TTC after MC - July 2020 (Part 5)

[VP91x]

Hey lovelies 🥰🥰

So nice to have more names on the BFP list ❤️

@Hayleylou89
@1990EM
@Tink20058
@mumoftwobeauts
@DontStandSoClose
@peonyrose87
@MichT4
@Ejb86

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@SmileyT
@Rainbowhope11
@Dipsy77
@HopeForRainbowbaby
@elliew818
@NightDreaming
@Renna
@Jazper
@peonyrose87
@HE88
@mrsssk
@chloedancer897
@Bellabubble
@Wishingfornumber2
@Banbi
@Diorissimo1985
@DBTJ
@2020wish
@Eli2020
@busby85
@Northernsoul90
@Lollol86
@calimommy
@Quail15
@littletandme
@Rebecca1992
@Sophj19
@fafi
@Re6ecc4
@Rb486
@Girlmum83

If anyone else would like to join please do xx

@Northernsoul90 it's just crap there is no other way to put it. Though I'm glad I called now, I'm sure if I called next week I would've been told to wait another 2 weeks! I hope you get some decent advice and clarity tomorrow.
I've not been trying long either but it's tough regardless - we will get there soon with our sticky beans! Need to stay positive X

@Northernsoul90 thanks for the recommendation! I think I could get really obsessive about testing, and I really don't want to be. So weird, because prior to getting pregnant I was very very relaxed. Since being pregnant and MC, I'm almost desperate to get back to being pregnant.

@Nellle I’m also 34 and had a MC July 2018. I also feel like it’s not going to happen again. I have been tracking last few months but this month I’m not going to track at all. I haven’t contacted my gp about it, just keep thinking this month will be it or will give it one more month! Have your cycles been regular? Mine were but this month and last haven’t. X

@Mommybear05 AF is a bit heavier but still lighter than normal. I have been having regular cycles but last two were early and now later than normal which is annoying. I have been using CB opk to track last few months but not going to use anything this month. Felt I was getting stressed waiting for my peak and then not seeing it as running out of sticks! Hope you get on ok tracking. They are useful if they work ok for you. X

@mrsssk thank you! yes we do! It is difficult to stay positive sometimes but at least on here we are all in it together. I hope your cycles get back to normal soon. We will be getting our bfps soon 🙏🏼🤞🏼

@CasperFlamingo I get quite bogged down with things in general and overthink so I’ve been a nightmare when ttc and then even more so after mc. If you can avoid falling into a rut with testing I would as it made me worse with my nerves for sure x

@Mommybear05 I feel so much better for not tracking everything this cycle. I've told myself though that if I don't catch I'm going to get back in touch with the fertility clinic to see if there is anything they can do to help.
I get it about wanting to know when you ovulate etc and now that af has came you are one step closer to tracking. Xx

@CasperFlamingo I totally know what you mean! I was SO CHILL about TTC until MC! Now every day is like a damn science experiment! 🤣

@Nellle I'm sorry you're feeling so terrible. I'm nearly 40 and I definitely get that 'it's never going to happen feeling'. Sometimes I feel more positive, then other times I feel like I need to prepare myself that it just isn't going to happen for me. It's horrible feeling like that. You're only 34 though, you really have got plenty of time yet, but I would definitely speak to someone to get the ball rolling at least.

@mrsssk @Northernsoul90 after my tfmr in November, I was sick with worry about why I hadn't had AF. It took 11 weeks before I finally got a proper period, with on off bit of bleeding around the time I would have had a cycle inbetween. I had a tiny amount of retained tissue that was just taking ages to shift. But I understand the anxiety, that was one of my lowest points, just wanting to get TTC again and worrying what was going on x

@MichT4 well I hope you are resting as much as you need to 😘 your body is working hard it needs a break sometimes x

@Mommybear05 yeah you are right about milestones, when I said August a few months ago it seemed so far away and completely achievable but now not so much. What are you doing for your birthday? xx

I'm pretty sure my friend has gone into labour so I can just imagine her sending me a pic of the newest addition to our group just after I get a BFN tomorrow can't decide whether that will make the day better or worse - I know that makes me sound awful but hopefully you ladies understand the mixed feelings 😩

@SmileyT that’s really sweet. I hope it’s working hard on the right things! Feel strangely at peace with either option at the moment - sure it won’t last. I just cried at the most random bit of New Girl 😂😂
OH found it very entertaining.

What do you mean your bfn?? You don’t know that yet. Do the test when you think is best, no rush here. But you don’t know what it’s going to say....could beat your august deadline after all 🤞🏼
Also, it’ll be hard and lovely whenever the picture comes, don’t feel bad about finding it difficult. It’s really shitty sometimes, and that’s ok xx

@SmileyT aw yes I completely get it. My friends have messaged out asking me to socially distance meet in the lark for a picnic. The one is heavily pregnant and I just don’t want to go full stop. Because she will talk about pregnancy fair play, but they don’t know about mc so I just don’t want to. Just keep remembering ppl have babies every day and it’s nothing personal and has literally no impact on if we conceive or not, although I get it it’s hard to feel happy and then you feel guilty for getting all jealous! But I hope you get bfp and there’s a new baby and it will all be good for both you and your friend. You never know what others have gone through either. My friend also mc before and I wish her all the best of course. It just stings and sometimes I can’t understand why c

@Wishingfornumber2 I get what you mean I used cheapie opks for a month and didn’t see peak and get disappointed so didn’t use again for the last few months. Never clear blue before though so hoping they are better. If you dtd regularly anyway then they wouldn’t always up your chances because Dtd is all we can do anyway x

Sorry ladies haven't been on my phone since this morning, my niece came to see me so went to see my parents then the wildlife park it's been lovely!

@Northernsoul90 did they say they would possibly scan you

@mrsssk if it makes you feel any better my period didn't come back until just over 8 weeks after my surgical procedure for the miscarriage. It is so disheartening when you see the average timescales and your body takes longer. Hopefully you won't be waiting for too long x

@Jazper I hope you are okay, it is so difficult when you are in the midst of TTC you can't see past the current cycle and the disappointment. But at 11dpo you aren't out yet, obviously you know your AF signs though but hoping that you get your bfp soon😘

@Lollol86 I always do mine at about 12, 4 and 8pm.

@Nelle welcome ❤️ as others have said I definitely think you should get in touch with your GP to get the ball rolling with some tests

@SmileyT it doesn't make you sound awful at all, completely normal and any of us would feel like this. If any of my friends told me now that they were PG it would be so hard. My my due date would have been in 3 days time and I can feel the emotions starting to seep into my day. I'm not looking forward to it at all. Hope you are okay ❤️ also, I have such a good feeling for you this month, stay positive about your testing xx

@MichT4 hope you are having a lovely relaxing evening and your OH is treating you to something nice and some TLC xx

@Mommybear05 hopefully you get some more clarity this month now that you are choosing to track again xx

@VP91x what a lovely day you’ve had! Bet it kept Bella entertained too.

He’s working at the moment but is cooking for me when he finishes. I have to go into the office tomorrow (sigh!) so I better shower, before resuming my position on the sofa and binging more new girl 😂 xx

@MichT4 no full flow for you and loads of emotions, definitely a great sign... and yes I'm staying positive I have no idea what it will say and either way I'm going to get on with it (and have a cheeky nandos for lunch as celebration or commiseration 😂) X

@Mommybear05 yeah it is super hard to be happy for everyone but like you say it's not like they've taken our turn even though it feels that way sometimes. Have you seen the pregnant one since lockdown? with my friend the thought of seeing her pregnant after my MC was much worse than the reality which was actually really nice x

@VP91x ahh that sounds like a lovely day and I've been thinking about your due date approaching, will you do anything with OH? Yes I'm staying positive, doesn't suit #smileyT to be a negative nelly 🤣

@MichT4 yeah it really was!! Bella was an absolute angel today (typical). My niece is 26 so have such a giggle when are together as we were always together when we were little.

Ah I hope he cooks you something yummy!! At least it will keeo you distracted tomorrow although I'm sure you'd rather be at home xx

@SmileyT such a shitter, I have a lovely candle I'm going to light. At least Bella will be at nursery and my OH at work so I can feel sad alone - sounds weird but I'm terrible at being sad around anyone it comes out in frustrated anger if that makes sense.

No absolutely not you need to live up to your name 😂 are you doing anything nice this evening? Work all okay? Xx

Guys is it pomegranate juice during 2WW not grapefruit? Heading to the supermarket shortly!

@VP91x we will be here for you, you don’t need to be sad all alone xx

@SmileyT I have missed nandos! I could eat one right now. Are you going to the office tomorrow?

@fafi yes Pom for the TWW

@fafi yeah pom juice!! Make sure its 100% pomegranite not concentrate etc x

@SmileyT @MichT4 a nandos is sooo yum!! Do you both have a usual order?

@MichT4 🥰🥰 thank you lovely means alot xx

@VP91x Any time, always here to listen or distract 🥰.

I either have a medium pitta with cheese, or if I’m feeling virtuous, butterfly chicken. Either spicy rice or chips. Also a sucker for a halloumi starter 😋
You? xx

@MichT4 ❤️
Depends either chicken thighs - hot, with spicy rice and corn orrr halloumi mushroom burger with peri chips 😍

Ladies, I don't think I'll be getting preggers this cycle my Oh is officially grossed out 😂😂. Caught me taking a pic of my EWCM I just got because I was so impressed with it. Sigh. Bet I sound gross now 😂🙈 xx

@VP91x no I totally know what you mean, sometimes you just want to wallow a little without worrying how you are making others feel. Yeah such a busy day at work and now I'm just laying in bed waiting for OH to get home 😴 and I think it's perfectly normal to take a pic of your EWCM it's impressive when we get big globs of it 🤣

@MichT4 yep in the office tomorrow so will be chicken thighs, chips, coleslaw and spicy rice for me 😍 but halloumi is great there aswell actually making me drool just thinking about it x

@VP91x 😂😂😂 EWCM already?? You are way ahead of schedule here!
What did OH say to that?

@SmileyT I’m really hungry now 😫

@SmileyT haha now to convince him of that 😂🤔 his fault for walking in on me on the loo I suppose 🤷

Yeah absolutely. I'll watch a sad film and let it all out.

Xx