TTC after MC - July 2020 (Part 5)

[VP91x]

Hey lovelies 🥰🥰

So nice to have more names on the BFP list ❤️

@Hayleylou89
@1990EM
@Tink20058
@mumoftwobeauts
@DontStandSoClose
@peonyrose87
@MichT4
@Ejb86

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@SmileyT
@Rainbowhope11
@Dipsy77
@HopeForRainbowbaby
@elliew818
@NightDreaming
@Renna
@Jazper
@peonyrose87
@HE88
@mrsssk
@chloedancer897
@Bellabubble
@Wishingfornumber2
@Banbi
@Diorissimo1985
@DBTJ
@2020wish
@Eli2020
@busby85
@Northernsoul90
@Lollol86
@calimommy
@Quail15
@littletandme
@Rebecca1992
@Sophj19
@fafi
@Re6ecc4
@Rb486
@Girlmum83

If anyone else would like to join please do xx

Thanks @Dipsy77. Your test made me want to POAS this morning but I decided against it (regretting it slightly now 😂)
Finger crossed all will be fine and I can ween myself off the urge xx

Hi ladies, I was out all day yesterday so just catching up! @MichT4 I'll be thinking of you today, I really hope you get some reassurance or at least some continuous monitoring 🌻

@Hayleylou89 love your gorgeous scan pics! Thanks for sharing 🥰

@SmileyT thank you 😊 xx

@VP91x hope your okay, sending lots of love your way xx

@MichT4 fingers are crossed for you today, hope everything goes okay xx

Today I am 8dpo. I usually get my af cramps start a week b4 my af is due and it looks like today is no different. I’ve opened my eyes and can feel them already 😕 I’m gonna start my day with a soak in the bath to help ease them, and then eat a slab of chocolate and banana cake for breakfast.... that’s okay right????

@Baba458 sounds bloody wonderful! I think that should be the start of everyone’s days.

And thank you @baba458 and @fafi xx

@Baba458 awww sorry to hear you think AF is en route! That cake sounds amazing though and sounds like the perfect self care plan xx

@SmileyT that sounds glorious! I've been craving a buffalo chicken burger with blue cheese sauce for so long. Going to have to hunt one down soon or make one.

Thank you so much, just keep crying like don't even consciously do it they just fall out of my eyes. That doesn't even make sense 😩. I'm glad Bella is at nursery today, she always just hugs and cuddles if she sees me upset which makes it worse when it's something like this.

@Dipsy77 @Tink20058 @fafi thank you so much ❤️❤️

@MichT4 definitely going to stick on some rubbish tv and just sit in the pit of sadness and get it out of my system. Thinking of you right now, sending you so much positivity and love ❤️

@VP91x Thinking of you today ❤️ let the tears flow if you need a good cry. Rubbish tv sounds like a good idea! We are all here for you xx

@MichT4 Good luck for your app today, sending positive thoughts ✨ xxx

@MichT4 I will be thinking of you! Hopefully all goes well ❤️

@Baba458 it sounds like a lovely breakfast and morning:) enjoy 😊

@Dipsy77 lovely line 😍congratulations !

@VP91x i don't know what is happening but I can see you are having tough time ! Rubbish tv definitely helps if you don't feel like 100% . I would probably add some good chocolate to that and maybe a walk on fresh air 😘

Thinking of you today @VP91x ❤️

@MichT4 @fafi this is how I will be spending my morning. I work from home atm so I’m sat in my loungewear devouring this, obv I counteracted it with a green tea #balance

Ladies, please can someone tell me why my lp has changed from last month? And when the bloody hell my cycles are going to go back to pre mc length? I can't stop crying. Every time it's a reminder of what's happened and what it's done to my body.
For background - my first two cycles post mc were approx 39 days, my third one was 31 days and I'm now on cd 33 waiting for af. Pre mc I was regular 28/29 days.
I just want things to go back to normal. Should they have done by now - 4 cycle in?
I just feel I'm never going to be able to conceive again while they are so irregular.
I'm grieving so bad xx

@VP91x thinking of you and agree with what others have said- have a good cry if you need to!

@Hayleylou89 what a lovely scan picture of your little boy! I’m so pleased for you. Excellent news about the clinic.

@SmileyT aw thanks. Even hubby is getting a bit more into it now. Yesterday he was like ‘you’re on cd4 today aren’t you??’ And I was like let me check my app 🤣🤣 I’ve invested in some of those clear blue digital ovulation. I didn’t realise there are different types. I go the ones that only detect the one hormone the Lh surge and give two days fertility. Box says to test on cd10 until I see peak so fingers crossed! Hubby has two weeks off work starting just when fertile window begins so we will be busy! Haha.

Can I just say thanks to the girls on this thread- really helping me when I’m down. I was quite worried about spotting before af each month and felt like I didn’t have a shot but it’s great to hear your experiences. I feel I would rather listen to real peoples experience to understand if things are ok! And seeing the bfps is really making me believe I can do this! So thank you xx 😘

@Jazper sorry to hear you are feeling so low! Reg cycles I know it’s annoying to hear but I think everyone is different and responds differently. I’ve no idea about my normal cycle because was on pill so long but now I’ve the opposite problem as mine are sometimes on the shorter side! I’ve started taking a vitamin blend called female formula from Holland and Barrett and that’s supposed to help get you regular. But it’s just experimenting I feel. The good news is you have your cycles so have a chance. It only takes that one egg! Are you doing any tracking? X

Thank you so much for your reply @Mommybear05 . All I can find on the internet is 'if you had regular cycles before your mc, they will be regular after' and it's making me feel like something is wrong with me that they haven't returned... I will look in to what herbal remedies might help although I get what you mean about it being experimental. I know it seems backward, as I want to conceive, but I'm wondering if going on the pill (short term) will help me regulate 🧐 But than I think, if I just give it a few more months it may regulate naturally anyway. Argh 🤯 my head's going mad. Sorry to ramble. I'm so sad today.
I didn't track my first cycle. My second cycle I didn't get a peak and ran out of sticks. And I religiously tracked my third and fourth and got a static smily on cd17 both times. Xx

Sorry guys I cheated and tested early

So last week whilst in deep sleep I jumped up and had to rush and grab a biscuit as I was going to throw up. I did a test and not surprised it was Bfn.
Around 4am I went toilet and checked my cervix and saw blood however period not due for well over a week so did a test. I saw a faint line i have just done another and can see another faint line.
I was meant to test on 11th however I will wait till Sunday to re test.

Hi @Jazper sorry to hear you're having such a hard time with your cycles. It is frustrating as well when the internet information makes you feel like an outlier. I'm currently still waiting for my AF post MC at the end of May. It's been 6 weeks but I need to wait another couple of weeks till my GP takes it seriously. I keep telling myself my body has had a traumatic time and it will eventually settle down. I hope you feel better and please try and give yourself time, the stressing about it also can make things worse.

@MichT4 best of luck for your appt today. I really pray it's all good news and you can put your mind to rest

@VP91x sometimes the pit of sadness is needed but I hope you feel better soon. Do you have anything nice planned for over the weekend? Thinking of you x

@Baba458 welcome to the group and sorry you think AF might be coming. I am so jealous of your breakfast, that looks fab! I'm trying to lose some of my lockdown weight gain in preparation for my BFP when it comes.
I'm also working from home, just did a team call with normal clothes on top half and pyjama bottoms underneath!! lol

@DBTJ ooh that sounds promising. Have you got a photo?

@Jazper sorry you are feeling down. When I called my doctor to ask about blood tests, she said they wouldn’t do them for at least 6 months after a MC as the hormones can take a long while to settle. Seems so unfair but it could just need a bit more time. I hope it sorts itself for you soon

Update from me after my appointment. They were so lovely. No test but they scanned and took blood. Nothing conclusive on the ultrasound, she took measurements etc but said i might only be 5 weeks (I am today or tomorrow but I let on I wasn’t sure so she would scan me) and she said if I was 5 weeks then she’d be surprised to see any more than she did. So as expected, no answers from that. She took my blood and surprisingly they will take it again on Sunday - thought I’d have to wait until Monday.
I asked her if I should take more tests and she sternly said no, said I’d drive myself mad.
So for me it’s time to try and relax a bit, and it’s nice to know i should have an answer either way on Sunday.
Annoyingly, the spotting had stopped, but of course now she’s shoved that thing up there, I’m expecting a return xx

@VP91x how are you doing? xx

@MichT4 wishing you the best of luck for today ❤️

@VP91x I’m not sure what’s up but whatever it is we are all here for you. Have a good cry, watch crap tv and eat chocolate ❤️

@Jazper I can’t help with when you periods will become regular but I just wanted to give you some reassure. My periods use to be regular but became irregular 2 years ago and I have still managed to conceive, everything crossed for you that they go back to normal soon ❤️

I’ve woke up feeling really rubbish today, absolutely shattered, have a headache and just feel generally yucky like hungover.
We are off to the beach, hopefully the fresh sea air will make me feel better.

@MichT4 I'm glad they were kind and did what they needed to. They need to take bloods within 48 hours so repeating on Sunday. It's to check that your HCG is doubling every 48 hours and it's the only way to confirm the pregnancy is progressing as expected rather than lines on a test. Make sure you get lots of rest between now and then and try not to worry yourself, you are in good hands xxx

Glad you got a scan @MichT4 , even if they couldn't see much. At least your have a follow up blood test while will (fingers crossed) serve to really put your mind at rest.
Thank you for sharing what the doctor told you. It's frustrating but reassuring. Can I ask, if they got to 6 months and did bloods, is it progesterone they are looking for to see if I'm ovulating?

Thank you @MrsK21 , I know the stressing isn't helping. I wish I could just switch off 😞 I really hope you see af soon, or get your doctor to listen if it doesn't. You're right though, our bodies have been through trauma. I really need to be patient with it xx

Thank you @Lollol86 , that's reassuring to know. Hopefully I am actually ovulating even with this irregularity in my cycles ❤️

@MichT4 will you get your blood results today or do you need to wait until Sunday? Definitely try to relax over the next couple of days and fingers crossed the spotting doesn't come back. Xx

@VP91x sending you lots of hugs and love today, you let those tears out and a day of watching rubbish TV sounds like a great idea. Xx

@MrsK21 haha I love the half dressed up half dressed down look I do that often. I had a call to listen in on this morning, I’m sure they could probably hear me munching in the background 🤣😋. I spent lockdown trying to focus on my diet so I cut out wheat, sugar, dairy and Yeast ..... it was so hard but I lost a ton of weight but I’m back on wheat and sugar as you can now tell 🤦🏼‍♀️ Which I totally blame on the fact lockdown has now eased.

@Jazper sorry your having a tough day. Sending lots of hugs to you xx

@DBTJ my fingers and toes are crossed for you 🤞🦶 xx

@MichT4 that all sounds great news. Hopefully everything will be okay now moving forward xx