TTC after MC - July 2020 (Part 5)

[VP91x]

Hey lovelies 🥰🥰

So nice to have more names on the BFP list ❤️

@Hayleylou89
@1990EM
@Tink20058
@mumoftwobeauts
@DontStandSoClose
@peonyrose87
@MichT4
@Ejb86

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@SmileyT
@Rainbowhope11
@Dipsy77
@HopeForRainbowbaby
@elliew818
@NightDreaming
@Renna
@Jazper
@peonyrose87
@HE88
@mrsssk
@chloedancer897
@Bellabubble
@Wishingfornumber2
@Banbi
@Diorissimo1985
@DBTJ
@2020wish
@Eli2020
@busby85
@Northernsoul90
@Lollol86
@calimommy
@Quail15
@littletandme
@Rebecca1992
@Sophj19
@fafi
@Re6ecc4
@Rb486
@Girlmum83

If anyone else would like to join please do xx

@michT4 I'm doing ok just started the ttw even though a few days ago I wasn't planning too but I just can't help it.

Oh totally I'd be exactly the same, strangely for me I remember both times worrying about why I never have implantation bleeding and always wanting that but after these last few months I don't want to see any for a long time.

Your staying very strong though and I really do hope all goes well for you xx

Thank you @Emsnewmum. The reality is, there is nothing I can do about it (sadly), so I am trying to keep positive though it is hard at times. As was discussed earlier, I think it's just knowing isn't it - then we can deal with the situation. Hence my nerves for Friday's test.
I'm hopeful it is OK, and the ladies' suggestion that it could be IB making it's way out while the little bean snuggles in more is keeping me strong.

Do you mean you are already in your TWW? As if that is your peak OPK then you possibly haven't ovulated yet and you should keep DTD? Sorry if I have misunderstood your first comment.

@Rb486 yeah it's costing a fortune. I have the tests already though so it's money spent that I might as well use 🤣 xx

@MichT4 I had 2 at 6 weeks one private and one with internal at epu they told me to keep both appointments and saw the heartbeat on both then had one last Friday and was 12 weeks as soon as I had first bleeding I took clear blue weeks and got 1-2 then waited until the following week and was 2-3 then took a few more 🤣🤣 I love peeing on a stick I will attach pictures xxx

@MichT4

@Tink20058 awww lovely pictures! Did your GP refer you for your EPU early scan?
I just find the whole thing a bit terrifying. It's like you want to know what's happening but the fear of finding out something you don't want to puts you off! 🤣 Just need to man up and take the test. I'll probably take about 4 on Friday xx

Good luck at your scan @IWM20

@Northernsoul90 really hoping that your blood results show a significant decrease. Shame they wouldn't scan you 😒

@Girlmum83 thanks lovely, how are you doing? Xx

@IWM20 best of luck at your scan xx

@2020wish thanks and I started on Pom juice around the time of peak opk 👌🏾

@Northernsoul90 let us know what the results are today hopefully they give you the green light x

@Rb486 thanks for posting those commandments again I've saved them to my phone x

@Hayleylou89 ahh glad you're good and that everything is progressing well with your little boy. Ooh let us know what they do at the rainbow clinic not heard of that before... and the hol sounds lush, just what you need 😎 I wasn't going to book a scan until after 8weeks but you and @Tink20058 have made me think 🤔

@MichT4 I probably wouldn't wait until after your 8week scan only because they might have a wait on midwife appts, do you self-refer to your hospital, mine we do so I didn't even tell my GP as they are bloody useless anyway. Last time I had an early scan at 6 and 7 weeks and saw the HB both times, not much on the pics but still good to see the flicker. Unfortunately MC at 7w4 so will definitely have one at 8w if I get that far x

@michT4

Sorry I was confusing I always thought when you get your peak it means you ovulate that day and that dtd after is usually to late. Will try over next few days just to be sure.

Yes hopefully it is implantation bleeding yes and that your bean is as snugh as can be. Good luck for friday x

Thanks @Jazper @Emsnewmum

They have just rang from EPU my level was 102 last week and it’s come down to 34 now so at least it’s decreased quite a bit I was hoping for it to be even less than that though. She said I must have had very high levels of hormones so it’s taking longer to reach 0. I’m thinking that this means I haven’t yet ovulated, I asked on the phone and she said my cycle won’t come back properly until I get a negative. Presumably the opks I’ve done were detecting the hcg - I’m feeling a bit upset if I’m honest because she then said I probably wouldn’t get a period now for 4-5 weeks so I just feel like it’s dragging on forever. I’m going to keep doing pregnancy tests and then when that reaches a negative start doing opks I think is that what others would do? Or any other suggestions? Otherwise I’ll be doing opks for weeks 🥴

@SmileyT I know! They've made me think too 🤣. And you are probably right about not waiting, they were fairly useless the entire time so maybe I should do it earlier.
I think if I get to scan point, I will just base it on my anxiety levels. If I can relax a bit then I'll hold off as long as I can (maybe). Wish I knew a sonographer! xx

@Emsnewmum so when you get your peak, you should ovulate in the next 12-36 hours, so could be any time in the next couple of days. So I'd DTD a couple more times if you can. If you don't want to, just do what you can and I'm sure you're covered anyway . And thank you x

@Northernsoul90 that has come down a fair bit, which is good, as on that trend it'll be 0 in a 3-4 days. Obviously it's probably more scientific than that, but it won't be long.
Sorry you are feeling upset. I think I would do what you have said and start OPKs when the PG test is negative. It's too confusing distinguishing between the HCG and LH. If you can, DTD every 2-3 days anyway and fingers crossed you get a positive OPK really soon xx

Thank you @MichT4. Yes hopefully in a few days it will reach negative, I might test again on Sunday/Monday and see. I know it is too confusing to know whether it is picking up actual LH or HCG so I’m going to leave off doing them until I get the negative xx

@IWM20 best for you scan today 🤞😘

@MichT4 did you say your spotting stop now ?

@Mich2020 yeah i was only just 6 weeks and i seen the heart beat on the scan flickering away, the pic from that scan is below and next to that is the 9 week one, I think a 6 week scan will reassure u and theres a reason they offered me it and it so i wasnt stressing and worrying as it doesnt help, so i think get one booked in and im
Sure everything is absolutely fine and ull ease up then and look forward to ur next one x

@Rb486 yes iv got a doppler and already found the babys heart beat, first heard it at about 8.5 weeks its so lovely to listen too! X

@HopeForRainbowbaby I don't want to jinx it, but yes 🤞🤞🤞🤞

How are you?

@Hayleylou89 thanks lovely, I might look into that. That 9 week scan is adorable! ❤️❤️ x

Lovely scan pictures @Tink20058 @Hayleylou89 😍

@MichT4 so funny isnt it they gave me a strip of about 5 pics but that one he looks like a little space baby in a big bubble 😂 just cnt wait for 12 week scan on the 20th pray all is ok and thats when they start filling the scan pic 🥰 x

@MichT4 no I self referred to epu because I was bleeding and was in tears on the phone with her so she booked me in for the following morning but I managed to book a private one in the afternoon on the day I started bleeding xxx

😂 😂 @Hayleylou89 that's exactly what he looks like. It's so cute!
I have every faith all will be OK. What will you do from there? Would you get another private before 20 weeks?

Thanks @Tink20058, I'll see how the test goes and how things progress and then I'll have a look and see when to book xxx

@Northernsoul90 Sorry to hear it's not come down as much as you wanted but the positive is it is coming down. The whole process is so dragged out and I know everyone says it will take time, but "time" itself seems to go so slowly when you want it to.
I would just DTD every couple of days regardless, that is what I've been doing. Like you, I had quite high HCG levels as well for the number of weeks I was at (I was in the thousands, despite being quite early).
I'm really hoping the next few weeks go quickly for us both - try not to worry, I'll be your limbo buddy xxx

@Hayleylou89 @Tink20058 your scans are so so gorgeous, glad you are both doing well with your pregnancies. 🥰

@MichT4 maybe get yourself booked in for a 6w like @Hayleylou89 said. If I get a BfP I will probably do something similar like 6w, 9w, 12w. Would give me something to look forward to. Xx

@SmileyT how are you feeling? Are you managing to get any work done? Xx

@Northernsoul90 ah sorry to hear your levels coming down so slowly! They might go negative by next week if they went down by about 60 this week. You must be so frustrated though😔 xx

@VP91x Yes definitely feeling frustrated, I’m really hoping so. Just got to try and stay positive I suppose, at least they have gone down and not plateaued xx

@MrsK21 Yes limbo buddies haha ☺️. It really is so dragged out it just feels like a constant reminder of what has happened. I will do I think just keep dtd regularly as and when we feel like it. I hope it passes quickly for us too and then we know where we are with our cycles! Xx

Just a little update from me. Ive had the scan and it's definitely another miscarriage. Going to the EPU on Monday and I suppose they can see how it's progressing and see if it's all passed. God this is so hard isn't it xxx