TTC after MC - Aug/Sept 2020 (Thread 12)

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Thanks @VP91x for the new thread. I love how you keep it so organised. I can’t believe how quick time has gone from the other threads already! I’ve only been around a short while & I think this is my 3rd thread 😮 We are typical women hey nattering away ha!

Sooooo anyhow - have we anyone testing soon?

I’m currently 5 DPO & my TTC mind is trying to overpower my realistic and strong mind already hahaha.

Repeat after me - I must NOT cave, I must NOT look for implantation signs, I must NOT symptom spot, I must NOT test early.

Save me with distraction someone please hahaha xxx

Thanks for the new thread @VP91x 🥰

And thank you for your lovely message too.

@chloedancer897 @Northernsoul90 I've cried a lot this evening, something has really got me this time round. I've just had a bath and waiting for OH to come home from work.

Still in the battle for tests. My GP is referring me but the wait is long. He recommended I use my healthcare but they don't cover miscarriages so he's written it for infertility so I have to try that route tomorrow. Somehow I think I'm going to have a no from private then either a long wait or a big bill. I feel so deflated from it all.

@Ttc2020no2 sorry for your losses. I really hope this cycle is a lucky one for you

@Pugprincess thank you. I feel like my hopes have been dashed and I'm scrambling to find them to be honest. I know this feeling is short term but I just can't keep doing this to myself. And you're right, money is power, and I don't have much of it to be too powerful with 😂
Best of luck for tomorrow morning, will be looking forward to your update.

@HE88 thank you so much 🥰 how are you doing?

@Firevie I want the details of your Austrian doctor! But might be worth knowing the info for your London one, just in case I need to be looking around. Thanks for the virtual hugs too 🥰 much needed

@1990EM so lovely to hear from you, and thank you for your message. How are you getting on?

@HappyVibes I've allowed myself today to be sad, I've had a nice bath and have my candles on.
I'll research that stuff, thank you. I need to refocus myself while I wait for more guidance - could be a while! I'm tempted to drop a lot of it actually and just focus on a few things. Might not even OPK, though that seems unlikely 😂

@Rebecca1992 thank you 🥰. How are you?

@Lollol86 OH has been at work ever since we found out, he finishes at 9. He got upset in the car when I came bounding out of the hospital, acting like it was all ok. He started me off! I didn't realise he would be like that as he was even less convinced than me that it was happening.

I just hope I'm not messed about by the private medical and they put the referral through. At least then I feel like I'm getting somewhere rather than being on an endless list

I want today to be over now xx

@HopeForRainbowbaby thank you so much. For some reason this has hit me hard and I didn't think it would because I was honestly expecting this news. I think I had a few glimmers like seeing a sac on the scan, and no bleeding and I just hoped I might be lucky. I hope I get it all out so I feel as you did in a few days time.
Have you continued to track etc? Or have you taken a more relaxed approach? Have you been referred and got a date? xx

@HappyVibes I really love your positivity, I know I've said it before. Your messages just make me smile.
I really hope this is your month, and that all your non symptom spotting and the like makes time go quickly before seeing those two lines xx

Thanks for the new thread @VP91x your a star for doing this each time 😘 xx

@MichT4 I'm doing fine thanks, I got info through today about the IUI treatment so its just a waiting game now. Xx

@Pugprincess good luck for your scan tomorrow. Xx

@HappyVibes lol! It's so hard in the TWW isn't it? We have no POAS to keep us busy!

@MichT4 look after yourself. You know we are all here if you need to vent, cry, release some negativity, whatever you need xo

@Happyvibes haha just about, I love your messages too! Your energy bounces out of the page, yes you're strong you've got this 🙌🙌 no testing early xx

@MichT4 It's important to let yourself feel aad etc, and then it will clear way for new emotions and feelings of hope and moving forward. You can do this, just do whatever is right for you. I hope your private healthcare does the right thing 🤞

@HE88 no worries🥰 amazing about the IUI, how does it work? When do you get booked in? Xx

@MichT4 I genuinely feel the same way reading your messages too! Even in these times of hurdles to jump, you seem to somehow still articulate your words so inspirationally.

After our 3rd MC I relaxed so much more & I just feel in such a healthier place emotionally now. Just allowing my body to do it’s thing & trusting the timing and alignment of everything. I kind of stepped back a little (only a little ha) and now just taking it all in my stride. Hopefully you’ll feel the same at some time in the future lovely. But for now, you just do you.

When you are ready to perk up, remind yourself that - your OH is fertile, you are fertile, you ovulate regularly, you have conceived already, you know so much more about your body, you know so much more about TTC, you’ll have more money saved for maternity leave.

& the BIG one - your hormones will now be soaring so high ready for your next cycle, you’re going to be SO fertile!

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@VP91x IUI is hubby's sperm gets inserted into my uterus around ovulation. Before ovulation I will be given medication to allow my ovaries to produce more follicles then I'll be scanned every few days to check what's happening in there. Not sure how long I'll be waiting it could be a while which is a bit of a pain but not much I can do about it. Xx

@VP91x thank you for the new thread! Just marking my place - no update really from me apart from I'm 4 days into the TWW.
@Northernsoul90 I think I'll follow your lead and temp today and tomorrow then give it a rest for the rest of this cycle X

@HappyVibes none of the above allowed in this TWW - we got this 💪🏽

@MichT4 I really do feel for you and wish there was more I could do and say to make this all go away. You really are an inspiration on this thread and such a strong lady. You are always on here to help the rest of us out and just know that we are all here for you.
I hope the doctors hurry and help you.
You saying this has really got to you, my point earlier being that we put up this wall to protect ourselves but it does absolutely nothing.
I hope your dp is giving you lots of cuddles. Just be there for each other and you will both get through this.

@VP91x thank you for the new thread xx

Thank you for the new thread @VP91x 🥰

@HappyVibes Do not, I repeat DO NOT test tomorrow 😂 (or any time over the next few days) 😂. I'm 3dpo now and have started watching the fall on Netflix which is good for distraction! It's so hard isn't it - the urge to symptom spot is unbearable xx

@MichT4 I really hope your private healthcare moves things forward - it's just ridiculous the hoops you have to jump through to get anywhere with anything! You absolutely can do this ❤️ let yourself feel sad and grieve and then renewed positivity and clarity will shine through xx

@MrsK21 Good to know we are in this together! 😊 xx

@HE88 That's brill about the IUI! Hopefully they give you a date sooner rather then later 🤞🏼🤞🏼 xx

Thanks for the new thread @VP91x can't believe we are on the August/ September thread 🤯

Good luck to all those in their TWW, I've been quietly following along with you all and being your biggest cheerleader 🥰

@Pugprincess good luck with your scan in the morning, I also have one tomorrow and feeling super anxious but hoping all will be fine for us both x

@chloedancer897 @Northernsoul90 @MrsK21 absolutely, the TWW is mind blowing! I feel like I’ve got a huge chocolate cake in front of me but I can’t touch it for another 10days 🤣 & I’m a big chocoholic!

Oh we watched the first series of The Fall last weekend! I found it so dark! It was good but very dark. Could have done with watching Matilda after it or something to bring me back up ha.

We have plans this weekend and next weekend thankfully so I’ll hopefully not be on here chewing your ears off with symptom spotting ha xx

@SmileyT I know, I've been here since March! 🤯😧

@HE88 really hope it isn't too much of a wait for you, sounds like a fab plan of action!! Xx

@Northernsoul90 and @VP91x thanks ladies I've got a plan of action in place so I can relax and hopefully it happens naturally. Xx

@SmileyT good luck with your scan tomorrow is this your 12 week scan? Xx

@VP91x thanks for the. We thread! You’re so so good at keeping it all organised
@MichT4 ahh well I’d love you to come to Austria for your doc appointments but fear that might also eat into your finances 😂😂 I’ll send you the details of my London doc next week as all the details are at home in London
Hope by now you’ve had some time to catch up with oh! Xxx

@VP91x I have a feeling you won’t be here much longer lovely! Your support of everyone else on their journey will be bringing you very good things. Xxxx

@SmileyT good luck for your scan tmr hun xx
I loved the fall - watched all of it couple of years ago
@HappyVibes do not cave! You’re so strong you can resist the urge! Xxx

To all you beautiful ladies on here...this is your sign 💫

@MichT4 just caught up on today’s thread and your news. I’m so sorry my love, I have been thinking of you. Hoping you get some follow up soon, I appreciate the waiting is so tough xx

@SmileyT good luck for your scan tomorrow, keep us updated xx

@SmileyT good luck to you too!
@VP91x thank you for the new thread 🧵 XX

@HappyVibes I'll still be here following all of your journeys 😘 thank you for the post such a strong message!

@SmileyT @Pugprincess thinking of you both today with your scans 💕💕

Hope everyone is okay this morning! Xx