort/pain and general crapness which gets worse around ovulation and AF. He suggested that if we want another child then I could TTC now and delay further investigations till after pregnancy should we be successful and that would be his advice but that he’ll get the ball rolling getting me on the list for a laparoscopy in the mean time.
I hadn’t considered this option till he suggested it and just assumed we would have to put TTC on hold, possibly permenantly but at least until things were sorted. We weren’t going to jump in straight away but we figured it can’t hurt if we’ve got the go ahead from the consultant and given that it took 12-18 months to conceive DC1&2 it probably wouldn’t happen straight away anyway. This was about 3 weeks ago, fast forward to two days ago my period was due, it didn’t arrive and I had a load of not particularly sensitive internet cheapie strips in the drawer from last year. I got a faint but definitely there BFP so ordered some FRERs which were also BFPs but still not the strongest lines. OH was struggling to believe it was real and I knew he’d feel better if I test again in a day or so and get a strong line. I waited and tested this morning with FMU and both the cheapies and the digital test I was saving are BFN. I am absolutely gutted. Added to this a couple of close friends have just announced they are expecting. I don’t know why I let myself get my hopes up.
Sorry for the long whinge but it feels good to let it out.